Chapter 129

After a long journey, they returned to Arkas. The experience and loss that can not be described in detail, they become blood, become flesh, and become a light that illuminates a new way. But it doesn’t always fall in the right direction.

The huge “light” produces the same intense “darkness”. Conflicting things can not coexist. Get something and lose something. Throw something out to get something. It was understood. Though he knew, the man kept turning his eyes.

“… First thing to do?”

After deciding to step in for the slightly bright ‘light’, things that can not coexist need to be discarded. There is only one who walks the head and who guides the man, and everyone must be pulled to his back without exception.

In other words, isolation and love can not coexist.

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Time goes back a bit, after leaving the tomb of ‘She’-

“Aren’t you a good person in the country?”

Sister who put on the clothes which should not be worn down in the same way and beat down the smoke was walking in front of William with a sloppy smoke. I spit out a strange question about what I thought, but the intention is unclear. Back street, nobody needs to lie, William opens his mouth.

“… There is a fiancee. It’s not as good as you can show to people.”

“Huh. Insane?”

“The face is good. If you don’t open your mouth, you will be beautiful.”

“What is Ehime?”

“It’s like it’s alive. It’s only a deal. It’s a fool.”

“… Hm. I see.”

Sister who put a hand on the forehead and smiles as he just went out.

“How about a test that is popular in Gallias? Killing time”

“It’s sudden. Well, while it’s on the street.”

“I think of my favorite woman. In this case it’s a character.”

“……HM”

William thinks fluffy. At first, it was the remnant of a vague sister, but gradually she changed shape and a woman doing sewing next to her and reading came out-

(Oh, indeed, the sense of distance with her is the best-)

Dawn. And the illusion that blows away the landscape and fills up with smiles and smiles-

(…… Is it a nightmare?)

It is a face that does not have the tightness to grow, smile and smile.

“Let’s see next. The same question, this time look. Well, what comes to mind?”

William takes his mind and imagines. This question is easy. My sister, I would like to say, but if you look only in the appearance, the answer is one, I think that the princess of the sun, I think that the sister will also be a candidate if it is a counterpart with her, but if you ask William’s personal preference After all my sister-

Dodon. A smiling flower that starts to grow again. The dumb surface of a noble family’s daughter wanting to scream, don’t laugh at her teeth. William hesitates to educate.

“Are you the same person?”

“That!”

Bouncy William. Chew on the horrors of the Galias psychological test. Just ask a question and you can read what the other person is thinking-what a horrible technology?

“You don’t say so much about bad people?”

“… there are a lot of things to think about. The only difference is whether you say it or not.”

“The two of them are much different than you think, because it’s a shame that psychological tests are being carried out in Galias, by the way, because it was a virgin when I was a virgin … Oh? A year ago? Only sake and pipe memories-

“… what do you want to say after all?”

“If you see the same person in the same question, I will tell you that it’s too sloppy, so be careful. That’s important, that person must be missing you, it’s really important. Because it would be a special person ”

William stopped. I wanted to laugh at her story. It’s noisy, so it’s just an impression, but it’s not true, but I’m just saying it’s not that I open my mouth, but I can’t speak well in a dry cavity.

“Everywhere, stop, weird, face-”

Sister Anne dropped her pipe. The expression that a man in front of you floats. Because it was too painful and awful.

“Don’t worry, no problem”

The expression of the man who said that there was no problem remains unchanged-

“Any human being has the right to be happy. Slaves and kings are the same. Don’t get me wrong. You’re going to make sure that you’ve got through, exceptions and compromises will come out. If you don’t, you’re not human.

“Thank you Sister. All right. I will be happy.”

Blocking her words, William offered words of thanks. As if cutting off, he is sticking an iron smile. I do not receive any words. I have not received any passion. A mask of absolute zero that stops even the light.

The eye speaks. Then let’s stop the human being.

Such a little memory without other love. One page.

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William leaves the children to Yulian once, and he goes home. My house that has been away for nearly a month if I include the number of days moved. He was wearing a hawk if it must be that the family members of Bernbach must love it anyway.

“I came home”

Lightly hit the door knocker three times. The moment the third time it rang, the door opened and the woman who looked through the gap was a woman who made her eyes twinkled. William turned away immediately.

“Welcome back, William”

The appearance of an eyebrow will be attractive to all eyes.

Victoria von Bernbach appeared behind the scenes. William briefly leaks the words “I’m back now”. Victoria is not good for cold reactions. We look at William without shaking her smile and smile.

“I have Victoria homemade rice. It’s ready.”

Victoria said while removing the cloak etc. carefully. Somehow Victoria had gloves in his hand, but William doesn’t care.

“… food can not be wasted”

Victoria took the reaction of eating it and rushed to get ready. William just waits slowly in the living room. There is no reason to have freshly cooked rice as long as we have not announced William’s return home. In a word, it will start making at a frantic speed from now.

Especially because there is no rush for him, William decided to accompany this tea ceremony. Well Victoria wants to show off his food, William wants to read a book in his spare time. At first thought is in agreement.

Besides, I have something I would like to talk about. It’s a bit complicated. In some cases it may also be left home again. If so, it is still thankful-

“Are you going to read this book anyway? I didn’t get enough time for reading in Gallias.”

You can carry the pile of books you bought in Galias, take it in your hand and bury it in the world of books.

It was a time of bliss for a while.

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It was about 30 minutes after the food was delivered. While Vittoria sweated his forehead, he was acting as if he had delivered something he had made ahead of time. Where the tension is so childish, as William-

“… Do you not remove it when you eat?”

William recites the gloves that Victoria is wearing. Victoria was supposed to ride with a single point “Because it was fashionable”.

To be honest, William had solved the situation when he entered this room. Things that should not be in this room are everywhere. One or two bottles may be spilled from the clothes, but this number is a little painful for chance. Above all, Victoria is not the kind of person who breaks out in daily chores. It is a surprisingly serious personality.

(A lint that has been cleaned and left behind. A cloth is caught and popped out of the outer storage space that I do not need to open. It may be a shame. And an unnatural glove.)

Demonstrate useless reasoning power. An unnatural smile above all else makes me immediately aware. William can not hide its surprise. The moment I met, I saw my face and found that I had a secret. That-

“Victoria”

When William speaks, Victoria raises her face as a stunt. You don’t think you’re going to get caught with gloves, or if it’s a light haunted mouth that usually flies, so it doesn’t matter if it’s a conditional reflection on that. Always a humble mouth from here, and a positive reply from Victoria’s wry smile. I understand. Such a natural-

“Good, this”

Crumble. Victoria opened her eyes wide. William eats silently.

“Hmm … yeah … I see? I have a little confidence, but I went to the sky”

The smile for the compliment is really bright and the eyes burn with that brightness. The mind is eroded. To the light-

In the eyes of Victoria, who was smiling all the way through the meal, William finished everything completely and finished eating. William who sees Victoria trying to get rid of it.

“There is a story. It’s an important story. Do you have time?”

Viktoria’s smile was frozen in the words. What did you look for in the back look? I can not read anything from my back.

“Well, let me know that I’m free … Good, because I have plenty of time.”

“Thank you Victoria”

Each other does not know each other’s expression. Two people face each other. Not turning around, Victoria went to clean up. William spreads the book. The face is-

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William and Victoria were facing each other. They live together, but such situations are rare. William closes the book. Victoria had a stiff shoulder. An act as if you were convicted of something.

“Don’t worry so much. I only have a few things I want to hear.”

Victoria looks at William. I miss you.

“I think that everything in this world has a reason. If you solve it and move along with the theory, you will always get an answer, that’s my way of thinking, that’s my way of life.”

William’s atmosphere was more calm than usual. On the other hand, Viktoria is quite different, quite different, and in some sense equal.

“That’s the one who suffers the most from understanding, Vittoria.”

In his words, Victoria turns his eyes to surprise. Shoulder stiffness disappears.

“Why am I? Why are you here? I don’t give you anything. Have you saved my life at that venue? You should understand that you don’t intend to do that. I’m not an idiot, I can understand if it’s for Bernbach. If so, I’m confident I can love you, yes, what I want to hear is your reason, I can understand. ”

William goes ahead of excuses. It has been quite a while since this living together began. Although I tended to be away, it is the first time that the relationship between individuals has gone into here. The Taylor family was sensible. This woman does not have it. That’s why William also stepped in.

“It’s not love. I don’t seek that love.”

Even so, the understanding I wanted was broken. William’s inner heart is clear.

“Tell me, let’s show each other our belly.”

“Can you show me William?”

A feeling of puzzling. The gaze of Victoria is stabbed. William mumbled inward, “I see.” Just as William is thirsty for what he understands, Victoria is also thirsty for William’s content. The thirst takes another step into William’s chest.

“Oh, I’ll show you. If you show me”

Victoria smiles.

“It’s stupid. I just put it out after all. It’s fine, but I’ll definitely show it.”

William also wiggled. I thought that I was misleading, but it seems that the other party was not a fool.

“The first time I met William was a ball. It was true that I was helped and I thought there was a really cool person, because if you were shown that, it would be great. It was so cool that it was about twice as many girls who were in the ball after that had turned red. ”

Answer too shallow. Well William agrees with such a thing such as the entrance.

“But I was cool at the same time, and I had another deep impression.”

William’s spear bounces lightly.

“Well, it looked so rusty. I was laughing but not smiling, I could not see the bare face under the mask. It was supposed to be bare face, it was like a mask. I felt something that nobody came close to.”

William does not speak words. Just listen only to hearing.

“Every long time, when the mother was gone, everyone in Bernbach lost. Especially the father was awful. There was a big hollow in the heart, and it was going to fill it. “Let’s bring in various people … …-”

William was surprised. They didn’t think that Vittoria knew that, as there were no older sisters like Theresia or Wilhelmina.

“You also had that cavity. It caught my eye, a very huge cavity, much bigger than my father and us, but you were not crazy.”

William was foolish at heart. Who would be crazy if you were not crazy? Because the scale is too different from Vlad, it can not be compared. I have a pride that I am more crazy than anyone else. Otherwise it will not be rewarded. Businesses piled up at the present time.

“Was it felt sorry for me, to Eve”

“Sorry?”

At this point, William finally opened his mouth. The self-indulgence that the white knight William ・ von ・ Livius has a pity and so on, I hate that it was thought so.

“I can’t run away. I think I’m going to be very easy if I go crazy, I can’t understand it back and forth, and that’s how easy it would be for my father. But you are different. I don’t know, but I’m head-on in front of my loss, carrying a lot of stuff, and I’m still pushing forward without running away.

A man standing on top of William’s tower shook. The king looks at his feet. It is a flock of forgotten work, a collection of sins committed by you.

“I think you’re a kind person. No matter how hard you are, you won’t ask for a substitute. Surely you won’t go crazy until the end. I think it’s a very painful thing.”

The way they point is my royal road. But is it your wish? First of all, what is your wish? I lost my sister. It was crazy from there. Want everything, rob everything, and there is now. A bookstore couple who was treated like a real parent, a boy who had a dream from Lusitania, and a girl who came to Arcadia to follow it.

Where is your kindness? Can you say that you are not crazy?

“You don’t know anything about me. How much have I been guilty of this?”

“But you remember all that, right?”

William speaks. How can you forget it? See them at their own feet.

“You’re kind and weak, but you’re trying to be strong. I like it. I met you, talked, lived together, and I love you more. Your way of life is beautiful, I think so.”

The impression you are giving to the other should be the exact opposite. It is ruthless, cruel, thin and sensitive to emotions. There is no kindness, no emotion, and no show.

“It’s easier to forget, it’s easier to fall in love, live comfortably with me, Ernesta and Marianne, give birth to children, do what you love, overflow in love … I can’t forgive myself. If you don’t have a way, I think you’re absolutely sure, but if you’re an ordinary person, that’s the norm? Are you all living up with each other? I want to be the only exception, I want to meet your eyes. ”

Something is filled in William’s chest. I feel that the area that should not be invaded, my thirst will heal. The beating of William is rang like a bell. William does not allow him to enter here. Under this condition, you will collapse.

“I reject you. You weaken me.”

“Yeah, I know. But I will not stop. I will go in if I get rejected.”

“It’s going to be irrevocable. Leave me in front of it. You shouldn’t have a woman like you like me like that. Let’s go for that good Leo Degar. He’s a good young man. Surely make you happy ”

“That will make you unhappy. Follow the unhappy path.”

“I am selfish. There is nothing to do with you.”

“Oh, because I like you. I don’t want to make you unhappy.”

“Why me ?! I divided into sloppy! I-you-”

“I don’t care why. I don’t remember how I liked the mother I liked the most. Do you remember? I would have lost you, like the loved ones It’s a reason.

Victoria who gently strokes William’s cheek. In the warmth of his fingertips, William saw the appearance of his sister. It is a distant fantasy, out of reach, a golden age that should not reach out.

“I don’t know. I can’t remember. What did I like and like my sister?”

Victoria comes home. William did not resist.

Two overlap. Just a moment of jealousy and goodbye.

“I’m sorry. I don’t know it. I don’t know if there is a reason or not. But I like you. I’ve become so fond of you that I love you. Well then, I’m sure I will be swallowed, because I have no intention of your kindness, weakness, or strength. ”

William looked at Victoria’s eyes. Know the weight of your determination in the eyes.

“When I first came down, I was just a little away … but that alone made me very painful, and I said that I wasn’t doing it anymore, I thought so. To me, is this not a reason?”

Viktoria hates. The lonesome smile, and the strongest sage of the name of love that dwells in it, completely penetrated William. Surely, long ago, it would have been stabbed.

“No, I’m sorry. I’m not convinced, but I’m too late. I knew it was too late, but it’s a lot of stupidity, it really depends.”

William broke at last. The intention of iron to protect the ground was broken. Let’s break it. Of the chest to be filled. “William” has never experienced such a feeling of being filled so warmly. The experience had to be traced back to the era of slavery before gaining name, before losing name. The nameless beast finally admits defeat.

“I’m losing, Vittoria von Bernbach. I can’t beat you by any means. I can’t let any words give up you. You’re going to win.”

William picks up his hair. And he looked straight at Viktoria with an expression that turned out to be a mixed expression, with no expression that became joyful, hatred, sadness, despair.

“I seem to like you somehow”

In William’s words, Victoria smiles without being able to speak. More modestly than usual, but the smile was much more natural and exceptionally beautiful than the usual smile.

“I mean I love you, I am not foolish enough to understand?”

“Yeah, I understand, but I understand.”

This time William’s hand stretches. Put your hand on that soft cheek-

“You are stupid. How can I do it?”

Slowly pile up. Slow and warm flow of time.

“This is in my heart. I’m going to give you a fool woman”

I will leave slowly.

“I’m happy. Very, very, very happy”

William looks to the heavens. The moth was thrown at this. The fate has been decided.

“We will not marry. It’s not time yet. And I will not be able to afford you either now. I have to see how much I can climb up in a world accelerating in the past year.”

Victoria says in detail. In the first place, she will not ask for the ceremonial thing of marriage so much. I’m thinking of something completely different from Viktoria von Bernbach. Therefore I learned the essence of the white beast without learning. And he came to love the beast, not the white knight. Is it happy or unhappy-

“I know. Good luck with your work.”

“Oh, you’re too bad at it, do your best in sewing too!”

Victoria quickly covered his hand.

“What do you know?”

Seeing that, William laughs, “Kukku.”

“There is nothing I don’t know.

Victoria wondered if the reaction was insulting. William who sees it and deepens a smile more. After laughing for a while, I coughed away and turned to Vittoria.

“I’ll leave the house for about a day or two. I need to face the company and the royal palace. There will be problems that both sides have piled up in various ways. I will leave my absence until I finish it.”

“Please leave. I am very good at answering machine”

I don’t think I’m good at answering machines, I’m not good at it, but William doesn’t rush into it. If you look at the face you want to squeeze in, you will lose your sense of intruding.

William prepares to go out. Victoria supporting it. It is not strange if it looks like a mere couple if it only looks. The contents will not be known by the rest.

Every so much a whistle was thrown. The fate has been decided. The woman poured love and the man accepted love. However, only one person going out of the path is the end of a lonely road, it exists.

The tower sways. At the top of it, the white king had a glimpse of the world.