CH 148

Does She Leave the House (8)

Inside the room was a comfortable slip that I had never seen before. The refreshments that were cluttering the table had been cleaned up, and even a fragrant candle was lightly lit on the small nightstand next to the bed.

There was a note tied with a red ribbon next to the ‘bell’ that the knight had told me to pick up during the day.

-If you need a meal, a bath, or anything else, please ring the bell.

Oh, I should never ring this.

It seems that the emperor, knowing that I was uncomfortable with the attention in the palace, told the attendants separately. But it looks like everyone was secretly paying attention.

I’m a typical commoner, so when I think of strangers attending to me, I feel awkward and do not know what to do.

I blew out the scented candle and went on the bed in the dusty dress without changing into a slip.

My body is tired, but I can’t fall asleep. It felt as if the day wasn’t all over and there was still work to be done.

“Is it because Merson is not here?”

I’ve been talking like ‘oh our Merson, our cute little Merson’, but in a way, it seems that I am the one who has been tamed. It’s been less than a day since I haven’t seen his face, but I was already picturing Merson’s face in my mind.

“While I like him this much.”

I know, so do I. I ran away from the shock that the three years of life that I firmly believed to be true were based on lies. But my heart kept getting sucked back into those three years. No, I couldn’t even get out of it completely in the first place.

When the female and male lead in the drama liked each other but couldn’t easily express their feelings like fools, I would throw pillows at them out of frustration. I was caught up in too many other thoughts to talk about love.

Can Merson, who has not lost his memory, remain not hurt after I leave? No, what if the heart itself that loves me is a lie as it has always been?

Disparate and contradictory concerns. Selfish mind.

“Uwaaaaaaaaaaaa!”

I rolled over on the wide bed. I just have to face my heart as it is, and deal with Merson without thinking about the uneasy future that hasn’t happened yet. Is it that difficult?

“It’s difficult!!”

It feels like two egos were born inside me. I calmly said, ‘Merson, I love you.’ While dismissing Kayle as a stranger.

“It’s not someone else, it’s just the Demon King, the Demon King! The one from 3 years ago! It’s not like he’s completely transformed, how can the Demon King change like Merson in an instant?”

No wonder I don’t know. Merson asked me to listen to him, but I was too busy running away. I was frightened and didn’t hear a word from Merson’s point of view.

If it was a bond that could be easily separated, I could just turn my back and leave right now. The soles of my feet were stinging and uncomfortable, as if the soles of my shoes were covered with fine sand.

“I will live the way Erina wants.”

“Then don’t leave. please. There were no lies in my heart. If Erina leaves, I will die.”

Merson’s voice and face continue to flicker. No doubt I want to see Merson.

I’m going crazy because I can’t do this or that. I kicked and punched the air, tousled my hair.

Eventually, I couldn’t lie down and sat up on the bed.

“Whatever happens, let’s meet and talk.”

After making a difficult decision, I opened the door and went outside. The attendants, who had been waiting outside the door for some time, were startled by my presence and even let out weak screams.

“I am going back home now. Just rest without looking at me.”

“It is very late. Once the day is bright after sleeping…….”

“The moonlight is so strong that it feels like broad daylight?”

As I was about to pass the attendants with a smile to show that it was okay, an attendant hurriedly shouted from behind.

“I will have the carriage ready.”

“I want to walk. I have a lot to think about. I told His Majesty beforehand, so don’t worry.”

Of course it’s a lie. It was to prevent people from saying ‘You dare to leave without telling His Majesty?!’

As I spoke firmly and walked quickly, they stopped holding me back.

Fortunately, there was a knight who guided me when I arrived at the main gate of the imperial palace, so I was able to get out safely.

“Be it Merson or Cale, just wait. I will listen to what you have to say.”

At the moment when I should feel more nervous than ever, I feel free for some reason. And all the way to the inn, I belatedly remembered a reason why I must return there, if it wasn’t because of Merson. I counted the days with my fingers as I walked.

“Crazy.”

My footsteps stopped.

“It’s past midnight, so today is the seventh day.”

The last day of the promise with Chenin, was quickly approaching.