Chapter 76: In Which She Was Lost

[AWUOR]

"Malika... I promise, I wasn't trying to—" Hawi began and Malika rolled her eyes at Hawi, making the woman feel like she had a lot to do today. How the fuck had she ever gotten here? Maybe she wouldn't have attended the damn wedding, right?

However she had to be there, and see for herself the faces that she was going to destroy, and now she looked like she was determined to destroy herself instead of her enemies and her protector was glaring at her.

"I know you aren't that stupid. The only question I have is why the fuck would you call out to me and disappear underwater. Were you trying to teach yourself to be a fish or what?" Malika asked with a clear displeased as she stared at Hawi.

Hawi conceded and so she looked at Rukiya who was also glaring at her. She hadn't even changed clothes, and she looked like she had had the worst pain in the past few hours. Surely it couldn't be because of Hawi too, right?

"Don't tell me you're mad at me because you think I—" Hawi said as she looked at Rukiya curiously.

"Why would I, when you told Malika to seek me out for you? I just don't understand what's going on in your head. You're confusing me and it's pissing me off. Reject me already so I can move on instead of pushing me away and bringing me close.

"I hate it, and I can't even hate you for it, so please do what you do best," Ryuliya said angrily as she stared into Hawi's eyes that seemed to be calling out to Rukiya. Funny how they could manage to both be in their world even when they had Malika around them.

However, was that even enough to explain whatever the fuck had just happened?

"I did what now?" Hawi asked as she ran a frustrated hand through her tangled hair.

Hawi winced out in pain when she felt her fingers pull a little too hard at the roots of her long white hair which had somehow managed to remain white despite the fact that the woman looked like she had been fighting the water insects and fish.

"What?" Hawi breathed out defeatedly as she looked at Malika like she was hoping that it was all just a lie to discourage her from going back to Sicario. She wished it was just a bad message and that she hadn't been betrayed again by her father.

Hawi had been beating herself up for a while because of the man's death and he was playing catch with her?

What the fuck was even that?

"I'm sorry, Mistress," Malika said defeatedly as she watched the betrayal register with Hawi making her wince again. She had been played and betrayed by the one person that she cared for in Sicario. And it seemed like they were out to really get her.

"They faked Father's death because they weren't sure I was alive or dead. They tried to lure me because they always know that I would always show up for that old man after what happened.

"They used my love to play with my emotions again?" Hawi asked angrily, though this time, her tone was low and she was feeling like running things.

"He... He played me, Ruru," Hawi whispered subconsciously as she held onto Ruliya's arma and set herself up. She hadn't expected that her father would be that cruel and it was breaking her heart once again.

"I'm sorry, love," Rukiya said, ignoring the flutter in her heart when she heard Haiw call her ruru like they had been friends for the longest time.

Maybe that was a sign that Hawi cared about her, right?

Rukiya gently stroked Hawi's hair in reassurance, like she was telling the mad woman that she was always going to be there for her. It was frustrating, but then it wasn't like Rukiya could find it in her heart to walk away from Hawi.

"I have to go, Mistress. I can hear them coming. Please don't hurt yourself, as for what they were hoping to get, I'll find it out. Until then, be good to yourself mistress. Take care, Hawi," Malika said before she disappeared, making Hawi realize that all this time, only Rukiya had been real and Malika was just a reflection.

"Why is everyone always out to hurt me? What is so wrong with me? D... Do you think I'm damaged too, Ruru?"