Chapter 43
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To sum it up, Lee Jaehun was fine.
What did I tell you?
That doesnt mean hes completely healthy.
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To clarify, he was just fine enough not to cough up blood.
The doctor was clearly smiling, but he didnt look amused at all. He watched Lee Jaehun as if he were a major criminal, while those around him watched him with pale, anxious faces, as if looking away would cause Lee Jaehun to die.
And all of this made Lee Jaehun feel uneasy.
Did I kill someone?
If you consider yourself a person, then.
Good grief, oh my
As Lee Jaehun lost his words, the doctor asked in his usual soft tone.
Im curious too. What did you do to have blood in your airways?
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Even while you were asleep.
At that, Lee Jaehun couldnt easily answer and closed his mouth.
Of course, Ha Sungyoon, being a doctor, nodded that there was no reason Lee Jaehun should have been coughing up blood. Though he himself couldnt be certain, given his diagnosis in the middle of a park without a stethoscope, he seemed to rely on his accumulated medical knowledge.
Moreover, there were no signs that he had leukemia, lung cancer, or other illnesses commonly associated with coughing up blood, so in the end, Lee Jaehun just seemed to have blood in his airways despite having no apparent medical condition.
Like a thermos or a pocket.
After briefly mouthing words without saying anything, Lee Jaehun eventually gave a hesitant response.
Im not really sure
Youre not sure?
He genuinely didnt know.
It might not even be blood
Are you serious?
It might not actually be blood.
But he wont believe me.
In the end, Lee Jaehun fell silent. Yeah, I wouldnt believe it either if I were him.
To be honest, he wasnt sure what was happening either. His suspicion was that maybe water from the lake in his dream had gone up his nose and into his mouth.
Well, of course, I have no idea how that ended up happening in reality.
Trying to figure out what to say to explain the situation, Lee Jaehun eventually decided to let it go.
If it doesnt hurt, then isnt that good enough?
A little bit of denial was always part of human nature.
Youre not exactly pain-free either.
So did I puncture a hole in my lung? Or do I have tuberculosis? Maybe it was just a nosebleed in my sleep that ran into my mouth. Is that such a big deal?
If the blood had come from a nosebleed, do you think I, as a doctor, would have been so alarmed, sir?
You might just have been too tired and misinterpreted what you saw.
Lee Jaehun scrunched up his face as he thought about reality.
His gaze deliberately avoided meeting Dr. Ha Sungyoons eyes, turning his head slightly to the side. Despite this, he twisted one corner of his mouth into a smile and continued speaking.
Theres no proper equipment here, and everyones so exhaustedone or two misdiagnoses thats not too strange, is it?
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Oh, and Im not saying youre incompetent, of course.
After saying that, Lee Jaehun put an end to his brief smile. His head and gaze were still turned away, showing no respect toward Dr. Ha Sungyoon.
Then he looked directly at the doctor with a face full of disdain.
Isnt that right?
This was a form of diversion.
Whether or not he remembered his past life, Lee Jaehuns upbringing in a well-off family seemed to make him prone to looking down on others. Unless they were of a similar economic standing to his own, he treated them like a nobleman treating a peasant.
Just because I remembered my past life doesnt mean the experience I gained goes away.
Lee Jaehun kept up the attitude that people seemed to fear the most from his memories, hoping to navigate the current situation smoothly.
Best case scenario, theyll be so fed up they wont pay any more attention.
Despite being an uncooperative patient, he couldnt even show gratitude for the medical treatment he was receiving, instead choosing to dismiss it.
His dismissal of the doctors duty to care for patients was an insult to someone who had been willing to even consider contacting the police on behalf of the patient. Doctors tend to be upset when their skills are undermined, so Lee Jaehun hoped that his attitude would drive the other party away.
If there was a mistake, it was that he hadnt fully understood Dr.Ha Sungyoon.
Even if he made a few mistakes because he was disoriented, this was a bit too much. Unless the entire universe was conspiring to help him, this didnt make any sense.
Honestly, boosting my personality like this isnt doing much good anyway.
Even if Lee Jaehun had a genuinely good personality, the risks were high. His already ruined personality was now being lifted to the clouds. If he showed even a hint of his true self later, hed face twice the criticism.
Seriously, would they really be that ungrateful? Humans are inherently made to stab others in the back, and no matter how nave someone might be, theyve definitely hurt someone at least once. Whether intentional or not, its human nature, a system, and a rule, and its never a good thing.
Not just a helpful ally, but Ive become a self-sacrificing leader.
Of course, in this life, he hadnt yet relied on or expected others at that level, but this was truly.
Crazy.
It was really a crazy situation.
You seem very conflicted. Are you feeling embarrassed, sir?
What would I have to be embarrassed about, really? What is this? Why do you seem to be enjoying this?
Oh dear, thats a misunderstanding.
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Damn.
After cursing internally nine times, Lee Jaehun covered his mouth.
Whats my loss in all of this?
First of all, the issue of his excessively inflated reputation.
If it was just the endearing old-man quirk hed shown so far, that might have been fine. But if he crosses the line even slightly, the group would likely feel betrayed. This would add a handicap to handling future complications openly.
Moreover, these people now seem to have a general sense that Director Lee Jaehun is a fake. It makes sense, considering they work for one of Koreas top companiesthey should be capable of that much deduction. This was expected.
The problem is this will make me more exhausted.
Lee Jaehun blinked at the wave of fatigue washing over him.
Hed planned to revert to the old Lee Jaehun of this life, causing trouble if they encountered stubborn individuals. But now, such behavior would no longer be received naturally by the group.
From now on, every bit of my troublemaking will be seen as intentional.
And the benefits? What are the benefits.
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Are there any?
Director?
Im really not a nice person
Oh, yes.
What a disgusting guy, really.
Huuu
He took a deep breath and lifted his head.
Alright, so, yeah. Um water.
Water.
Yes, we need water.
There wasnt much bottled water, but there were a lot of people.
You can survive on less food, but if you dont drink water, youll lose your mind first, and then your soul will follow. Without hydration, you cant even swallow food, so water was a must.
Looking at the steady fire, he continued.
Weve lit the fire, so it would be good to boil some water and drink it. Do we have any milk cartons or cans?
I think I saw some discarded cans here and there.
Even in these circumstances, theres trash around. If you can pick them up, do it, but if not, its fine. If necessary, we can strain the water through clothes or distill it.
So you want us to collect water, right? And the cans, if possible.
Exactly, just getting enough drinking water today would be a good start. It doesnt mean there arent other things we need, but it might be tough to address everything today.
Understood.
The prompt and straightforward voice made Lee Jaehun brush his lips lightly.
Do you have anything else to say?
A dark, piercing gaze.
It was so blatant and unnerving that it made his hand clench instinctively.
That irritatingly familiar stare.
Lee Jaehun replied shortly.
No.
This bitch is suspicious of me right now.
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