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I went back to the hospital and bought some porridge downstairs. I didn't have the mood to eat now. I felt empty inside, as if a cold wind had blown through the hole, bringing with it a piercing pain and coldness.

I handed her the rice porridge and sat down on the edge of her bed. I felt that I was still in a trance, that everything was hazy, that I couldn't hear her voice clearly, that my reactions were a little slow.

Hearing this news, Xia Xiaoran immediately covered her mouth, and tears fell from her eyes.

At most, I had only seen each other a few times and heard each other's names before. But now that I heard that Wang Fangyuan had died, the fact that Xia Xiaoran was able to shed so many tears immediately made me want to laugh.

"Xia Xiaoran..." I heard my own voice whisper. But Xia Xiaoran immediately raised her teary eyes and looked at me, her voice trembling: "What's wrong?"

I looked at her wet eyelashes and red eyes. I didn't know why, but I wanted to ask such an aggressive question. I asked, "How much do you know about Wang Fangyuan? "You cry so miserably …"

Xia Xiaoran was startled for a moment, as if she did not understand the meaning of my question, or maybe she was rendered speechless by my question and did not know how to answer.

When I saw her sudden look of understanding, I suddenly smiled. Laughing, I stood up and said, "It's fine. I was just casually asking. You should drink the congee that I bought first." I'm a little confused right now. Let's go out for a walk. "

After saying that, I didn't look at Xia Xiaoran's reaction, but instead, pushed open the door and walked out. It was already very late at night, and the outside air was slightly cold, with a single breath, the entire atmosphere became extremely comfortable, as though every breath I took was filled with the depression in my heart, and if I were to breathe in this cold air again, it would allow me to calm down.

I didn't know where to go, so I didn't go downstairs, but instead turned and walked up the elevator to the top floor.

The weather was fine tonight, and when I looked up from the top floor I could see the stars. Looking at these stars, I couldn't help but think in my heart: Is Wang Fangyuan among them?

Thinking about this, he started to feel uncomfortable. The sadness in his heart seemed to be uncontrollable. Not only did it not subside, but it had multiplied instead.

I sat in the corner, my body hidden by the guardrail around me, curled up, my arms around my legs, my knees bent, my head buried between my legs, trying to give myself some warmth, some security.