Chapter 168 31.X Interlude: Guiding Thoughts

Closing the door behind her, Guidance felt her cheeks blush further as her hand hovered over her still warm stomach. Even now, she could still feel Moriya's seed inside her, hopefully doing nothing but giving her some sense of satisfaction as she sighed. There was no going back from this. That much, she was sure.

"Moriya..."

Pocketing her key, she lazily walked towards the bed and crashed face-first into the sheets. She didn't have it in her to move as much anymore, as was her initial goal when she somehow decided that it was a good idea to lose her virginity to someone she just meant barely a week ago.

"What the hell was I thinking..."

It had been such a random decision. She knew now that what she did was far from her usual sensibilities, but clearly, her past self had other ideas.

Clearly, she was just as perverted as the guys she once denied all those years ago.

"Ugh... I should sleep..."

Turning against her covers, Guidance sighed as she closed her eyes, willing herself into oblivion as she stewed on her body's own tiredness. Of course, a part of her reminded her that almost over half of her current exhaustion came from her having popped her own cherry, but she ignored it in favor of actually trying to be productive. Namely, to actually get some sleep.

And yet even still, her mind whirred. Why? Why exactly did she choose Moriya of all people when she could've easily gone with Shade or Shizu? Did she really have to give herself away to the one person that actually had a chance to come back with her if they miraculously got the chance to go back to the old world? What would their relationship be then? Would they simply be friends with benefits? Would they even be friends at all?

Guidance tossed in her sheets, her brows furrowing as she tightly kept her eyes shut. There was no way that she wouldn't get some sleep after what she just did. It was the very reason she even suggested it in the first place. It was a ritual to her of sorts, to rub one off in an effort to burn off extra energy and give her more leeway to sleep.

She was going to sleep, dammit... Never mind the tingling sensation emanating from her lower abdomen. Never mind the possibility of her being pregnant with a baby in a world that could easily kill them at a moment's notice. It all didn't matter right now. What's important was that she got some sleep for the day ahead...

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"Good morning, Guidance."

"Good morning."

Forcing herself to nod, the dev, unfortunately, didn't get a wink of sleep. How could she, when all she could think about were the possibilities of her and Moriya having a kid growing in her uterus? Of her and Moriya having an actual relationship that went beyond her using him as some kind of stress relief like a perverted degenerate? Sure, he was a looker, but she had turned down more handsome people back in her heyday. She could've always just done it by herself, but her traitorous thoughts and hormones deemed it fit to have her give herself away to the man.

And look where that ended up with...

"Guidance?"

She almost flinched upon hearing his voice. They were currently on the bridge, and the others weren't up yet even as she leaned closer to the console. Moriya was fiddling with the [Rig]'s controls at the moment, and she couldn't help but blush every time she looked at him. How couldn't she, when all she saw were flashes of them doing the deed and her body feeling tingly all over like an actual school girl?

"I-I'm fine," she managed to stammer out. "Just... sleep-deprived, I guess..."

That was part of it, at least. She didn't lie. She just left out the fact that her thoughts kept going back to how good she felt under his touch whenever she looked at him.

"What're you doing here then?" he chuckled. "You can get a few more hours of sleep, I think. We're not going anywhere until we're all in agreement on our destination anyway."

The dev weakly smiled. As much as she wanted to do so, she was pretty sure that she wouldn't get any sleep in anyway. It'd be the same as their first night outside the capital with her staying awake with him. Her view of him had changed, of course, but she was at least adult enough to maybe try and act normal despite the swirling emotions brewing inside her chest.

Guidance took in a deep breath before she sighed, "Won't be able to sleep anyway. If anything, I can at least be productive here."

"Huh, and what're you going to do?" Moriya asked. "We're not exactly in the same position as back when we're being chased. And all the kiosks are gone."

She raised an eyebrow as she scoffed at the man who took her virginity. "If you look around you, they're still around us. They just switched positions and everything."

To her surprise, Moriya turned to face her, his eyes boring deep into hers as she stood in wait. Despite everything, her knees wobbled ever so slightly, her nonchalance wavering in the face of the man who took her over the edge. She really hoped that her awkward feelings would go away, if only to at least preserve the status quo.

Not that it would stay that way if she ever got pregnant...

"Guidance?"

She yelped. "Y-Yes?!"

"You're blushing..." Moriya frowned, his look of worry somehow making her heart jump in her chest. He then sighed as he spoke, "Look, if you feel awkward about last night, I'm pretty good at forgetting stuff and pretending that everything's fine."

What?

"So, what's wrong?"

Guidance blinked, a hint of anger growing within her as she pouted, "Never mind then."

Rolling her eyes, she turned around and walked away, ignoring Moriya's calls as she went back to her room. If he wanted them to forget what happened, then she'll let him.

Either way, she could always make sure that he wouldn't want to do so next time.

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