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After sending Prince's Wife Mo away, Duan Yunfei finally stopped forcing herself to smile. Duan Yunfei had never known that laughing would actually become such a difficult thing.

In the past few days, Xiao Yang managed to coax Duan Yunfei a little better, but now, Duan Yunfei had sunk into an endless sea of self-blame. This time, Xiao Yang did not know what to do.

"Princess, don't be sad. This matter can't be blamed on you." Xiao Yang knew that saying these words himself, would not have any effect, but she could not let Duan Yunfei continue to blame herself like this.

"Don't blame me? It was because of me that Chu Yang drank so much that he was unconscious, was because of me that Prince Mu punished him, was because of me that he was injured, was he lying unconscious on the bed? How can you still say that it wasn't because of me? Xiao Yang, I know that you are afraid that I will blame myself too much, but this matter, the responsibility will all be on me … "It's all with me …" As Duan Yunfei said this, he began to cry, and this time, he was truly at a loss of what to do.

In Xiao Yang's memories, over all those years, Duan Yunfei had only cried once, that night when the Imperial Consort Duanshuo passed away. Even though Xiao Yang was still young at that time, he could not forget the deep sorrow that filled his heart that night. But strangely, since then, Duan Yunfei had not once again cried. Even on the day Imperial Consort Duanshuo was sent to the imperial mausoleum, Duan Yunfei did not shed a single tear. Afterwards, no matter if it was when he violently fell off his horse, or when he was accidentally cut and injured on the road, Xiao Yang had never seen Duan Yunfei cry before, it was as if she was someone who could not shed tears. But today, Duan Yunfei was crying, which made it difficult for Xiao Yang.

Duan Yunfei felt a burst of guilt. Before she fainted, Mu Chuyang was actually thinking of a way to hide this from him. However, Duan Yunfei was also blaming Zuo Yuan and Wu Shan. The two of them knew that Mu Chuyang had a fever, but they still helped Mu Chuyang keep it a secret. This made Duan Yunfei recall the words Mu Chuyang had said to him when he came to him that day. Didn't they hide the matter of Yuwen Di negotiating marriage from Duan Yunfei as well? It turned out that being deceived was actually this kind of feeling.

Seeing Duan Yunfei keep her silence, Xiao Yang had countless of thoughts in her mind to console Duan Yunfei, but in the end, he did not say it out loud.

"Xiao Yang," Duan Yunfei was in a really difficult situation. Whether or not she went to visit Mu Chuyang, it seemed like it was all wrong. It was as if no matter what she did now, it could only bring harm to Mu Chuyang. " What am I supposed to do? If I were to go see Chu Yang, given how deeply I have hurt him, how would I be able to face him? But if I didn't look at him, and you saw Prince's Wife Mo's expression just now, she would have comforted me even though she was clearly so worried for Chu Yang, and said that it wasn't my fault. Xiao Yang, do you know? I saw Prince's Wife Mo as my second mother from the bottom of my heart, but I had hurt Chu Yang, and I had hurt her heart. If I don't go and see Chu Yang, she will definitely feel that I am very heartless. Does she think that all these years of good things she has done to me have been in vain? "

Xiao Yang was unable to make decisions for him, just as Mu Chuyang was the most important to the Prince's Wife Mo, Duan Yunfei was also the most important. Xiao Yang watched helplessly as Duan Yunfei lost her usual brilliant smile and was trapped in endless self-blame. He wished that Duan Yunfei could quickly recover and return to her previous state.

"Princess, this servant cannot make the decision for you. This matter, you have to make the connection yourself, no matter how much others say it, it is only from the perspective of a bystander, even if this servant understands your character, this servant will still not be able to understand it. So, Princess, you must think this through. However, no matter what decision you make, your servant will always stand by your side. "

Duan Yunfei felt very moved after hearing what Xiao Yang said. Duan Yunfei now felt that she was the most detestable person in the world, but Xiao Yang still believed in her and supported her unconditionally. This somewhat caused Duan Yunfei, who was trapped in the darkness, to feel a little bit of light.

"Xiao Yang, but I don't know what to do now either. I'm really worried about Chu Yang, but I don't know how to face him." Duan Yunfei gradually stopped crying and talked deeply, he was confused and worried.

"Princess, if you are truly worried about the Young Prince Mu, then go. Although Young Prince Mu is still unconscious, he would definitely be happy if he knew that you went to visit him. But Princess, I hope you won't force yourself. Your mood has been so low these days that I also feel sorry for you. If you blame yourself even more after meeting the Young Prince Mu once, at that time … Princess, ask your heart. In short, do not be ashamed of yourself. If you feel that the decision you have made will not make you regret it in the future, then go ahead and do it. " Xiao Yang could only make Duan Yunfei consider him more. Although this seemed very selfish, but humans were selfish creatures, and the most important thing to Xiao Yang was to protect Duan Yunfei.

Duan Yunfei fell into deep thought, in her mind, it was as if there were two people arguing non-stop. One of them said, "It was because of you that he became like this, don't you want to see him? How can you be so heartless? While he was unconscious, he was still shouting out your name. Why couldn't you just throw away your face and go see him? " The other argued, "I'm not trying to save face, I just can't face him right now. How do you know he can get better after seeing me? If he asks me to answer, how will I answer? "

All along, Mu Chuyang had always been an irreplaceable existence to Duan Yunfei. Although it was different from the feelings Mu Chuyang had for Duan Yunfei, Mu Chuyang was different from Zuo Yuan, Wu Shan and even Xiu Heng. Even if Duan Yunfei still liked Xiu Heng, if she had to choose between Xiu Heng and herself, Duan Yunfei would still choose Mu Chuyang without hesitation. Because Mu Chuyang had always been the most important one to her.

In the past, Duan Yunfei had never worried about Mu Chuyang leaving her, nor did she worry about Mu Chuyang knowing that he would get married in the future and have a family of his own. Because Duan Yunfei had always remembered that on the night of the Imperial Consort Duanshuo's death, Mu Chuyang tightly hugged the young Duan Yunfei and said to him in an incomparably gentle tone, "In the future, when I'm with you, I will always be by your side." Duan Yunfei had always believed in these words, but now, even Duan Yunfei did not know either, would Mu Chuyang still be her Mu Chuyang?