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So I asked, "When did you say?"

I nodded. "Mm, you guessed it right. I really don't want others to see my sorry state. However, since you didn't say it then, why did you ask me now?"

I suddenly thought of what he had said to me the day before yesterday, and also of the glorious scene he had just witnessed. He was like a child, sincerely offering me what he possessed. It was a lie to say that he was not touched. After facing so many cruel and cold people, this kind of warmth was exceptionally precious. It almost made one want to cry.

But my heart is telling me, believe him, that after all he has done for you, there is something to hate about it, but at least it's not too much for you, it's one of the few people in the world who will take the initiative to stand in your way.

Actually, I really look like a hedgehog right now. I was clearly desperate for the warmth and love in this world, but when these warmth and love were placed in front of me, I couldn't help but doubt their authenticity and extended my sharp thorns to probe. But in my heart, I knew that this method was wrong. This method only allowed those who loved me to go further and further away from me, until at the end, they would completely disappear, as if they had never come to my side before.

And now, looking into his eyes, I didn't know how to choose. Was I really going to open my heart and let him understand my past and enter my inner world?

I hesitated for a long time before finally deciding to tell him everything. There was a strong feeling of unease in my heart, but a voice told me to be at ease. It was just the passing of my childhood. This was nothing, it was fine to say it.

So I lowered my head to organize my words before continuing, "When I was a kid, my mom ran off with another man, and then my dad married a woman who didn't do anything to me, but my dad just ignored that. Perhaps, in his eyes, I'm just a money loser. To him, I'm of no use at all, and I'll only cause him trouble, not to mention … My mother and I still look so much like each other, as if reminding him of the shame of being betrayed, so he doesn't like me much either. "