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What am I supposed to do with forgiveness? They don't even remember their sins! I haven't done it right yet! Should we think ahead and forgive what didn't happen? They don't know what their sins are, they haven't committed them yet, and they don't change their sins in the future.

Forgiveness was the power of the giver, but Karen did not even have it. He was not even in a position to forgive. At least forgiveness was resolved, and it was a matter of concern after receiving an apology. Even if Karen wants to forgive now alone, it is impossible.

"Lady, there's a man right behind you....”

"…other things to get pregnant….”

“…….”

It was not until Nancy cried out in piles of paper and spilled ink that Karen stopped wasting paper.

Eventually, he survived and put the biggest goal of pregnancy first, but Karen had to think more about the way she had never done before.

Tom was also part of the method, and telling his father directly and not seeing Duran was one way. And what should I do next?

Karen decided.

I wanted to stop Verdick from coming to Haier's territory.

I wanted to change how Isela died in Raymond's hands.

I decided to find a new way again.

***

"…Can you explain to me why you're doing it now, Karen?"

The lord looked at Karen and asked her in a pent-up voice.

Karen was looking at her father with a determined face. His lips were clenched and his clothes were well-dressed from head to toe. Wearing a hat and a thin spring coat, he wore a frill and pearl ornament inside. The earrings and make-up were fine, but the shoes were made of cowhide, which made them feel a little rough.

"…I hope it's not what I think it is."

"I think what he thinks is right.”

And finally, Karen held a big bag firmly in her hand. Everywhere I looked, it was the costume of a man who wanted to go far away. Young-ju asked Nancy, who was fidgety behind her back.

"Nancy, explain to me why Karen is doing this now."

"I'm sorry. Lord... I stopped her, but she said she really wanted to go."

"Don't try to twist my daughter just because you lived free. I paid you enough."

"I didn't tell you what the lord thought."

The lord thinks that Karen was twisted by Nancy and cultivated her admiration for the outside. Karen smiled bitterly at what he thought was Nancy's puppet. Someone brought someone. It was also an act of ignoring Karen that Young-ju did not scold Karen but blamed Nancy.

"Daddy, talk to me directly, not Nancy. It's because I thought it all by myself."

“…….”

The lord dangled his lips a few times, then gave up and turned to Karen.

"Where do you want to go?"

There was only one place Karen would go now. Those who haven't come yet, but those who will come soon. sick and tired of people

"I'd like to meet Mr.Berdick Evans."

“…….”

"I'm trying to stop the business."

The lord sighed deeply.

Karen wanted to shut down the business. He wanted to end his bad relationship with the Evans family. It's more than just a matter of money. What Karen had to deal with was a more unpleasant and grumpy relationship. You should focus on only one thing.

Berdick Evans and Isela Evans now have to take a different path than Karen does.

A different life than ever before. Dulan, who doesn't remember anything and looks down at Karen from behind the bookcase, should be pulled down in earnest. To do so, he wanted to rule out Verdick's interference first. It will certainly be a good thing. Not to himself, not to his father, but to the Evans. Karen made up her mind. Berdick and himself should now be separated.

"Before, Mr.Berdick Evans shut down his business altogether. It won't be impossible at all.”

"Don't say anything and go back to your room. Karen, I haven't had a coming-of-age ceremony at home, but I'll find out through my relatives so they can hold it in the capital. There'll be someone who'll make your debut with you. You should look for a husband rather than a businessman."

"Daddy."

"This is not something you can interfere with. You just go back to your room."

Karen bit her lips.

Last time the lord allowed him to travel. But that was possible because Raymond intervened first and the business was completely canceled. This time, Karen wanted to move before Raymond intervened. If Raymond touches Verdick's business first again this time, it will be a far cry from Karen's direction in this life.

Let's move first before Raymond moves.

But Karen was only a 17-year-old girl in reality. Even Young-ju didn't have the power to actually shut down the business. Man's work is man's work. It takes effort and effort. Even if Karen tries her best now, the way for the project to be suspended immediately seemed far away. Most of the rights were transferred to Berdick, so the power to stop him was in him. So first, Karen wanted to visit Evans Street.

"This is for adults, not for you."

"I'm older than my father. Didn't you say you believed that?”

"What will you talk about when you meet Mr. Evans, and he will meet you?”

Karen was speechless. In fact, Karen doesn't know exactly how to stop her business right now. The only way Karen knew was to make her social debut through Raymond and then attack Verdick by calculating information and benefits through the hostile Countess Elba and her acquaintances.

It took time to do that. Eventually, he had to get involved with Verdick. Raymond was able to stop early last time, so he could do it.

But Karen had to meet Verdick before Raymond could touch it.

"If you want, go when the weather gets warmer. Not now. And soon, Mr. Verdick Evans will arrive at the mansion. Let's go to the kitchen and ask what's coming out tonight."

Young-joo soothed Karen in a softer voice when she did not back down.

"I'd like to resolve this before Mr. Berdick Evans comes in personally."

"There's less than a month left until Mr. Evans decides to come to our land. What's the rush?"

"I know that."

If we wait like this, Raymond will be able to shut down the business.

Karen hated the way. But how should we persuade Young-ju now? Karen, who had been thinking for a long time, eventually realized that there was no way. The lord pointed a finger at Nancy, not Karen.

"Nancy, take Karen's bag back."

"…yes, I see."

"Wait a minute!"

Karen shouted urgently.

"Why don't you trust me?”

Karen was nervous. I didn't want to argue with Young-ju here now. It was an unexpected opposition. He had authorized Karen to travel just before. So Karen thought she could leave this time without much opposition. However, Young-joo showed little sign of permission. Karen became nervous. I didn't want to waste my time.

"I can't tell you exactly what you can do, but why go a long way dangerously? I can't allow it as a parent. And even if you don't go to see him, Mr. Berdick will be here soon."

Suddenly, Karen's brain flashed into her mind the disturbance of her last life. Then he gladly recommended the trip because Karen raged to kill Duran. Did he allow it because he didn't know what kind of accident he would cause if he stayed at home? I can't believe Dulan's use is revealed here. Karen sighed. You want me to let you go again if you put a gun on Nancy's head right next to you and make a fuss?

I also realized again that it was after Verdick had already decided to break the contract. The lord sent himself as an agent for breaking the contract and allowed him to travel at the same time. The lord does not believe that he can act or achieve actively.

"What if I really want to go? Would you allow it if it's frustrating that I've been stuck at home all this time?"

"…then you'd better leave with the other servants and your relative's wife who is responsible for you. Wait a little longer."

"So I have to go before I come. It'll be too late if we wait any longer."

It`s hard to stop and start the project in such a short time. It's been a long time since I've been preparing for it, so it won't change if you go first."

Not like this.

Karen looked nervously around the room. Nancy and her eyes met. She will do as the lord tells her. If this continues, will Raymond send Isela to another place? Or will Isela just stand up to Karen again like before? Either way, Karen was unwilling. The flow is getting out of control as we move on to the second half. The first is important.

Love your enemy.

Karen hated the phrase. But Karen has already tried various options. And now, it's time to choose a different direction. Once you make up your mind, you must push ahead.

"Daddy."

"I won't allow it."

"If it's hard for me to go and persuade him, at least I'll go and get Mr. Berdick Evans and his daughter, Icela Evans. Wouldn't it be okay to go meet in advance? Maybe it will leave a good impression.”

It was a relatively light task, not too much for a newborn daughter.

The lord's face was mysterious.

"Why would you do such a thing?"

"I want to see Icela Evans in advance. You may be able to understand me relatively well because I'm about my age.”

"What effect would it have on his business to communicate with his daughter?"

"I'm not talking about business, Dad. But I'm in the mansion... I've been in the mansion for over 100 years. Even if you don't believe it, it's true that I've been confined to the mansion for a while. Do you understand?"

“…….”

In fact, I didn't stay in the mansion all the time, but you can lie at times like this. The lord's face was covered with guilt.

"My father and mother raised me in the house all the time, because I'm not normal. I remember everything."

"…you were really bad back then."

"So please let me go this time. If we succeed in stopping the business, it will be good for the land, and if we fail, nothing will happen. We just have to go and come together."

"…I'll send him a telegram."

Eventually, the lord agreed. Karen smiled brightly.

No matter how much she wants to go, such a thing should be helped by her father. You can't walk all the way to Isela's mansion by yourself. I needed a carriage and a maid and money. Karen gave Young-ju a lightly. The lord's body trembled.

"Thank you, Father."

"…yes."

"Don't send a telegram. At least do it after I leave."

"It's not rude to speak in advance."

Karen shook her head.

"I'm going to push ahead so I can't refuse."