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When he returned to the mansion after a long trip, he was very different from when he left.

He left home with light luggage because he had to leave in a hurry, but the return route was not enough for even seven Yukdu wagons. This is because Karen bought various luxuries and Raymond bought rare plants.

Looking at the long line of wagons in front of the mansion, the butler grabbed the back of his neck and fell down.

"Jennon, get James."

"Oh, come on, old man."

"Master… we're going to go bankrupt…Don't let the Baron... Bold."

James finally came to his senses when he said that.

Xenon scratched his head and grabbed James, but he also seemed worried about the situation ahead of him.

"Are you sure you're okay, Baron? I think you bought too much."

"Don't worry. I'll take care of it."

"…oh, well, I don't know anymore.”

Raymond knew what business would succeed next year and how the international situation would flow. He didn't worry much about it, but he couldn't explain it to others.

"Did you see that? The bright baron suddenly went crazy about his hobby....”

"Isn't that going to go bankrupt?"

"You'll pay me for my retirement, right?"

I could hear the employees of the mansion whispering. Karen was the only one who didn't worry about anything. But Karen was a little worried about the huge greenhouse that Raymond had built in the mansion even before the trip was over. Of course, it wasn't about money.

"But the greenhouse looks a little dangerous."

"Oh, you're doing it, too. It's okay."

You used to stop me from going out. They boast that glass like this is fine again. It's a building I've never seen before, and it's fragile.

Karen shuddered one day when she imagined the glass breaking and falling among the people. It was a death Karen had never experienced.

"It's all made of glass, and that's how the pillars go...Hoo... I heard you're going to be at the fair next year for the first time."

"Yes, but the design is already done this year. There won't be any structural problems in the future. It's a structure that's going to be widely distributed in a few years.”

Raymond commissioned a garden designer who will announce the crystal palace next year to design a test in the Tess mansion. Since it was an opportunity to experiment before the big event called the World Expo, the architect was willing to accept the request.

"It's so innovative."

Karen sighed at the glassy greenhouse.

On his trip, Raymond bought a lot of plants and ordered a greenhouse to build for them. At that time, I thought of a small garden, but when I came back, it was a completely new structure.

According to the theory, the building surrounded by expensive glass would be suitable for growing the huge plants in the south by receiving the sunlight as it is, and it was a place where roses could be seen in the middle of winter.

"After giving birth, there will be a limit to how much you want to go out. Then you'd better have as many things to see."

"Isn't Raymond your hobby?"

"No... no, just a little....”

"Yes. Anyway, good. I don't want to say anything about my hobby, but I'd like to install a fountain in the garden outside. Since I've been on the water all the time, I want to see more water."

"Okay."

Karen stroked her stomach.

The ship was the most different from before it went out.

"Oh, it's moving."

"…I feel strange.”

"I'll do it alone."

Karen said with a sigh. Raymond put his hand on Karen's stomach and made a complicated face. Pregnancy, childbirth, childbirth and raising. Apparently a blessing, the weight that touched them was different from ordinary couples.

"I thought I had a bad stomach, but I guess I was small at the time because the fetus wasn't in good condition."

"But it's beautiful."

"I know that."

"What's the problem?"

"…that would hurt more, right?"

"Ah."

Karen sighed.

The childbirth scared me.

"So the size of a watermelon comes down....Uh…."

"…I'm sorry. When I was young, I heard that my mother had a hard time, but I think it's my fault. Is it a son?"

"I think it's my daughter.”

Karen said flatly.

I didn't want to give him any hasty expectations. Mothers, including themselves, always have only one daughter and die. And this is repeated over and over and over again. Karen thought of a daughter who would repeat her never-ending life.

"Maybe I should apologize to this child."

"You should thank your parents for being born."

"Are you serious, Raymond?"

"Since my life is so long anyway, I'm sure I've earned a lot of money. If so, my daughter or son will be able to spend my fortune well up to their 70s."

"…I'm not talking about money."

A daughter will be born. A daughter who looks just like herself.

In 17 years, he will live a life of repeating his life for a year and finally choosing the right man for him and giving birth to another child.

a new generation that repeats itself every 17 years Neither Karen's mother nor her great-grandmother lived long.

Karen's mother's family all died early, even though she wasn't very old. Accidental or sick. Karen's mother's people were accustomed to death and often lived poorly and died in vain.

"I want to live long. There are many things I want to do."

"So is my wish."

"But when I think about my daughter's life, I feel a little indebted."

Raymond stroked Karen's stomach and said,

"Never mind."

There is only one way.

You can't repeat it forever.

"Just as we can't ask our children in advance about giving them life, so can death. That's how everyone lives. So, like ordinary people, it's right to think about what you can give your child as a parent."

"For example?"

"I'd like to make a christening gown.”

"Nancy is good with her hands.”

Karen said with a frown. Although he wasn't bad at sewing, he avoided sewing afterwards because of his memory of being stabbed by a needle before and dying from tetanus.

"Well, I'm not forcing you to make clothes. I'm just suggesting one of the ways. Think about what you can give and what you should teach."

What can I do when a child is born? Karen wanted to learn more about shooting, but the gun with the silencer was too heavy and the pistol she could hold was too noisy, so she postponed it after childbirth. Raymond was writing a military science book in his spare moments next to Karen.

When Karen was in trouble, the sun shone in the greenhouse.

Raymond's hair shone like gold. All the glass-covered space shone. Karen felt at that moment the vitality of the tall plants surrounding her, the smell of ink from Raymond's fingertips, and all that was perfect. And I was able to thank my mother for the first time.

I'm happy to be alive. Thank you for giving me life.

It was the only love found in madness all one's life. There was a man in front of me enough to risk his life. And not cynicism or accusation, but laughter from real happiness.

What should you do now?

It will be enough to think slowly from now on. Traveling for life, or being stuck. Whatever it is, the fact that the person you love is next to you won't change.

***

I have received forgiveness in advance.

You have to settle your own mistakes.

Duran's natural life span was quite longer than expected. It was so long that it was pathetic. But it was a tight time to achieve the desired level of achievement. It was easy to ruin a person's body, but it was difficult to restore it again.

It was really difficult to restore a pregnant person to give birth in less than a year.

But finally Duran found a way.

I sent the medicine.

However, the body was so different depending on the situation that I couldn't relax.

I knew I had to go see her in person and see her, but it was still scary for him to visit her before Karen called.

So Duran continued to study while waiting for the call.

Medicine, theology.

"Dulan the Priest."

Duran was in a faint.

In order to forget the reality, it was good to focus on your studies. Duran constantly penetrated theology to capture the countless flow of time. I might find some more clues. To be forgiven, one must find a perfect solution, not a stopgap measure.

Bowen shook Duran, who couldn't get up when he called. He followed the life of the monastery all the way back from his studies. He continued not to stay at the monastery because there was nothing more to teach Duran at any monastery.

Duran used to study, surrounded by countless ancient books that were unknown where he had ordered, or to visit prominent doctors in the capital. Bowen couldn't figure out why he went so far. Because he didn't have to be so eager as a doctor. You can get a permanent seat if you stay still, but he's always been chased by something.

"Are you all right?"

Duran opened his eyes. It was a bizarre scene where dry branches seemed to open their eyes.

The black eyes were so dark that the pupils were so large that they looked like the eyeholes of skulls. A skinny body is now lighter because it rarely eats food. However, even though they seemed to be dying, they were madly eager to study as if their eyes were burning. That seemed to make him live.

"Would you like to get some more sleep? You look very tired."

"… Never mind."

Duran leaned back against the back of the chair. His eyes were wide open as to how he had escaped from sleep. Duran asked in a hoarse voice about his business.

"…what's going on?"

"It's almost time for Miss Karen to give birth. I got a message asking you to come and help me give birth. The lord will be leaving soon, how long will it take to get ready? Right now, a lot... You look tired."

"…bar, I'll be right there."

Duran got up, packed a big bag, and hurried to get ready. I didn't know where my skinny body was coming from. Duran got up, quickly put the tools into the bag, and stuffed the pills in.

"Well, is it necessary for the priest to go? He's been married to the Baroness for some time, and I don't think Father Duran will have to go there and see a doctor. There must be a lot of good doctors there."

Bowen talked to Dulan, who was preparing to pack things into his bag and go out.

To be honest with him, I didn' She was already married to a war hero from a noble family. Bowen, who is more concerned with Duran's grace, hoped Duran would no longer be obsessed with Karen. However, Dulan seemed a little crazy after he was notified of his breakup.

"Why don't you not go because it's already over?"

Bowen thought he had said something for himself. Isn't he in a contractual relationship? It was too much meddling. Duran stared at Bowen with an unconscious eye and answered.

"…well, that's what you're saying because you don't”

"What?"

"I have to go to finish."

That's why I've lived all this time.

Duran moved to the end of the sentence.