Chapter 71: The Queen of Losses

[SICARIO]

As Malika walked away from the podium with her husband and new mate, Hawi stood her ground for a moment, until it was too much for her. She knew that this was something Malika had to do, but the fact that Jer had been so excited about her replacement hurt her.

'Why does it hurt Ma,' Awuor said to herself as she stared at the blank space. She could feel her heart conflicting, and suddenly the voices of everyone around her, was like just white noise. They were just blabbering and she was getting overwhelmed by them

Awuor looked at the crowd that was slowly blurring out, and everything about them pissed her off. She wanted to lash out at them and tell them that she had once been the perfect alpha for them, to tell them who she was, but she knew they wouldn't care.

She knew that they would best be thankful she was alive and pretend that things were okay.

The fact that Hawi hadn't seen her father at the wedding, went to show that the Sicario alpha had isolated himself, maybe from the pain of losing his mate, something that could drive the former alpha nuts.

Hawi knew that her father could die from his grief, and knowing that it was a given, broke her even more than the stupid wedding b between her mate and her protector. She wanted to ask where her father was, and seek him out, but Hawi knew it would give her up.

But that was too tempting.

'No, not now,' Hawi said to herself as she stumbled and tried to walk away from the crowd that was enjoying the wedding. She wanted to make sure they didn't see her, because if they did, then they would want to care for the officiator, and that would raise questions.

Something was happening to her body, something that she hoped wasn't true, because if it was, Awuor would burn down Sicario here and now. She wouldn't spare any of them, whether it was a wedding or not.

She struggled to walk in a straight line, but then that was difficult for her, because her final bonds with Sicario were breaking a little too fast. It was like someone was intentionally cutting them, someone was forcing it to happen.

The pain was familiar, one that Hawi didn't want to think about but then she couldn't smell Dom or Elodie in the audience anymore, and that could answer her question. She could also hear whispers from the Sicario wolves.

The whispers that are breaking her already broken heart.

"Alpha Awuor, you fainted at the wedding, and Rukiya brought you home," Alpha Clarkson said and Hawi let out a growl at the mention of Rukiya. She hadn't wanted Rukiya anywhere near her, but fate was a stubborn son of a bitch, no?

"Oww... Just call me Hawi, or Awuor. I'm not an alpha anymore. Anyway, about the wedding, why am I here? Is Malika okay? What happened to her?" Hawi asked as she tried to pull the covers off of her, but Rukiya kept the covers on her.

"If you insist on removing the covers, I will stay here longer than I planned," Rukiya said nonchalantly, knowing so well that it would stop Hawi from getting off the bed, and it worked, much to Rukiya's disappointment.

Then again, it wasn't like she didn't know Hawi didn't want her here.

"I hate you," Hawi said to Rukiya, the sincerity in her voice slicing through Rukiya's heart and for a moment, Rukiya felt like she had been stabbed in the heart. She knew this was going to happen and even then, she had swooped in.

Her heart just couldn't take the hint. Maybe it would, but would it really, when Hawi was a disheveled hot messy bundle staring at her with beautiful eyes she wanted to get lost in for eternity?

"What happened to you? You fainted at the wedding, it's a good thing I got you here on time. You were hyperventilating, and calling for—" Rukiya began, before stopping mid-sentence and Hawi looked at her like she was bonkers.

"Calling for who, Rukiya?"

"Your father, Hawi, Alpha Sicario," Rukiya said carefully, worried that Hawi would snap, only that this time, she wouldn't blame her.

"What about him? He abandoned me, remember?' Hawi bit back like she wasn't already aware of the pain that was breaking her heart worse than life itself.

"Hawi... Alpha Sicario, was murdered," Luna Clarkson choked out sadly and Hawi looked at her like it was a lie. Surely it had to be, right?

"I'm sorry, Jaberna," Rukiya added defeatedly, her head bowed in sadness.

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* Jaberna = 'My beautiful.'