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It's just that I can't get past that obstacle.

"Is the old man ill?" Hong Yun looked at me and said, "From your description, it seems that you are sick or something. It is said that there is no filial son around the sickbed for a long time. However, in the end, his mother was the one who gave him birth in October. To think that she could do such a thing. Truly a bastard. "

Xia Xiaoran, however, did not interrupt them. Other than a few words of agreement at the very beginning, the rest of them were just quietly listening to the discussion between Hong Yun and I.

I smiled and said, "What date? Isn't that good enough at all? "

Hong Yun shook his head and said with a sorrowful look, "If I could get someone like him to take me for a drive, eat and play, I would have already obeyed him. It doesn't matter whether he has a fiancée or not, as long as he treats me nicely, wouldn't he be fine? Life is short and bitter. And for someone like me, I don't need to care about the bottom line. "No matter what you say, it's not against the will of the heavens. Why are you worrying so much?"

So I said, "No, you're just saying that. When you do meet this one day, you know you won't do it."

"Why? He treats me so well, even if I have to repay him with favors, I should still be obedient to him, right? "

"It's precisely because he treats me so well that I feel that I shouldn't do this to him, because what he wants is a complete me, and what I can give him is only half of it. Isn't this a bit too unfair to him?"

"Alright, I understand." Red Cloud patted my shoulder. " You just can't get over your own dilemma. "

Maybe Red Cloud was right. Everything I said, all my excuses, was because I hadn't stepped over the hurdle in my heart yet.

According to my character, if I was really committed to something, I wouldn't care about anything else.

This caused me to recall what Zheng Hang said a while ago. He should have done this with good intentions and told me not to worry about anything else, to make a choice between Yi Xudong and Jin Zicheng as soon as possible, and to make it so that the three of them wouldn't feel well at the same time.

But I didn't tell him then, and he probably wouldn't understand that even if I chose one of them, the other side might not be able to stop, and the relationship between the two of them would only get worse and worse.

But it was indeed time to put an end to this absurd question of emotional attribution as soon as possible.

I looked at Red Cloud and smiled. "I guess so."

"Just what do you mean by that?" However, Hong Yun did not take a step back. Instead, he said, "I still don't understand you. The hesitation in your heart is higher than anything else."