CH 36

Chapter 36: A Secret About You. Would You Like To Hear It?

After hearing Bian Zhonghua’s words, Qi Ci remained silent.

Although he didn’t know about Bian Zhonghua’s past, when he mentioned State Master Li, the tone of his voice was obviously filled with respect.

In this world, there was no such thing as ‘right or wrong’. To put it bluntly, it was just a matter of making choices or giving up.

Qi Ci’s heart was suddenly filled with sadness.

Qi Ci didn’t dare to expect Bian Zhonghua to regard him as someone more important to him than State Master Li. He was even afraid that Bian Zhonghua would say: “After all, I’m State Master Li’s subordinate, someone from the Secret Servant Division. Our fate has come to an end, from now on, we should go our separate ways.”

Qi Ci dropped his hand to the side and secretly clenched his fist. When he saw Bian Zhonghua was about to speak again, for fear that he would hear the words from his imagination, Qi Ci hurried to say: “Who can tell what’s going to happen in the future? In the end, you’re just guessing. Maybe there’s a misunderstanding, so don’t take things to heart. Alright! The wine, um, let’s drink. Don’t think too much about it.”

After saying that, Qi Ci walked to the table to hold the wine jar up in the air.

However, he didn’t know that the fake smile on his face couldn’t hide the panic inside his heart.

Bian Zhonghua simply folded his arms and looked at Qi Ci indifferently, as if he didn’t have the intention of drinking wine with him at all.

“Come on, let’s drink. Why don’t you want to drink?” Qi Ci tried to persuade him to drink the wine.

However, Bian Zhonghua didn’t move.

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Qi Ci smiled for a while, but due to Bian Zhonghua’s silent attitude, he gradually put the wine jar back on the table. Then, Qi Ci turned around and walked towards the door.

Indeed, he wasn’t special.

At that thought, Qi Ci suddenly wanted to go back to the Northern Border.

Go back to his small, broken cabin, where no one would be able to see him. Raise some chickens and plant some fields, where he would lay on the haystack with grass roots, watching the clouds with his legs crossed as the soft breeze passed by.

‘Shit. It’s so painful to love someone.’

Qi Ci ran all the way to the door, but before he could open it, a hand suddenly stretched out behind him, slapping the door shut.

Bian Zhonghua put his other hand on the door, looked at Qi Ci, and said with a smile: “Young Gongzi, where are you going?”

Qi Ci didn’t dare to say anything. After all, he was a little choked up due to his own sadness. He felt hypocritical. Because he was afraid that the tone of his voice would sound strange, he simply lowered his head and shook it.

All these reactions were absorbed by Bian Zhonghua’s eyes.

Suddenly, Bian Zhonghua felt that the fragrance of the wine in the room was a little too strong, making him feel dizzy. The fingers of his hands, which were still supporting the door, gently closed. As he felt the roughness of the wooden door, there were two voices roaring at the bottom of his heart.

One voice was asking him, ‘how can you tease him like this?’. While the other was trembling with excitement.

Bian Zhonghua had never felt like this before. He even began to wonder if he had been poisoned with a Gu worm, or if he had caught something while exorcising the wandering souls at night.

In the end, the voice asking him from the bottom of heart overpowered the excited voice, making Bian Zhonghua feel guilty.

Then, Bian Zhonghua laughed: “What are you panicking for? Even though I don’t want to offend the State Master, how can I stand by and do nothing when you’re in trouble?”

Qi Ci looked up at Bian Zhonghua in surprise, only to smile at him right after.

At that moment, the questioning voice at the bottom of Bian Zhonghua’s heart, which kept asking him ‘how could you tease him like this?’, suddenly went silent.

Qi Ci seemed to settle down. As he let out a light breath, he said: “Don’t worry. I’m not someone who sits around waiting for his death to arrive. If someone wants to harm me, how can I not be on guard?”

Bian Zhonghua laughed: “You’re right, I shouldn’t take it to heart. If something does happen, we’ll worry about it in the future. Come on, you won’t go back until we get drunk tonight!”

The two of them solved a matter inside their hearts, but they also hid one thing from the other. After opening the window of the wing room to see the bright moon in the sky, they drank wine and talked about random things. Bian Zhonghua told Qi Ci about what he had seen and heard while exorcising demons, and Qi Ci told Bian Zhonghua about his life in the Northern Border. When the wine jars were held up high, the night seemed endless, and they happily talked about unknown things.

After 3 rounds of wine, Qi Ci talked about the day Xu Run jumped into the furnace without hesitation, in order to save his sister. When he thought about Xu Run and Xu Li, Qi Ci felt extremely sad. After all, they lived together for 3 whole years. Three years filled with warmth and friendship.

The anger caused by the betrayal had long been reduced to ashes the moment Xu Run jumped into the furnace. As if a breeze had risen, scattering the ashes away, leaving only a sigh of relief behind.

“I don’t blame him anymore.” Qi Ci lowered his head, looking gloomy. “What Xu Run did was all for the sake of Xu Li. In fact, he–”

Suddenly, a hand was reached out to cover Qi Ci’s mouth.

Qi Ci froze and raised his head.

Bian Zhonghua was frowning as he said: “Alright, alright, alright. Don’t, don’t men-mention him anymore.”

Only then did Qi Ci find that Bian Zhonghua was more drunk than him. His cheeks and neck were red, and his drunken eyes looked misty. The hand holding the wine jar was shaking, spilling the wine on the table. Qi Ci laughed at him: “You can’t hold your wine?”

Qi Ci’s words stopped abruptly, because Bian Zhonghua had suddenly leaned over, shortening the distance between them.

Bian Zhonghua tilted his head, and the cool moonlight fell into his curved eyes. Those eyes looked moist due to his drunken state, and his lapel was stained with the spilled wine. This appearance made Qi Ci unable to look away.

Bian Zhonghua stretched out a finger and waved it in front of Qi Ci’s eyes. Then, he smiled and said to Qi Ci: “I have a secret…”

“A secret about you. Would you like to hear it?”

I’m baack~~ 

Ah BZH is always teasing QC  and QC keeps hurting himself with false scenarios! Boi!!! Control your imagination, it’s too heartbreaking 

Akdhskdja can’t believe that QC would be a better drinker than BZH lmao