Lifen didn't wanted to let Deming know yet about the guilt she was holding in her heart. The pain that was jabbing her inside especially when Deming blamed everything on himself.
It was not his fault. What he did was just the consequences of her stupidity from twelve years back. If she hasn't been so childish and stubborn in her childhood, then so much misunderstandings wouldn't have taken place between them.
Now she felt so stupid. When Deming asked her what was it, she was hiding behind her tears, she has no words actually to tell the tale of guilt inside her heart. She so wanted to reveal that she was the one from their childhood to whom he has promised to return.
But at this moment she just can't let him know this. She wanted him to stay far away from the guilt, so she would just not tell him at this moment. Wiping her tears off, she stood up and held his hand to led him back excusing herself saying, she was famished.
She thought she has escaped but Deming did have other plans in his mind too. If there was anything was hurting her then he needs to know it so that he can resolve it completely for her. He won't let her cry for anything. Her tears are too valuable to be wasted like this.
The moment she walked forward, she was tugged behind only to be wrapped by his arms firmly around her. Soon she felt his mint fragrant warm breath over her ears asking her again.
"What is it, Little Cat?", his words going more firmer than before. And his breath doing nothing good to her. It was making her senses go weak, making her submit to his words. She was losing her reasons to think.
It was like her brain was all shrouded with his cologne that has engulfed her all over. She wanted to get away from him to make herself a little sane to distract him from the topic but his arms were really tough around her.
She resisted under his grip but it was to no avail. Seeing her continuous resistance, Deming became more suspicious. His determination to know what exact was going on piqued.
"Sweetheart! Your resistance isn't going to bring any good to you. You too know well, with each passing second my determination is only growing higher. So be quick and tell me exactly what you are hiding from me", his words coming softly inside her ears.
Lifen bit her lips to bring back her rationality. Using both her arms she tried to pry away the arms Deming has wrapped around her, only to get the failure again.
Exhaling a deep breath, she said, "Deming… let go please. I said it earlier. There nothing very important at this moment to let you know. Just let me go". Saying this she tried again but it was really impossible to get herself free from his grip.
"That means there is really something that I am oblivious to. And that thing is really giving you pain inside. And still you are asking me to not ask you about anything. What exactly does it mean, Little Cat?", his tone growing a little impatient now.
Lifen closed her eyes. She knew how selfish she is being now, hiding the things from him was the last thing she would ever choose. Her heart was urging her to say everything to him, to let him know the truth but her sense in brain were asking her to choose a right time to reveal it.'I am not going to hide this from him. I will tell everything to him soon, but that soon is definitely not now', she made her heart understand.
"Deming I know my words are a little harsh but please can you not probe this matter any further. I don't want this now", she persuaded.
"First tell me, is there something you are hiding from me? And that's the reason that's making you feel worse in your heart?", he asked turning her around to face him. She kept avoiding his gaze that was questioning her again and again.
But when felt a little jerk at her shoulders, she lifted her gaze at him and said , "Yes there is something I am hiding from you. That's true, I am hiding it from you. And that fact is making it more worse. I want to tell you everything. I really want, believe me but it's not the right time".
"I will tell you everything when times comes but for now don't ask anymore. Please I request you don't ask any further", she added as she looked at him with clearly begging eyes.
Deming didn't say anything. He didn't probe any further. He just lifted up his lips in a warm understanding smile while caressing her cheeks with one hand and said, "Okay sweetheart I won't ask you any further. If you don't want to tell me yet, I won't ask you. But will always be waiting for you to come and tell me everything that gives you pain. I want you to believe in me fully to let me know each nook and crannies of your heart".
Lifen nodded, "I believe you but I am sorry...". She lowered her head in disappointment. She was really disappointed in herself.
"It's okay, I know and I will be patient ", he said and gave a light pat over her head.
"Now go and get changed first I will to go and prepare something quick for you", he led her back through the lift. When he brought her to the room, it was not any other room, rather was the master bedroom of the house. She turned to look at the man who has brought her, "Isn't this the master bedroom? Why did you bring me here?" She asked.
"Of course this is the main bedroom of the house. And I brought you here because all your dresses are here in the closet. Go take your time to freshen-up. I will go prepare the dinner", he said as he pushed her inside the room, closing the door behind her.
The moment the door got closed, his expression changed, getting a little dark with furrowed brows. Climbing down the stairs, he turned to look behind then took out his phone to make a call.
When the call got connected, he said in a deep voice "Come to Tiāntáng Hills after 11. I want you to investigate something for me".