Chapter 63: You Told Me You Loved Me

Chapter 63: You Told Me You Loved Me

There was a specific kitchen that prepared all the food for hired workers, imperial knights, and volunteers from Universit. It wasnt far from Toris tent, and when Nanny Rey was with her, she would prepare Toris food there. Until Nanny Rey returned, the cooks at the staff kitchen, who were villagers Tori hired, would also prepare their food.

The food was placed in a wooden heating box with carnelian plates to keep them warm, and two men carried it down to the ferry dock to put on a boat. Tori climbed in for her usual trip to have lunch with her brother and Ewan on the island. Only this time, Lady Idunn joined her.

Its very cluttered on the island. We sit where there are seats, and the table we use isnt very large, Tori told her.

It is understandable with all the construction going on. I dont mind, Lady Idunn told her with a smile. Tori nodded and tried to think of something to bring up that wasnt related to her brother. All the questions she already had about finding a favorable place to farm further upriver had already been asked, and Tori didnt know enough about agriculture to hold a conversation.

Great...awkward silence. Tori turned her head out towards the water, occasionally pointing out the scenery. You havent really been around the lagoon yet. If you have some time, you should take the chance. Its very beautiful.

I will consider that, Lady Tori.

The womans answers were short. Her mind was clearly elsewhere. Lady Idunns eyes were fixed out onto the horizon, towards the very edge of the island cluster where Anahata Island was located.

Tori drew her lips inward and sighed to herself. When she had lunch with Lady Idunn in Kings Harbor, she got the feeling that Lady Idunn wanted to see her brother. That was why she told her that Sebastian would be present. There had been a subtle change in her cool demeanor. Suddenly, Lady Idunn had spoken as if it were a certainty that she was coming that summer.

However, all her hope seemed to be for naught. The most Sebastian said to Lady Idunn had been thank you for coming to help my sister. He then used the excuse of assisting with the crystal pillars and Ewans training to keep himself busy. Despite his clear avoidance of her, Lady Idunns eyes always remained on Sebastians figure whenever she caught sight of him.

Tori didnt think shed witnessed this much pining in her life. It had been years since they broke up, but Lady Idunn looked at Sebastian as if she were still a schoolgirl in love. In a way, it was very sweet. In another...the forty-year-old in Tori cringed and thought no one could be worth that much longing.

Not to look down on her brother: Sebastian was indeed good-looking, rich, and, to those he cared about, had a warm and affectionate personality. However, it had been so long.

When they reached the island, she saw Sebastian rushing towards the dock with Ewan to pick up the food. He nearly skidded to a stop at the start of the dock when he saw Lady Idunn. His pale, green eyes were wide, and he almost seemed in disbelief.

When he looked towards her, silently asking what Lady Idunn was doing there as she had never come before, Tori averted her eyes.

Ewan! Help with the food! she called out and gave her friend a wave, along with a slight laugh.

What did they make today?

Fried fish with a sort of sauce. I dont know whats in it, but it smells good, Tori said as the two men on the boat loaded the food carrier box onto the dock. Tori carried a bag of wooden plates and utensils slung around her body. She turned around and smiled at Lady Idunn. Please follow me! We'll eat lunch under the tarp. Its much cooler than out here.

Lady Idunns eyes were fixed on Sebastian and held his gaze. Neither seemed to move. She only tore them away when Tori called out to her. Sebastian also seemed to snap out of his dumbfounded shock and shook his head. He furrowed his brows and walked towards Ewan to help him carry the food up the hill.

Instructor Ignatius had cleared one of the tables for them to eat on, and, as soon as they arrived, Tori began to take out the tableware. Ewan opened the box and took out a large loaf of fresh bread.

I apologize for the mess, Instructor Ignatius said, sheepish. I think Im close to a breakthrough with the cooling unit, so I didnt want to move anything on the other table.

Its fine, Instructor! Tori assured him.

Lady Idunn looked around and nodded slightly. I see youre managing the stress of this much better than when you were younger. When something doesnt work, you take a break and then press on instead of collapsing into a heap and crying. Thats very good, Benedict.

Instructor Ignatius let out a pained moan, as if hed been struck in the gut. For his sake, Tori pretended she didnt hear them and focused on sorting the utensils.

Seb. Lady Idunn spoke. Tori looked over her shoulder, towards her.

Lady Idunn. Sebastians reply was curt, and he didnt look at her as he walked past.

Seb, wait-

I cant talk. I need to go call Master to eat. Sebastian rushed before quickening his pace. He left Lady Idunn standing awkwardly just outside the tent.

Ewan looked over at Tori and lowered his voice. Is something wrong?

Who knows, Tori whispered back as she dug out a serrated knife and removed it from its sheath. Adults. Ewan knit his brows together and tilted his head, but shrugged it off. As Tori cut the bread, Master Ramos arrived, rubbing his hands together as he sniffed the air.

I smell something fried, he said.

Where did Sebby go? Tori asked as she looked past him.

He said he wanted to check on some calculations and will be up shortly, Master Ramos said as Ewan handed him a plate. Thank you, my boy.

Tori turned to hand Lady Idunn a plate, only to find that she was gone. Narrowing her eyes, she scanned the area from the hillside and could see the tall blonde woman cautiously approaching Sebastian, who had his back to them.

Tori winced and let out a small hiss. She put the plate down and went after them. As she neared, she could hear their voices over the sound of the water.

Youre avoiding me again.

Im not. There is a large amount of work Im trying to finish before I leave. My time here is limited, Sebastian said. Tori crinkled her eyes; he sounded so cold and defensive. It was very unlike the brother she knew.

Can we talk?

About what?

Tori stopped several paces away. Neither her brother nor Lady Idunn, who was just a little taller than him now that Tori saw them that close, seemed to notice her standing there. She felt a tap on her shoulder and Ewan handed her a small bowl of fried cheese balls. Her eyes lit up and smiled while giving him an approving nod. She began to eat them as Ewan ate from his own bowl next to her, watching the two below.

About us, Lady Idunn said. Please, Seb. I just want a moment of your time.

Sebastian let out a low breath. He slammed his hand on the tabletop and whirled around with a scowl. I told you, theres no reason- He snapped his mouth shut.

Tori stopped chewing a cheese ball as her brothers eyes fell on her. Shit. Caught. Her eyes flickered around before she elbowed Ewan and pointed in a random direction. Did you see that bird? What amazing plumage.

Lady Idunn also turned around and saw the two of them there, not so subtly listening.

Sebastians hands clenched at his sides, and he turned back to Lady Idunn. If you want to talk, we can talk later.

When? She seemed to jump at his opening. After lunch?

Tori glanced over, trying not to be obvious. Her brother gritted his teeth and glanced at her.

In the evening, after dinner. I will call for you.

He then swept past Lady Idunn, not giving her another look. You two, he said as he clamped his hands on Tori and Ewans shoulders. What do you think youre doing?

Bird watching, the two answered at the same time. Sebastian rolled his eyes and pulled them up the hill.

He didnt say another word to Lady Idunn the rest of lunch, nor did Lady Idunn say anything more to him. After lunch, Ewan carried the empty carrier box down to the boat as Tori walked alongside her brother.

Sebby, she has come all this way and is helping me with a problem thats been concerning me for some time, Tori said. Cant you try to get along with her?

When did you see us not getting along? Sebastian asked in a cool voice. Tori pursed her lips.

You know what I mean. Shes giving her time and insight. Im very grateful. Im not asking you to be friends. Im only asking that you dont be so cold to her and straighten this out.

Your working relationship with her has nothing to do with me, but if youre worried that my presence will cause problems, I promise you, they wont. She will remain professional. A cold look appeared on his face. Shes good at putting distance between people.

Tori took a deep breath. I asked her what she was currently working on when we were in Kings Harbor, as I didnt want to ask her to come and survey the delta if she already had an obligation elsewhere. Since she works for her familys march, researching growing plants in difficult to farm regions, shes busy and has numerous projects shes involved in. The march assigns them to her. The only time shed taken on a project on her own volition was Kaseys greenhouse project.

Its because it was so challenging, Sebastian said. She likes challenges.

She also came of her own volition to take a look at my project, on the delta.

Another challenge.

What else do Kasey and I have in common? Tori asked as they neared the dock. Her brother narrowed his eyes as he looked ahead of them.

You both look like Papa.

Toris lips pulled downwards and she had to restrain her voice. You. She stopped before they could set foot on the dock and met her brothers eyes knowingly. Kasen and I have you in common. Have you ever thought that the reason she went out of her way to help Kasen then, and now me, is because of you?

Usually, her brother was much more observant than this. Then again, perhaps he was in denial. It was clear he still had feelings for Lady Idunn. Tori didnt bother to watch his reaction as she chatted with Ewan about his training before getting into the boat, where Lady Idunn was already waiting.

Tori did her best not to bring up her brother with Lady Idunn the rest of the afternoon. Instead, she put all her focus on the land they were surveying.

They took two boats upriver for an hour. There were five Universit students who were assisting at the request of Lady Idunns colleague, and they were given the task of taking soil samples and noting environmental differences along stretches of land coming in from the river. Another student and Margo were noting the native plant species.

Tori, who had no background in agriculture, could only linger by the shore with maps and take notes on what could be needed as far as infrastructure. Planning was her strong point, though it wasnt always easy.

You had one month to play. Its time you come home. Antonias voice was just as firm as her husbands.

Sebastian let out a breath and looked back at Tori. Then, who is going to watch Tori?

Axton is back, she said, loud enough for her parents to hear. Piers assigned him to me while Im in the delta. Hes outside with Ewan right now.

Tori! Sebastian looked betrayed.

Your sister will be fine. Gregorio sounded annoyed. There are imperial knights guarding her and youre also leaving eight of our knights as an additional precaution. You have plenty to do here and nothing to do there.

Yes, I do.

Tori let out another snort and muttered under her breath. Yeah, Lady Idunn.

She heard Sebastians sharp breath and glanced towards him. His cheeks reddened, but he looked at her, horrified.

Tori lifted her smug face and whispered. Im not an idiot. You havent spent the night here in days. You and Lady Idunn must really like farming....

Her brothers face flushed and he looked as if he didnt know where his precious little sister learned such a crude thing.

Sebastian? Sebastian, are you listening? Gregorios booming voice filled the tent. You will come home immediately!

Sebastian clenched his jaw and closed his eyes. Fine.

The carriage will arrive tomorrow, along with more knights. They will verify who will stay and who will go, Antonia told him.

I know the procedure.

Sebastian Victor Pedro de Guevera, if you are not on the carriage when it returns here, I will make you organize the fall and spring festivals!

Im coming back! Sebastian grimaced at the thought. Ill be there in a few days.

Good. Tori. Their fathers voice softened as soon as they addressed her. Make sure your brother gets in the carriage.

I will, Papa!

I love you, my daughter. Continue your efforts.

We are very proud of you, Tori. I hope to see you soon, too! their mother said just before the comcry dimmed.

Sebastian fell back on his cot and stared at the comcry in his hand.

I told you they wouldnt let you stay longer, Tori told him, pointedly.

You couldve argued for me to stay.

Tori shook her head. Thats not fair to Mama, Papa, or Kasey.

I thought I was your favorite brother.

Kasey is my favorite brother.

Sebastian put on a look of mock disgust. He stood up and crossed the room to ruffle her hair. Then, I guess you dont need me here. Im going to go check on Axton. The General wants me to assess his ability.

Tori nodded and returned to her map. The General is very strict with Axton.

Sebastian paused by the entrance of the tent and picked up a wooden training sword and a bag that had some padded jackets, gloves, and a helmet.

Axton is the son of the woman he loves. He treats and teaches him as if Axton were his own son. Sebastian left her to her work, but she only managed to draw two more lines across the paper when Johan came in.

My lady, Ive brought the applications for additional laborers, he said as he approached her desk.

Tori looked up as she began to put away her map. They had strict guidelines on who to hire, and people had to submit applications at Daybreak Garden. If they were lucky, a prospective new hire might know someone already working for them who could apply on their behalf. They were often given priority if they were recommended.

When all the applications were in, Johan was in charge of sorting through them based on ability and what was needed at the time.

How many are left? They were only planning to hire two dozen additional people.

Fifty, my lady. Tori took a small pile of paper from him and began to sort through them. She only got to the second sheet when she stopped. She narrowed her eyes and pulled the application from the stack.

Why did you select him? Tori asked as she tapped the paper with her index finger and looked at Johan.

He looked down at the name and nodded, recognizing it. Thomas Fields is the younger brother of Derek Fields of Chetterswickshire, who is currently assigned to load and unload wooden piles from supply boats, Johan told her. His brother is young and isnt suitable for a fine-skilled occupation. Mr. Fields specifically asked for his brother to be considered.

Tori shook her head. Rejected. Johan jerked his head back, his eyes wide with surprise. Thomas Fields from Chetterswickshire has a hand injury that makes it difficult for him to grab objects.

Johan frowned. I was not told of his disability. I will speak to Mr. Fields about this. He paused and looked at Tori curiously. How did you know, my lady?

Thomas Fields has a criminal record. Several months ago, he broke into and vandalized a store in Horizon. Hes been banned from the city for two years and his injury is the result of being physically apprehended at the time. Tori began to look through the other applications. The store he broke into was Lions Gate East.

Tori, Ilyana, and Henriks store and company were well-known in the village. Johan understood at once. He lowered his head. My apologies, my lady. I understand. I will vet the applicants better this time.

Tori gave him a nod and dismissed him so she could focus. Her eyes wandered back to Toms application. It was his name, location of his residency, age, and work ability and history. The jeweler he apprenticed at for a time in Horizon wasnt listed; anything after that day was just a series of temporary labor jobs around Anlar.

He was in a pitiful position, but Tori had no guilt for not hiring him. Aside from their history and him being a possible threat to her project, he didnt fit the requirements of the job as he would be unable to do it. Still, she couldnt help but feel a bit hypocritical for rejecting his application when she tried to talk Henrik into dropping the incurred costs by reminding him of how difficult it would be for Tom to find a job with his disability.

She had a chance to hire him, and she didnt. But no matter how much she pitied him, there was no way she was going to hire him in the delta.

How could you not bring a helmet if youre going to train Ewan? Sebastians frustrated voice came from outside and a moment later, the tent flap opened again, and he, and Axton entered. Tori, do you have any more spare helmets?

In that chest, Tori said, pointing to the large chest in the corner where she put various supplies. Axton went to get one and Sebastian approached her desk.

What happened to your dungeon crawl map?

I have work, she said. We are hiring more general laborers and I try to be careful with who we hire, so Im sorting through these applications.

Sebastian peered over the desk. Whats wrong with this one? he asked, looking at the lone application that was pulled from the stack.

Thats the kid who broke into my store and vandalized it.

Her brothers brows shot up and Axton walked over with an uncertain expression. Youre not going to hire him, are you?

No. Of course not. Tori sat up straight. But I do feel bad for him. Its difficult to find a labor job when one of your hands cant grasp things. She looked at both her brother and Axton and tilted her head. Soldiers get injured; has there been a case where they cant use one of their hands? What can they do?

Sebastian thought for a moment. If they were severely injured while on duty, to the point where they cant work in their original post, theyre re-allocated elsewhere in the military. That is, provided they are physically able to work that position. They are also allowed an honorable discharge to return home if they choose. If their injury results in a disability, where they are unable to serve in any capacity required, they will be honorably discharged.

Axton nodded. Dont the marches have programs to assist them?

We have a pension based on their duration of service and position once discharged. If they have a disability that makes it difficult for them to find work, their march will assist them, Sebastian said. In Sur, we do job placement and apprenticeships with regional craftsmen, if they are able to work in a particular field. This also helps ensure that there is additional skilled labor in the march. When people are working, they are paid. When they are paid, they pay taxes, which we use in the march. Its a cycle.

Its the same in Osten. One of my old drill instructors was injured in a battle, and hes no longer able to fight or ride. The von Schwert March assisted him in a new profession; hes now a baker at one of the garrisons, Axton told her.

Its a case-by-case basis, as each situation is different. You can imagine how much work there is to deal with this, Sebastian said. He looked at Tori with squinted eyes and cocked his head to the side. Do you want to give this kid a job? After what he did?

Axton shook his head. Tori is too nice; Henrik complained that she let the kid off easy.

And I stand by my decision. I dont think making it worse for him will make it better for me. Hes young and made a stupid decision that really only hurt himself. Whats the point of me trying to make his life worse?

So, youre going to try to help him? Axton asked with a raised brow, as if the very idea was crazy.

I just think that throwing him an opportunity isnt so bad, Tori said. She paused and frowned. As long as that opportunity isnt here.

Sebastian crossed his arms over his chest. You want him to work somewhere else, so he cant bother you.

Tori jutted her lip forward and gave a thoughtful nod. She shrugged her shoulders. Its also good to know where he is at all times, in case he still hates me and wants revenge.

Sebastian let out a low breath. He can pick up things with his other hand, right? Tori nodded. We have a print shop in Presidio. If he goes there, he can work typesetting and we can watch him.

Done.