Chapter 41 40: A Lost Diary

Today, mom made steak.

It was good. I don't like bell peppers. Mom made me eat it.

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We went to a flower //G/a/r// Garden. There were pink and yellow and red and blue and green and white and pink flowers.

Mommy also made sandwiches. I gave mine to a dog. The flowers were pretty. A bee came to bully us, but papa fight it!

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Mr. Accountant came to give us fish. It was very tasty fish. Mom made good fish.

Mr. Accountant has many cows, and many chickens, and many corns grow in his backyard. He always gives us some. Papa said our village is the best for carps, but I never saw carp fish. Papa is dum dum sometimes.

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I made friends with Mr. Accountant's son. His name is Remel.

Remel and I played for a long time.

I met a cow. Moo.

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Mommy and me went shopping. Everyone is always happy. They all thanks Maris.

We buyed a lot of vegetables! I said no bell pepper, but mommy didn't listen.

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Today, we again went to the market. Maris' festival was coming up soon.

Mommy brought a bunch of things. I asked for toys, but she refused.

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Everyone was happy. Papa said our abun-dance in thanks to Maris. I wonder what abun-dance means. A bun dancing? I asked Remel, but he didn't know too.

Maris' festival was coming up soon.

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The day of Maris' festival was tomorrow. Papa would be going out to see the first rays of sun tomorrow for a happy harvest.

Mom and dad don't plan to sleep tonight, like everyone in the village. I want to stay up too, so I'll play with them.

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I fell asleep.

But Mom's scream woke me up.

I saw Mr. Priest hitting mommy. I was so scared. Mommy kept telling me to run, but I couldn't.

Mommy looked in pain.

Why was Mr. Priest doing that? He tried to push her down, but mommy hit him.

There was a lot of blood. I was so scared. Papa came later.

I was so scared.

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Everyone came to our home. They were all making scary faces.

Many people told my mom she did well. Even dad.

When no one was around, mommy would cry.

I didn't like it.

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Mommy cried again…

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Again today…

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I didn't like it. I saw nightmares of that day…

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Mommy stopped crying…

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Mommy smiles again now. I am happy too.

It hasn't rained in a long time. Maybe to show her that everything is still bright.

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It doesn't rain anymore. The sun is always strong.

Papa looks troubled, but he always smiles when he sees mommy smiling.

Everyone is doing good.

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Many people from the village came to discuss things with papa again. It seemed scary.

But at least mom was doing better.

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We decided to go out, just like old times.

In the flower fields, I made a drawing.

There were no bees, and no pink or blue or yellow flowers. But it was still pretty.

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Remel said his cows died.

It doesn't rain anymore.

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Many people came to the house again. There was a lot of shouting.

I was scared, but Mommy held me tight. It was going to be okay.

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Remel stopped playing with me. He doesn't come over anymore.

We went to the market, but no one was happy. Everyone was frowning and sad.

Many grannies and grandpas weren't around in the shops. It was a little lonely.

We see saw the lake too.

There used to be a lot of fishes.

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I went to Remel's house, but he pushed me away. He was very thin now.

When I asked him if he was eating, he said its all because of my mom. I don't what happened.

I was sad. I wanted to play again.

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Papa was very troubled. Many people came again.

They said Mr. Accountant's baby died.

They broke many vases and tables before they left. I hid in the corner with Mommy.

I was scared. Maybe it should rain.

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Papa and mommy started sleeping with me. They always hold me tight, it's hard to sleep, but I like it.

Nowadays, papa doesn't go out.

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There are a lot of screams from the window.

I don't what they are saying, but I stay with mommy and papa anyway.

I am scared.

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Their screams were louder every night.

It was getting scarier and scarier.

Mommy cried again and told me it'll be okay. She was so hurt.

I didn't like it.

They said it is our fault. Our fault.

I don't know.

Maris abandoned us?

I wanted the screams to stop.

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They came inside the house.

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Papa's gone.

He won't come back. Mommy said he won't come back.

There was always blood on her head.

I don't like this dark place, but it is under the church where Maris was. There's no statue, but Maris will protect us.

Mommy's hurt. I am scared.

I want papa back.

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The place is still dark.

We hear bugs moving, which makes mom scared. She always holds me in fear.

I am scared.

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There's nothing to eat. Mommy's bleeding has gotten worse. It's scary. So scary.

She's always heated and tired.

I am hungry too.

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Mommy is having a hard time standing. She looks as if she'll burn up.

There's nothing to eat here. They are still outside.

Papa…

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I am hungry. I don't want to move.

I am scared.

Mommy still says it'll be okay.

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Mommy says it'll be okay.

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It'll be okay.

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Okay…

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M-mmy…

D-snt

Say anything…

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I am so hungry. So scared.

Mommy still doesn't say anything.

She's scary too.

I hate her. I hate mommy.

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Mommy stinks. Why doesn't she talk anymore? Why? Why?

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They came inside again.

They found us.

I hid, but they took mommy away.

They took her away.

Give me my mommy back.

Please.

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I want mommy back…

I am so scared. I am so thirsty.

If only it rained.

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If only it rained.

If only it rained.

If only it rained.

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If only it rained….

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The sound of a book closing shut spread through a hut.

A hand fell on a young boy's head.

"My head hurts..."