CH 290

Bai Lixin did not leave in the end. Although Dijia had revealed Bai Lixin’s identity, he did not force the issue of staying or leaving. Bai Lixin insisted on staying, so he couldn’t say anything more.

“Heh, why are you looking at me with such a sorrowful expression? If you want to stay, then you can stay. Can I tie you up and send you back?” Dijia compromised on seeing Bai Lixin’s expression.

“Hey Dijia, Xin, come and taste the milk the women have heated for us. It’s delicious!” A man burst into the house, carrying steaming milk in an earthenware bowl, only to see the two people facing each other in an extremely ambiguous position.

The man froze, and his face suddenly flushed.

They were clearly two men, but why was the atmosphere between the two of them the same as when he was with Maya……

Dijia let go of Bai Lixin and straightened his clothes before taking the milk. “Thank you.”

The man hesitated for a moment, then said, “Er, well, the men have roasted deer outside. Would you like to try some?”

Bai Lixin stood up, straightening the clothes that had been loosened by Dijia, and said slowly, “Wait a moment, Dijia and I have a few things to discuss.”

Dijia raised his eyebrows and looked back at Bai Lixin. In the end, he looked back at the man and said, “If it’s convenient, leave some for us. If it’s inconvenient, you can eat all the roasted meat. This milk is enough to satisfy our hunger.”

It didn’t matter whether there was food or not, or whether there was milk; they were gods. They didn’t grow old or die, and didn’t need to eat at all.

The man nodded and went out without asking more questions.

After the man left, Bai Lixin organized his words, “Dijia, you are the future Lord God, and when you ascend to the position of Lord God, you will create new twelve subordinate gods to assist you in managing the order of these billions of worlds. Do you know where those of us who have been eliminated will go?”

Bai Lixin’s deep black eyes looked towards the rooftops where the sunlight cascaded down. His voice was full of the vicissitudes of time: “We will disappear. Gods do not die of old age but disappear into the vast void. You will become the new Lord God, and a new God of Love will appear. The gods will change, but people will not realize it. In their eyes, the God of Love is the God of Love, and will never change.

Dijia was silent for a moment, then said, “It is the law of the world that was born out of chaos. Besides, the gods have lived long enough compared to humans.”

“But have you ever thought that some gods, immersed in divine power, are unable to extricate themselves and are unwilling to give it up?” Bai Lixin turned his words and whispered, “Why should the glory they have created be inherited by a hairy boy who appeared out of nowhere for all to praise? To fall from the altar of the gods into the abyss of death in one fell swoop? I’m afraid even the gods cannot fully accept it.”

Dijia’s eyes widened in slight surprise, “What do you mean by that?”

Bai Lixin wanted to go on, but he suddenly felt pain like pins and needles in his head. His expression changed and he lost consciousness before he could say anything else.

Dijia saw Bai Lixin’s eyes change before he stumbled and fell onto the stone bench.

“Eros, what’s wrong with you?” Dijia asked as he squatted down and held Eros up.

Dijia’s eyes were fixed on Eros. When the face that was buried in his chest was revealed again, Dijia felt a sudden sense of discordance. Eros had been kind to him a moment ago, but Eros was now, once again, looking at him with disgust.

Eros smacked Dijia’s arm off fiercely. He flicked off the non-existent dust and said in disgust, “Successor Lord God, please behave yourself.”

Dijia was still puzzled, “What do you mean by what you just said?”

“It was just the whining of a dying god of love.” Eros frowned at the cheap and rough clothes on his body and endured the shoddy thatched roof, ” Successor Lord God, you have stayed in the human world long enough. Are you considering returning to the San Tuo Mountain?”

The good feeling that had just risen towards Eros because of the time he had spent with him over the past two months dissipated anew as Dijia stood up and looked down at him. His eyes were without a trace of emotion. “Please leave, Eros. Your mission has ended, while mine has just begun. Since you hate me, go.”

Eros stood up and opened the door, “That is my intention. Since the successor god chose such a place instead of the gorgeous San Tuo Mountain, there is nothing I can do about it, so farewell.”

With these words, Eros walked alone into the depths of the forest. He transformed back into his original form of long silver hair and a fair, beautiful face and summoned his celestial horse to fly back to Yaqin Mountain.

Eros rushed straight into his room when he returned to Yaqin Mountain and closed the door behind him. He breathed deeply, saying to the slowly reawakening Bai Lixin, [You almost committed a great sin just now].

Bai Lixin regained consciousness and found his soul wandering in the darkness. He tried to break through the invisible bonds that trapped him, but he could not.

Surrounded by Eros’ voice, Bai Lixin was astonished: [What great taboo?]

[Every word you just said to Dijia towards the end is a great taboo, and the Lord God will kill us. Do not try to show any kindness to the succeeding Lord Gods; they are merely sustenance to fill our appetites and will perish in a flash when the time comes. If you had gone any further, you would have told Dijia our true nature]

[Then let him know! Haven’t you lived long enough?] Bai Lixin roared in his heart, [I am you, and what I do is what you hide deep inside you but are afraid to do. Why do you not appear every time they kill a Successor Lord God? Because you are equally disgusted with this life. Haven’t you noticed that Dijia’s appearance has changed our lives? I am your desire, your desire to break free from bondage].

Bai Lixin lied as he bewitched the ignorant god of love.

When a self-doubting person is guided, he is most easily broken. Bai Lixin was grateful for the mental hints he had learned in other worlds, and he had never been more grateful than now for the way the system had taken him through so many strange worlds, allowing him to learn what others could never learn.

And sure enough, Eros hesitated.

He sat down on the bed of white clouds and looked down in doubt: [Is that what I think?]

[Isn’t it?] Bai Lixin persisted and hinted at him more deeply, [The other me, stop suppressing yourself. Think about why I am here. It’s to protect you. I am merely a sub-personality created for you, and I have appeared solely to assist you. Why do I want to be close to Dijia? Because you want to get close to him, you like him, you want to warn him and discover the Lord God’s conspiracy].

Eros was dazed, and he rubbed his face in disbelief: [I do not loathe Dijia, but I like him?]

[Yes, you are a god of love, but you did not even notice this? Look at Maya in the human world. Didn’t she confront her lover with anger? But what happened afterwards? People always do everything to attract the attention of those they like.]

[Was that why I’ve been tit-for-tat with Dijia three and four times?]

[Yes! That’s it!]

Eros covered his face and leaned back onto the bed of white clouds, [Oh Go! So what the hell did I do before? I can’t believe I called Dijia disgusting! That’s horrible. What am I going to do, other me?]

[I knew you wouldn’t be able to handle something like that. That’s why I’m helping you. Be good and give me your body. Just let me keep helping you until I capture Dijia’s heart! Trust me!]

Eros paused briefly, [but Lord God…]

[I know. I will be careful so that our Dijia finds out the true nature of the Lord God.]

Eros rolled over in his bed, curling his legs and bringing the white cloud pillow over to cover his face: [It’s the first time I’ve liked someone in my whole life.]

Bai Lixin perfunctorily: [Mm-hmm, got it.]

[I heard that you will offer yourself to the person you like when you make up your mind.]

Bai Lixin: [……]

[The god of lust has offered herself so many times before, but I’m still a virgin. What should I do?]

Bai Lixin gritted his teeth, [Well, hurry up and give me your body!]

After two months of bonding, Bai Lixin and Eros were not the same as before, when the other soul would fall into a deep sleep once one of them took contol over the body.

Now, when one soul takes over the body, the other soul would still perceive the happenings of the outside world through both the body and eyes in the deep darkness.

Bai Lixin took control of the body again and warned Eros: [I’ll help you clean up your mess one more time. The next time you want to use the body, let me know in advance. All my efforts over the past two months may have already been undone because of what you just said].

Eros was very guilty: [I’m very sorry. It’s just that you suddenly said something like that and I couldn’t help but……]

Bai Lixin looked into the mirror before pulling his lips into a winning smile, his eyes crystal bright: [Okay, I’ll forgive you, for now, this time]

Eros apologized again before he let out a long sigh and shrank back into the darkness to slumber.

After two months of internal struggle, Bai Lixin had decided to do what he could to warn Dijia.

It was not an easy decision to make, but he felt this was the best option in this endless loop. He wanted to change the infinite cycle of fate.

Bai Lixin lowered his eyes, his long eyelashes restraining his expression.

[Have you finally made your choice, Lord Host?] The long-lost voice of S419M rang out in his mind.

Bai Lixin laughed at himself as a bitter smile appeared on the corner of his lips.

It had never crossed my mind to sacrifice myself when I came from my world to chase after Dijia. All I wanted with all my heart at that time was to be with Dijia forever.

When did I, Bai Lixin, become so great?