CH 16

When I opened my eyes, I felt a different feeling than usual.

“Oh, my God……!”

It was insanely sexy.

It was so seductive that I wanted to close my eyes and attack his lips without realizing it.

It’s a dizzying moment.

If Leon didn’t come, the social debut won’t be so much fun either.

I wanted to see him in a well-dressed suit…….

I lay in bed and listened to the thumping beat.

My wrist, which was clearly exposed, felt empty.

Is this why they say that you realize how important what you have only when it’s gone?

“Leon, Leon Davis…….”

It sounds good coming out of my mouth.

I feel empty, but why does my heart feel warm?

Leon’s warmth still clung to my wrist and hasn’t disappeared.

No, I wanted it to stay.

Thump, thump.

A pleasant sound rang in my ears and I fell asleep.

* * *

“No”

“Why! Give me a hundred reasons why not.”

As soon as I opened my eyes, I came to Edgar to buy a gift for Leon.

To get permission, of course.

But I didn’t know he would say no like this without hearing the reason right away…….

I couldn’t back down.

Because I really wanted to give him a present.

Edgar didn’t even pay attention to my words.

“Why should I give all the reasons? You’re here to ask me for permission.”

“You said no. Then you have to tell me why.”

I opened my eyes wide at Edgar.

No, why not?

“Do I need a reason? Your usual behavior is a problem.”

“Oh, you’re so strict. Are you going to buy presents for the Count?”

“I’ll be sure to buy it.”

Even though he was going to buy a present for the Count, it came out so suddenly.

“It’s suspicious that you’re doing something you haven’t done before.”

“Then please think that I’m just going out to play because I’m frustrated.”

“Are you a child?”

“Yes, I’m a child.”

I raised my head shamelessly. I didn’t make my social debut. I’m either an adult or a kid.

Edgar narrowed his brows to this attitude of mine and put his pen down.

“Be honest.”

“What…?”

“Why do you want to leave?”

Oh, it’s not working. Edgar looked like he was seeing through me.

“I’m going to buy a present.”

“My present?”

“Um….”

“I hate lies the most.”

“I’m going to buy a present for Leon.”

I confessed right away.

There’s a dessert that’s sold only downtown, and Leon ate it pretty well.

“He was a child.”

“In that case, you’re the same. You’re making ridiculous demands.”

“Ha…”

Edgar’s eyebrows went up and down.

“You said you’d let me go out once a week. It’s been a while since I went out. Why can’t I?”

“…….”

“You liar…”

“You still have a habit of talking.”

“Because of someone, my mouth is getting rough day by day.”

I had no choice but to approach Edgar and stare at him with my chin on my hand.

At times like this, this is the best.

“What are you doing now?”

If you look at the novel, don’t you fall for it when children show aegyo and say something out of their mouth?

But I can’t do it even if I die. Not only that it couldn’t fall from my mouth, I was not confident.

Then this is the only way…

Pretending to be poor. Yeah, that’s perfect.

I shook my shoulders with my head down.

“Every day, I’ve been alone in the house without any friends. I just wanted to buy a delicious dessert for my friend who’s like me.….”

“Ha?”

“Someone who has no head of recognition, sitting on the sidelines and be look for only when necessary…”

I kept shaking my shoulders.

“I was going to buy dessert for Leon and bribe my new friends, no, gifts for them…” 

“Elle Natasia.”

Edgar’s low voice rang in my ears.

But if you give up here, you won’t get anything.

I shook my shoulder a little more violently and mixed the crying sound.

“It’s just really… I think I’ll be able to breathe if I go out for just an hour……. It’s frustrating and depressing……it’s not like I’m going to fall and faint at the banquet hall tomorrow.”

With my shoulders drooping down, I fell a few steps from the desk and turned around.

“No one will approach me, who was treated like the abandoned child of a Count…As expected, I only have Leon.”

I turned my head slightly and looked back. Edgar’s sharp eyes were still fixed on me.

“No one will like me because I am someone that was kicked out of the palace. How can I make friends?….”

“Elle Natasia. I called your name twice. You’d better answer.”

“Allright, alright. I’ll be alone for the rest of my life, well…….”

If you’ve come this far, there’s one last thing you have to do.

Looking back with a pitiful expression on your face.

Squeezing out the tears that didn’t come out, I slowly turned my head and looked at Edgar.

“Just an hour. You can’t go with him instead.”

“I’m going to buy a gift for Leon. Why would I be a fool and take him?”

Do you really think I’m stupid? Why am I taking Leon?

I checked again with a glum look.

“Can I really go?”

“If you don’t let me go, I’m going to make you become trash.”

In fact, that’s true.

As soon as I left the office, I was going to wander around the neighborhood and shout out that Edgar de Belois was a living trash.

Fortunately, I didn’t think I had to go that far.

“Okay I’m feeling good! I’ll buy one for you too.”

“Don’t say things you don’t mean and go out.”

“Yes, there is no such thing as that.”

I left the office with a pleasant look on my face.

I feel exhausted every time I come out. I don’t have to do this all the time, do I

I’m really tired. I’m tired. It’s hard to live like this.

When I looked out the window next to the hallway, there was a carriage.

‘What, when did you put it on standby after saying that? That’s fast, too.’

Even the knight was standing there.

Diria, who found me outside, waved.

“Welcome, miss! The count said that time keep running!”

Diria’s urgent voice also quickened my pace.

“Really…. He’s a terrible human being.”

I’m sure he’s looking at the clock and counting every second.

I grabbed my skirt by hand and ran quickly toward the carriage.

* * *

I hummed to myself. I felt good maybe because it’s been a while since I had a runny nose.

“Do you like it that much?”

“Of course! I haven’t been able to go out recently.”

I couldn’t get out because of the nag.

I opened the window and closed my eyes, enjoying the wind.

“By any chance, Diria. Do you know what the count likes?”

“Well, I don’t know. I don’t think the count really liked anything.”

Well, I can buy him anything.

It was a relief.

I was worried that I might get a headache because I was choosing a present. I think I can choose freely

If you buy me something shiny and pretty, I won’t tackle you.

If you buy the wrong food, it may be thrown into the trash can right away.

“Then what does he hate? Ah! I mean not me.”

“Young Lady”

Diria’s expression was filled with embarrassment.

“The Count doesn’t hate you. Don’t think like that.”

Diria was engulfed in sorrow as she held my hand and sat next to me.

Why are you so…….

The person involved was okay, but Diria looked hurt.

I hurriedly smiled broadly and grabbed Diria’s hand and waved it up and down.

“It’s okay. Well, it’s not like I didn’t know! So is there anything he doesn’t like?”

“I don’t think there was any…….”

“Anything is fine, so tell me.”

There’s nothing he doesn’t like? He also doesn’t have anything to like. There’s Nothing.

What a boring life.

“The Count will like whatever you buy.”

It’s a relief if he didn’t curse because I bought something weird.

“Really?”

I’m glad to hear that. I was going to buy whatever I wanted anyway.

The carriage then stopped in front of the jeweler.

I rolled up my sleeves.