Chapter 118 - His determined words made her heart waver.

Deming was extending a CD and a dark brocade box to her. "What is this?" she asked calmly. She knew what were these but somewhere down her heart, it felt like she isn't worthy of receiving it.

"Little Cat, this is for you. A small gift from me to you", he said sincerely.

"And what makes you gift it to me. It's not my birthday and you are not someone to gift me anything, neither my boyfriend nor my friend. So there is nothing for which I can accept this. It would be better if you gift it to Ms.Long, she will be happy receiving it", Lifen said plainly without giving any expression on her face. No one can identify, what she was thinking or feeling inside her heart.

For Deming, her each word was a jab made by ice dagger inside his injured heart. But it wasn't that painful. It's said that when a person realizes that what he was experiencing is the result of his own past actions then he slowly and slowly gets used to it as the pain of words become less painful than the pain caused by own guilt.

Deming suppressed the pain inside his heart and tugged his lips with a self mocking smile, "Little Cat, if you really like to hear sorry from me then you don't have to be that shy and hurt yourself with your own pricky words. Just command me and I won't hesitate to utter the word 'SORRY' for infinite number to times till your heart gets satisfied. I know your feelings in your heart, though you deny it again and again".

Her heart stumbled hearing his words. It was screaming inside, 'Don't do this Deming. I can handle it anymore. Your words are so sincere that my heart is melting away. My determination to stay away from you is wavering. Your pain is so prominent that my heart can easily feel it. Move on in your life, with your love of life. K am just a guilt that you are feeling now and soon that infatuation will be gone. And as for me, soon I will go far away from you that you won't ever find me again, I will make sure for it'.

Few moments passed in silence, no on said anything but there heart was beating in same speed and rhythm as if they were having a deep conversation.

The silence was broken by Lifen, "Sorry, but I can take...".

Before her completion of statement, Deming spoke up, "Take it. The CD has the song which I composed for you and you have already listened it, so there is no way you should hesitate for this. This song has only two copies, one for you and the other for me. And about this, take this for me. I have bought it for you. You can consider it as my..."

The next words didn't came out from his throat but Lifen understood it. No she can't behave like this with him anymore. Any more there is only few days left before she left the country. It can't leave him feeling guilty towards her. This way he can't get away from her, his heart would suffer. And she can't let him suffer this pain. She knew well this feeling. She knew how painful it is to bear.

She didn't say another word and took it from him. His lips curled up slightly when he say her accepting his gift. Only he knew, how joyous he was feeling inside.

"Thanks for the gift. I will take it as the gift you have given me as a friend. I will surely attend your engagement, day after tomorrow and will wish your wholeheartedly for your love life", she said and turned away to leave.

She has only walked a few steps when his voice entered her ears, "Thanks for accepting it. You can take it as a gift from a friend but I will think it as a present I have given to the one my heart loves and will always love. And do wish me for my love life and I will try my best to bring you back to my heart"

He paused and again continued, "And the most important, don't ever forget...the day when I feel that your heart still haven't forgotten me and still care for me the most, that it still beats for me. That day I will go out of my way and against this whole world to bring you back to me. No promise can bind me after that, not even your promise. So make your heart strong enough to not get swayed away that easily by me because I am determined that you and only you will be my wife in future. No one else will get close to that, not even Jie".

She turned to look back at him, his lips were all curled up to give a warm smile to her, which almost made her heart tingly. Her heart was beating in anticipation but her mind was feeling that soon she will lose to him again.

Saying all these words, he got into the car and drove away, leaving Lifen all astounded with his words. His mood was much better than before.

Today he has felt the true feelings inside Lifen's heart. He was sure that she still loves him and hasn't forgotten him as she has said. He has felt her being touched with his words. His heart can feel that her heart was screaming inside that it still loves him will always do.

He again turned on the same song which he had heard with her together. From today, this song will be very precious to him as this song made him feel his position deep in her heart.