Chapter 54
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To the observer, Lee Jaehun probably appeared as someone who could do anything to achieve his goals. It wasnt just a matter of mindset.
Before his noticeable personality change, he maintained the image of Director Lee Jaehun. He was old-fashioned, yet had a sense of altruism in helping others, sensitive, and not very honest Of course, these traits were imposed by others rather than self-created, but it wasnt entirely inaccurate to say that he was always acting.
Anyway, the transformation he showed in front of Detective Hong Kyungjun was all based on that Director Lee Jaehun persona. When his mind tangled up and he appeared resentful towards others, it was showing the moments when Director Lee Jaehun was too exhausted and desperate to even plead with others. Since it didnt deviate significantly from his usual demeanor, the detective wasnt particularly surprised.
However, if he revealed a new personality excluding the one he initially showed, Detective Hong, who was cautious by nature, would have been quite surprised.
Well, there are hardly any people in this world with messed-up personalities like mine.
And among such people, there were even fewer who were sane. At least he could vouch for that much.
So, Ill remain vigilant here.
Lee Jaehun not only had the mindset of doing anything, but he also had the ability to make it happen. He clearly demonstrated this through the instantaneous change in his personality.
If it were a past life, perhaps, but in this current life, ordinary people dont switch personalities for the sake of efficiency like Lee Jaehun. Since it had been less than a day since they met, they might not have realized that the change was merely a matter of efficiency, but Lee Jaehun had hoped countless times that he could step aside. He must have sensed it to some extent.
And what was needed here was nothing but method acting.
Im a survivor of the underworld, recently dragged back in after a long time, very tired but managing my expressions mechanically for efficiency as a mentally ill person
Thats what he said.
To summarize the situation, Lee Jaehun had been a survivor of the underworld for quite some time after escaping. For some reason, after days of acting as an old-fashioned director, he suddenly came to his senses and found himself back in that disgusting world.
However, he couldnt abruptly stop his previous act as the old-fashioned director. Unfortunately, he was caught up with his colleagues, and if he dropped the act here, it could lead to unnecessary misunderstandings or suspicions. At least for the sake of his companions mental stability, Lee Jaehun had to continue acting as the old-fashioned director.
At the same time, he continued to protect others. After all, Lee Jaehun was quite self-sacrificing. He had a sense of responsibility to protect others and felt obligated to lead them as a survivor.
If someone has to die or get hurt, it should have been me, who has already died once, as it would be a much more efficient choice.
And this wasnt far from his true feelings. Of course, it wasnt solely out of sacrificial spirit, but also based on genuine values.
As a result, his keen subordinate and the doctor caught glimpses of his past, and that night, as he slept and vomited out the blood he had been holding in, Lee Jaehun continued to act as the old-fashioned manager as best as he could, but the other party didnt easily back down.
The tiredness and the disposable conversations in the afternoon were more insane than imagined. Lee Jaehun knew he couldnt keep up the act forever, and eventually, he revealed his true self. He knew that this version of him could pose a significant threat to the other party.
But, I have to be different from that murderer.
So Lee Jaehun, knowing that he could be seen as a threat by the detective, still chose to reveal his original face.
Because Im tired.
However, no matter how tired and exhausted he was, he didnt want to reveal that to a stranger.
The reason? He wasnt exactly sure. It could be because of pride, or out of respect for others, or simply because he didnt want to be caught by a detective who seemed to cling to the weak. What was certain was that Lee Jaehun was not an evil person, but rather a victim of the underworld, aware that he could become a perpetrator in some sense.
Lee Jaehun had resigned himself to quite a lot.
Well
Do you need to talk?
The end of his voice was faintly melancholic, contrary to his expression.
I dont think I need to.
This way, Lee Jaehun could avoid becoming a complete enemy to the detective.
Tough people and those with troubled backgrounds are treated differently. The same actions can lead to criticism or support. Lee Jaehun, who had long abandoned any conscience, hoped that his image within Detective Hong Kyungjuns mind would be shaded in gray.
His nature is good. But mentally unstable. There seems to be a reason for that
And he was a victim of the underworld.
Since he was already in the concept of receiving sympathy from the protagonist and others, adding sympathy from the detective wouldnt be a big issue.
Does Lee Jaehuns-ssi group know about your condition?
I dont know.
Thats a problem.
Sure enough, the detectives brow furrowed slightly.
Im sorry to keep repeating the same question, but are these people trustworthy? You have a lot of injuries everywhere, and have you ever received unreasonable demands?
I heard similar things from Constable Kim Yeonwoo, but no, not at all. It was all my choice, and I have no regrets. Thanks to that, nobody died.
Thats not right, Lee Jaehun-ssi. At least you should let them know what condition youre in and accept help.
Its not necessary.
Thats not true.
I mean, Id rather not need help than have someone die because of it.
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It was unnecessary talk.
Lee Jaehun let out a light laugh.
Im sorry.
He wasnt in his right mind at the moment.
Even aside from being originally mentally ill, he was actually physically weak and exhausted to the point of vomiting blood. The only thing certain was that Lee Jaehuns judgment had significantly declined since the bloodletting.
Its only natural to help someone in trouble. Dont you think so, Lee Jaehun-ssi?
You leave me speechless.
Anyway, at the moment, the biggest suspect seemed to be Jung Inho. But Lee Jaehun, who was already in a mess, showed signs of excitement, and even mentioned having separate companions. Considering that Jung Inho was already suspected of being a criminal, he might have thought he had been treated unfairly. In that case, the tough attitude he had shown so far was somewhat understandable.
In such a situation, Lee Jaehun himself seemed to already know the situation, so even as Detective Hong Kyungjoon, there was nothing he could say.
He was trying to help the victims, not an accomplice.
Of course, he didnt think Lee Jaehun was an accomplice to the serial killer, but the difference between knowing and not knowing was significant. Even if the same thing happened, it would be seen as less severe. Especially in a world where judgment becomes clouded.
More than that, theres an unexpected loss.
He felt a lingering bitterness.
If they hadnt met here, or at least if he hadnt shown the act of vomiting blood, Lee Jaehun wouldnt have needed to change his approach. The fact that he now had to manage Detective Hong Kyungjun and most of the survivors was a significant blow, even for someone as seasoned as him.
Sure, theres a chance the situation might change if I keep observing, but
He doubted that would happen. It was a frustrating situation, like getting hit from behind on a dark street.
After a moment of thought, Lee Jaehun, who had been about to walk away, stopped as if something had just occurred to him.
By the way, how is your group doing? Are they alright?
What do you mean?
I mean, do they have enough water, food, and such?
The detective caught on quickly.
You seem to be doing alright.
Its not too bad.
After saying that, Lee Jaehun frowned, then relaxed, biting his lip slightly before letting go. Showing a brief hint of internal conflict, he spoke again before it was too late.
He pointed towards a small lake.
Theres a lake over there.
A lake?
The water is clean. Its not a small lake, either. We boiled it just to be safe.
It looks like a decent water source.
Of course, this wasnt just out of kindness.
Since Ill have to manage their mental states anyway, it wouldnt hurt to start now.
Though the future was uncertain, there was a high chance Lee Jaehun would have to take care of most of the survivors in the park. In a world where death had significant repercussions, this might have been the correct approach from the start, even considering his plans for his later years.
Yeah, its better to lay the groundwork now and reap the benefits later.
But based on the novel, their situation was likely not good.
If he hadnt remembered his past life, his group would also be in terrible physical and mental condition like he was, so no further explanation was needed.
Isnt it a bit risky to drink just any water in a place like this?
Its hard to stop by a convenience store or a supermarket. Im not one to talk, but going there feels like a death sentence.
Youre right.
However, this could cause conflict between the teams. If one group is struggling and sees another group doing significantly better, its natural for humans to feel anything from jealousy to outright resentment. Even if he couldnt do anything about injuries, Lee Jaehun wanted to minimize this disparity as much as possible.
And there was another reason: the potential danger of the small lake.
The more test subjects, the faster the results come in.
He remembered the reactions of Team Leader Kang and the collection team. He hadnt been there himself yet, and couldnt fully trust the novels description, so caution was necessary.
But if the other team got hurt, he might be blamed for telling them about it, so with a bitter expression, he added,
Still, be cautious. Some of our group went there and said it felt strange.
Strange, you say.
There could be monsters out to kill people, after all.
Lee Jaehun forced his expression into a neutral one as he said this.
There actually is a monster in the water.
The hesitation and bitterness he showed when mentioning the small lake werent just from sharing valuable information with the other party. It stemmed from the fear that he might be giving them imprecise information, potentially putting them in danger. Lee Jaehun wanted to appear that way.
And fortunately, the detective followed his lead exactly as intended.
Thank you for the valuable information.
Youre welcome.
For an unexpected loss, the result wasnt too bad.
Hopefully, someone would take the bait.
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