Chapter 522

Chapter 522: Negative Thoughts

“Are you really won’t watch Kayla and the others fight?” Sonia asked me who was just thinking of the tournament.

“No. Even if I go there, I won’t be able to relax knowing that the cult is coming to attack us. Even if there are no enemy coming today, I can’t come to watch the tournament. I’ll be too tense to watch the fight and my mind will fly away to this place instead. And if the girls see me that way, it would break their concentration instead. It’s best for me to stay here until the tournament is over,” I replied to Sonia why I can’t and shouldn’t stay to watch the tournament.

And now that we’re at war with the cult, but the enemy is not here after we defeated the previous wave, my mind is wandering everywhere.

Why do we have to fight them here?

Why did I think that we can destroy the cult this way?

Why did I think that it’s a good idea to not let our strongest mages fight and planned for a tournament?

How did I came up with the idea?

.....

And why did the four kings thought that my idea is good?

Well, they do alter my ideas so the chance of us winning is high. But most things we planned came from me.

Did I actually thought that I know everything when I barely know something and I even have terrible memory?

I was just an ordinary man, who ended up becoming a doctor in the countryside, and somehow managed to gain a little bit of Aura and ended up being overconfident and died. I’m nothing special.

I just gained a half-assed ability of Aura and died stupidly. Other than that, I have the weirdest contracted monster ever. I guess that’s how it started. From Blobby.

If it was another summoner who made a contract with Blobby, and he or she is a powerful mage, with good memory and heavily involved in the war during the previous life, that person would be a better help than me. And maybe, the cult would have been destroyed even earlier.

But me? I’m just someone who met the conditions.

I learned very little about Aura. And I made a contract with Blobby. That’s how I ended up being chosen to go back in time.

If I didn’t learned Aura, I won’t be chosen to go back to the past.

If I didn’t made a contract with Blobby, there won’t be such thing as returning to the past.

Maybe someone else will learn Aura and make a contract with Blobby. But it didn’t happen.

Those ifs never happen. There are only facts.

Fact is, I learned Aura.

Fact is, I made a contract with Blobby.

Fact is, I’m the one who got returned to the past.

Fact is... I’m extremely frightened!

Fact is, I’m started to think negative thoughts!

Fuck it! I’ll use calming gas on myself for now. I need to be calm to assess the situation right now, and not thinking of the what ifs.

Many people believed me in this life. Many people are risking their lives for me. Many people are waiting for me to return home safely.

What have I been doing all this time? Training.

I have trained for much longer and harder than in my previous life. I’m much stronger than I was in the past. And I am the only one who can change the future with my involvement.

What if I ended up losing...

Oh, no! I started thinking negatively again! Breathe in the calming gas. Breathe in the calming gas.

“...What are you doing?”

Sonia who had been there from the start since she gave me the report, hasnt left at all. Usually, she would have disappears somewhere else. I guess that mean there’s no information that urgently needed for Sonia to relay.

“Nothing. There’s nothing to do, so my mind started wandering. And I ended up having negative thoughts, so I used calming gas on myself,” I replied truthfully.

“That’s what happens when you have nothing to do and you are on your own for too long. Go find someone to talk with,” Sonia said.

“You’re right. So... you had children, right?”

And that was my stupid attempt to start a conversation with the ghost.

“...yes. And you already know how the story goes. Also, don’t choose me as your conversation partner since I might not be here the whole time. Find someone else. Though I will be here for a while since I’m free,” Sonia said.

Oh, right. If I talked with her the whole time, when she needed to do something and being summoned far away, I will be lonely again. I need to find someone else here to talk to.

Sigh... and I missed Victoria’s presence again. She has wide area of topic to talk about. And it’s fun hearing something that doesn’t exist in this world from her.

Also, I must not let my mind wander too far from this battle. I need to think of what to do even when we’re just waiting.

“Then, Sonia. I have something for you to do when you’re free. I want you and Arin to use your charm magic to seduce the male prisoners and get them to tell us everything they know about the cult, and everything related to it. You can still use charm magic, right? And tell Arin that I’ll give her a bag of my blood if she finds important information,” I said.

Instead of making a conversation, I ended up giving an order. Well, it should be fine. And we might receive more information than what we have already knew.

“You’re giving an order now? Sigh... fine. Though it has been so long since I tried to use charm magic on someone, I should still be able to do it,” Sonia said.

“Good! I expected a lot from the past Reverse Harem Queen!” I said.

“...Said the Harem King.”

“No, no. The Harem King is Harold. He has more wives than I have lovers.”

“But Harold might end up losing most of them other than Carmen. As for you, your harem might still be increasing,” Sonia said.

Really? I will get more harem members? I don’t know about that.

Though about what she said about Harold might be the truth. I heard that yesterday, Harold has recaptured the capital of Arturo completely. And because many people didn’t believe that he was swapped, they made a decision to make Fabio the king right away.

When we meet again, he will be King Fabio. And his hardworking brother, the one who stayed in the capital of Arturo despite the danger, will be rewarded highly.

Fabio right now is hunting down all the aristocratic family in Arturo who have fallen completely to the cult.

As for Harold’s wives, Harold is considering what punishment will suit them. After all, some of their children also helped Fabio rise to the crown. So, they might not be punished harshly.

Maybe some whose children have fallen to the cult will be divorced by him. As for the others, even if they have fallen, since their children are very helpful, it might just end with house arrest.

I hope Fabio is done with cleaning up the kingdom quickly so he can help us.

So far, the fake king is still doesn’t know that the real king has returned. What will be his fate then?

Those in the capital of Consenza must be racking their brains. After all, it’s not just the fake king, his retainers, and the participants of the tournament came from Arturo. Some civilians and hunters are there as well. And we don’t know if they are from the cult or not.

Sigh... we know that the cult is the enemy, but we don’t know if someone is from the cult or not. I actually wished that all of them have something that will tell us that they are from the cult. Like the explosive devices in their mouth.

Unfortunately, only weaker members of the cult have them in their mouth. The strong ones don’t need to have them. And even if all of them have the explosive devices in their mouth, only Elsie and I can tell.

Just keep thinking about it will do is no good. I’ll just find someone to interact with during this free time.

The werewolves and the angels are no good. They think of me as their king or master.

The vampires? Should I talk with them about women’s fashion?

I’ll just talk to the people in the army. Maybe I could find another air mage or summoner. I already know that there’s someone with a mole as their contracted monster. Maybe we have another powerful monster?

Instead of giving the order to gather all the summoners, I talked to the soldier one by one and ask them if they knew any summoners in the army. Turns out, we actually have a few more summoners. And they haven’t summoned their monsters because their monsters are not strong enough to fight expert level mages, and they will be burdens instead. But just like the mole, each has their own use outside battle.

Well, as long as they know what to do with their monster, it should be fine.

Just like that, the day is over with me getting to know the summoners. Tomorrow, if the enemy doesn’t come as well, I’ll talk to the air mages.