Chapter 118: Everyone has something to hide (3)

The blush spread across Huang Deshi's already rosy face, but Bai Lin didn't seem to notice that change, so he just kissed Huang Deshi's forehead. 

"Let's go to sleep now, we don't want to be the last to get up tomorrow," said Bai Lin with a soft, gentle smile. 

"En," Huang Deshi said in a shy voice, his mind was blank. He still felt the feel of Bai Lin's warm, slightly moist lips on his skin. 

Huang Deshi couldn't tell why the kiss on his forehead was different from Bai Lin's innocent caresses on his neck and shoulders, it was also different from when his best friend tickled him or pinched his leg when he was upset ... Huang Deshi only felt He felt different when he looked at Bai Lin's golden eyes so closely, feeling his heart flutter… For he imagined that Bai Lin would kiss his lips.

Bai Lin's lips were soft and Huang Deshi thought his mouth would be sweet, he didn't understand the reason for his thinking. However, some nights he thought it would be nice if Bai Lin kissed him on the lips… There were strange thoughts in Huang Deshi's mind about wanting Bai Lin's lips to kiss other parts of his body… Huang Deshi thought the sensation would be pleasant, probably a little disturbing, but it would definitely be something that made Huang Deshi shudder deliciously just at the thought.

Of course, Bai Lin never kissed Huang Deshi on the lips, so Huang Deshi felt embarrassed and confused in wanting this to happen.

This was quite normal since Huang Deshi was not instructed about sexual things between men and women, much less about interactions between men, but that did not mean that the hormones that flourished in his body had no way of stir up Huang Deshi's mind.

Bai Lin closed his eyes and then fell asleep, still hugging Huang Deshi's waist, ignorant of his best friend's heart conflict and the desires that this person had on his lips. 

When the two began sleeping in the same courtyard or sometimes in the same room, Huang Deshi always fled to Bai Lin's bed. He always said that Bai Lin was warm and comfortable, that sleeping hugged with Bai Lin was very good. 

Huang Deshi always got cold every night and also had some nightmares, but he was very afraid to call someone because he knew the maids would just mock him. At that time he had not yet begun his journey on the martial path, so the people in his family didn't care much about him. Of course, he was still the first child and heir to the Huang Family, but with his mother dead… It was clear that concubines and people who were keeping an eye on the office of the first wife would do everything to suppress Huang Deshi or even destroy the child just over 5 years old.

At first, Bai Lin felt awkward with little Huang Deshi climbing on his bed, as it was hard for him to believe that anyone would dare approach him with such intimacy given the fact of the color of his skin, his golden eyes and his half-blood impure. In time Bai Lin got used to Huang Deshi climbing into his bed to sleep, he also got used to Huang Deshi holding his hand when he was sad, with Huang Deshi jumping on his back when he was angry and the little white rabbit Huang that whenever he was angry he would bite his shoulder.

Bai Lin got used to having Huang Deshi touching his body as he pleased, in return, he also did the same thing with his best friend. Gradually Bai Lin's distorted heart was being healed and he could shine with natural joy for all to see, while Huang Deshi was in his life, Bai Lin would never care what other people thought of him. For Huang Deshi it was something similar, although he was still a block of ice all year long, he became kinder and his heart that was beginning to be distorted finally managed to come out of the darkness and could stand by the light.

Huang Deshi had a high Yin energy in his body, but with Bai Lin by his side, his Yang energy remained balanced. Since childhood Huang Deshi sought the heat of Bai Lin, he saw no problem in that, since Bai Lin who was always avoided by everyone, was extremely happy with the sticky cupcake that was his best friend.

While the black teenager rested softly on the bed, Huang Deshi could not sleep, his heart seemed so noisy! 

"How could Bai Lin sleep by listening to this noise?" Thought Huang Deshi, ashamed. He knew that Bai Lin had very strong hearing because he was a hybrid between a human cultivator and a magic beast. There was no possibility that he would not hear Huang Deshi's heartbeat. 

Bai Lin found his best friend's fast-paced beats strange, but he was too tired to think about that. He was also excited for the next day, things were very exciting today when they almost died with the poison of the Great Alchemist Sect. So what did tomorrow hold for them? Therefore, Bai Lin as a hybrid of a good, even agitated feline would not miss a good opportunity to sleep!

Huang Deshi couldn't stop thinking about Yun San and Bai Lin, his mind was confused, he admired Yun San who appeared to be very serious, but was very kind. This was a new feeling for him since he had not admired anyone for a long time. Already, Bai Lin, he had an uneasy feeling in his chest, a feeling that he could not define well. Because he was restless, he was often distracted by looking at what was in his space ring, checking each item with his conscience.

Then Huang Deshi began to distract his mind by gently analyzing each item in his storage space ring. It was not a very large ring, there was only 10m³ of space. 

After a few minutes, Huang Deshi stopped analyzing the items in his ring and focused his attention on a silver locket that had the "Fidelity" rune carved into the locket. The rune appeared to have been filled with violet jewels as it seemed to glow softly in the ring with that shade of color.

"Where are you?" Huang Deshi thought, distracting himself from his conflicting thoughts.

When Huang Deshi was very young his mother "died", or at least that's what he learned later. However, no one was talking about his mother or how she died. His father was always angry when Huang Deshi mentioned this, the maids despised Huang Deshi, and the elders of his family treated Huang Deshi coldly.

One day while walking with Bai Lin in the garden of their residence, they heard two maids gossiping. Both women were personal servants of Huang Deshi's father's most favored concubine. 

The two women gossiped loudly as they thought they were alone in a somewhat isolated part of the garden. They revealed the shocking secret that Master Huang's first wife had not died but had fled the residence because of her husband's "infidelity."

The two maids made fun of their first wife and little Huang Deshi, calling her shameless that she didn't like to share her husband and was selfish not thinking about her husband's well-being, taking a few more nonsense. 

So Huang Deshi discovered that his mother was alive, but had abandoned him inside that cold mansion with evil schemes. Huang Deshi felt conflicted between hating his mother or worrying about where she was… After all, it was still his mother who cared most about him as a baby, it was difficult to overcome this kind of motherly love or to force himself to hate her.

After that day in the garden, years later Huang Deshi received a ring that contained everything his mother had left for him when he reached a certain level of martial cultivation. The one who handed over the ring was his father, what most surprised Huang Deshi was the desolate look of his father when speaking of his mother.

The father did not hate Huang Deshi's mother as everyone thought, on the contrary, he seemed to miss her every day. The father spoke of his wife with great affection and longing. He also felt guilty for giving in to his family's pressure to receive concubines at his home.

That was the only time Huang Deshi had seen his father speak openly about his mother, after that day his father was barely speaking to him. 

"Fidelity ..." thought Huang Deshi finally drifting off to sleep, unconsciously snuggling even closer into Bai Lin's embrace, thus feeling more secure.

"Shi'er, you must sleep… soon… don't be… sad…" Bai Lin's voice was hoarse from sleep, but Bai Lin's golden eyes remained closed. Proving it was a reflexive act on Bai Lin's body, unfortunately, it was caused by the many nightmares and sad days that Huang Deshi had and to feel better he would flee to Bai Lin's sheets every night.

Huang Deshi who almost fell asleep cannot help but laugh softly, before letting his hand touch Bai Lin's back in a caress, as if stroking a large cat, so he slept with a soft smile.