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It was time for Gwiz to show Karen to the doctors. One doctor called Gwiz and another came to Karen's side. The gray snow rolls quickly. A finger is coming up. Shh.

Karen noticed. There is not a single way to live by the royal physician. One of the doctors, an old doctor, told Karen.

"Your Highness asked me about your condition and asked me to let you know."

"Your Grace?"

"Yes, he's also my student."

Unexpected help comes. Karen left herself to the doctor without worrying that she and the fetus might be in danger. After a long time, the old doctor continued looking at Karen, making a strange twist in her wrinkled face.

"You're really pregnant. But it's hard to get a rich movie."

"I don't care."

You're not even a child of Gwiz anyway. It is nothing more than a lie surrounded by people to live. And I don't believe in Gwiz either. We just pretended not to know the truth and reserved our actions of interest. It's a matter of survival until Raymond comes. And this time, he will have a real life. by childbirth This time.

"…no."

But the doctor shook his head looking at Karen's hopeful face.

That's not what I meant.

"The child in the ship is as good as dead."

I can't be born.

***

…….

***

"I, I, I... That's... that's easy. Did you think you'd let it go?”

Duran laughed.

Sir Raymond, what do I look like? I am a weak, insidious, and have nothing. You know and I know. But there is something I can never give up.

The yearning for eternity.

***

"Help me not to get pregnant until Karen really loves me."

So that I can reserve my choice.

Catherine said so, but Duran laughed inside as she heard it. What is true love and how do you judge it? And why should you do that? What did Catherine believe and ask him to make a deal? You have nothing to lose? No.

When Karen dies, eternity disappears.

He never, never wanted to make Karen pregnant. But as time went by, Dulan Lloyd thought.

What if I change my mind? What if I make a mistake? What if I give up eternity because of the moment's shaking?

Even in his own feeling, he wasn't a very strong man.

Maybe, really, if Karen says she loves her. It's a ridiculous idea, but if the engagement goes on and you get married, then... Wouldn't he be able to give up? Wouldn't it be possible to choose the life of a criminal who gives up eternity and lives normally and dies?

I can't.

Duran refused. It is not a supposable case. It should not be shaken. So Duran decided to give him more medication.

A little longer, a little longer......more definitely....

***

"Why?"

asked Karen blankly.

Hope comes so suddenly that it suddenly disappears. The pregnancy of hope, which had always been thought to be infertile, suddenly came from the worst situation, disappears again. Karen put her hand on her stomach. I don't know yet. I can't feel anything. But I thought there was. And he said there would be now.

"Why? My body... What did I do... What mistake did I make?.”

The doctor sympathized, but the truth did not change.

"Didn't you take too much medicine?”

"About… this time… Well... I don't think there's been any lately..”

I feel dizzy. What did I eat? Who did you meet? What went into my mouth... I feel nauseous. What have I done wrong this time and failed? What did I....

As Karen lost her breath, the doctor grabbed Karen and asked her again slowly.

"Didn't you eat it for a long time? I've checked your body and it's already showing signs of stillbirth."

It should be something you've eaten consistently over the years, not a month or two. Your body can't have children even if you have one. I've already taken too much medicine. The child cannot be born.

Miss Karen, are you okay? Breathe slowly. There's nothing wrong with your body. Take your time and slowly... A few years of treatment may bring about improvement.

I'm just not ready yet. Now, first of all, breathe slowly....

I couldn't scream. Prince Gwiz is next to him.

Open your eyes wide, hold back your tears...It's all right…. What I can do now….

***

"Woman, woman, as expected… Good thing you did."

Duran giggled and laughed.

"I was a little worried. If you see that I'm involved, it's like I'm doing something in the past. I didn't plan to, and now I don't know how."

Even when both legs were crushed, it seemed to be very pleasant. Blood tears flowed from the eyes and blood and gastric juices flowed around the mouth, but the laughter could not stop with a scream. Duran was sure as Raymond tortured him. This moment will eventually end and come back again.

"Ha, ha, but you...Look at your face, look at your face. I guess I really succeeded."

I'm so happy.

I can't be happier to see your face. Karen really got hold of eternity. I've really been successful in the past. If I die right now, I'll be back alive and all this pain will be gone.

Lord Raymond, I won't remember. And there's nothing more scary now.

I'm so happy!

***

Shoot me.

The rain has grown heavy. Karen felt fortunate to be caught in the rain on her face. I'm sure he's in tears. Maybe Raymond. We didn't have the strength to comfort each other not to cry.

"You... you knew.”

That's why you repeatedly said it was meaningless, but you said you'd grant me every wish. I was already convinced that it was useless last time. Whether you make friends with Isela, whether you're pregnant or not......even if I live my life, even if I'm with you and away from you... The end is the same this time.

They sympathize with each other.

They are so unhappy and pitiful that they cannot console each other's wounds. Sympathy surged up.

You have to think. You have to think. If you don't, you die. What I can do now... I'll...

Karen opened her mouth.

"I don't want Prince Louis dead by Gwiz.”

"Carran."

"If we don't die anyway, if the end is the same this time, it would be okay to see Prince Louis live this time."

"I... don't want you to suffer.”

Karen punched Raymond. The anger flared up. There was a murmur of anger and screaming from his throat.

"It's more painful not to do anything! It's even worse to have nothing left! Sir Raymond! I want the world to go by even if I die! I want to leave something behind! I want time to pass! I want you to live! Don't you see that?"

It's not alive. Ghosts are wandering around the world.

"I want to be remembered as a meaningful life...I made friends with Isella. Dining with my father, talking about my mother, being scammed by Nancy...If you do this again... from the beginning, it's... It's really....”

Puck, puck. I hit it a few times. Don't be angry with Raymond. Apparently he is the man who fell into this hell because of himself. You shouldn't be angry that Raymond didn't say. He didn't say it out of concern for himself. There's no answer.

"Lord Raymond, you said you could love me because you didn't trust me."

Karen pulled Raymond's clothes and stared at him.

"Then we won't die, so go to the end. I wanted to be friends with Isella, and I succeeded. Then you crown Louis on the throne. I want to see it."

Even if it's the future we won't see. Even if it has nothing to do with us.

Nevertheless.

"Carran, I always... All I need is you."

Raymond answered slowly, in a hoarse voice.

"And do whatever you want."

Raymond's face looked really peaceful.

He wanted Karen to push him.

Time passed even if Karen died. The world is gone. I met a lot of people. However, there were some people who felt bad, some who died, and some good people. Some people were especially memorable.

Karen did, and Lewis did.

The boy who looked at him with admiring eyes was destined not to become a king.

And after living a hundred lives, he was no longer important for his purpose. He was an important man in Raymond's first hundred years of life, on Raymond's summer day, in his youth. A little sad, heartbreaking boy.

If Raymond was really a young man, he wouldn't have given up on Lewis either. But Lewis, who had never lived in more than a hundred lives, was just a dead man.

A wheel that rolls away like his brother's. He found his memory and did so. But that's not necessary now.

Because she let me. You may do more hypocrisy for yourself.

And there was someone watching the two.

"…it's fun."

Prince Gwiz looked down at the scene with his chin crossed. Of course, I didn't think it was his own child. There must have been someone. The father of the child. But I can't believe you're so brazenly embracing the palace.

I can't help but laugh.

"What would you like to do?"

asked the Baron Ain to Gwiz. Gwiz looked through his collections. What would be good?

"Tomorrow, give Karen Haier this knife and poison."

"What should I say?”

"If I order, tell him to kill Lewis."

"Will you succeed?"

"It doesn't matter much if you fail."

Gwiz imagined Karen's expression as he killed her. If you succeed, you'll get over your troubles. Kill Lewis and send Karen to death for her crimes. Anyone would think it would be plausible if a pregnant woman did something crazy because she was blinded by the throne. When would be good? Gwiz began to calculate the time.

"If you don't do as you are told, you will get your family's eyes and tongue as a gift......to say this."

"I'll tell him that."

Ahin put them in her arms with a slightly stiff face.

"Wait, there's one more thing for you to do.”

"What?"

Baron Ain stopped to go out.

"Go to Lord Haier with my knights now. You've met her before, right?

"Yes, but….”

"Pull out your eyes and tongue and cut off your neck."

Success or failure, I'll see her scream. Before he went to the death penalty.

"Okay."

Baron Ain bent down.

"And did you see that?"

Prince Gwiz turned away. There stood a pale fuse still.

"All women are the same. But if things go well, I'll give you a chance to deal with them."

"…yes."

Duran replied in a low voice.