Chapter 77 - Changes in her heart (5)

April was astounded. Listening to Colm's words, it brought several emotions into her heart. Emotions that she didn't know existed in her. 

"WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE?!" She yelled on top of her lungs. Shocked, Alex turned around to look at her.

"I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS! I never asked for anyone to worry about my own life! For once, I wanted to go forward with what I what!

I am tired of all your pity glares and your silent sighs! I never regretted the day that I let you escape the warehouse. Colm, you will always have a special place in my heart but that doesn't mean that you can decide my future!

I fell in love with a married man, so what? You can never dictate who your heart falls for! But you can definitely decide if you wish to pursue it or not. I, April, decided to pursue this difficult road.

I love him and that's what I decided! So what if they call me a Mistress? So what if I'm fighting for a losing battle? So what if I end up getting hurt? At least I tried. I tried to fight for what I want. For once, I want to fight for my own happiness.

Call me naive, I don't give a shit! If Alex only wanted me as a rebound, fine! But you don't have the right to threaten me! I know what I am doing. The same thing that I know what will happen to me, once I stayed on that warehouse.

Colm, you are my dearest friend. You are like my closest relative, a brother I never had. But sorry, that's all I could give. Even if I wanted to change it, I can't. My heart screams Alex's name. Despite the hurt and pain that I'm suffering now, I still want to be with him.

I want to be a part of his life, as he will be part of mine. I didn't want to hurt you nor his wife, I never wanted to hurt anybody. I was completely fine being with myself and my son. Yet it happened, life happened and we fell in love with each other.

No matter what happens from now on, it doesn't concern you anymore. Even though I never wish for all of this to happen, I now want it! Even if I end up losing myself, This is a choice that I want to make.

I'm sorry.." April covered her face with both of her hands. The entire time that she spoke, her body was trembling and her tears endlessly fell on her face.

She finally done it, she broke her only friend's heart. April knew that from this moment on, She and Colm would the be friends anymore. She hated hurting him, but she also hated that he doesn't want her to be with Alex.

If someone had to suffer, she'd rather be the one than let anyone experience it. Call her crazy, Call her insane. She was used to it. Used to the fact that she'll never have a normal life.

"Fine!" Colm finally woke up from his stupor, he then turned and left the room. Never ever looking back.

He finally understood his role, he finally knew that he and April wasn't for each other. Still, it hurts. It hurts knowing that from now on, he wouldn't have a say on her future.

Alex laid down beside April.. Since April's was in a VIP room, her bed was a queen bed and not the regular hospital bed. Without a word, he pulled April to his chest. He kissed her hair and patted her back. He could feel her trembling and crying silently.

"Let it out. You don't have to hold it in. I'm right here, It will be alright." He whispered into her ear.

After hearing his words, She finally cried out loud. "I finally done it. I broke his heart, I broke our friendship. Tell me Alex, did I do the right thing? Or was I too cruel for him?"

"No baby, sooner or later he has to know what you really feel. You would hurt him more if you hide it from him.

Also, I am not taking you as a rebound. I would never ever do that to you. Please believe in me." Alex hugged April tightly. In this life and the next, this woman is his and his alone.

If he doesn't have the power to keep her safe, who does? If he isn't capable of making her happy, who can? In this world, there are no guarantees. Alex realized this after listening to April earlier. 

In this life, he will risk everything he has. Just to keep her in his side.