Chapter 272

Chapter 272

All I want is for you to be the way you are, so dont do this, Commander. Youve been stressed, right? Youve had a lot on your plate lately, and youve got new members. Im sure youre feeling overwhelmed. Im sorry for not paying attention. But I really like the present you, Commander. Past or present, any version of you is fine.

Van meant it. He liked Cadels sacrificial side, he liked Cadels calculating side, he liked Cadels smiling face, no matter what it was. He liked everything about Cadel, there was nothing he didnt like.

Even so.

Ha. Ah really This is really driving me crazy.

Cadel rubbed his face and hung his head like a man who had lost his mind. He drew in a shaky breath, with an expression on his face that Van couldnt tell whether he was crying or laughing.

That cant be possible. Theres no way the commander you like is who he is.

I know my own heart best.

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Commander, please stop. No matter what you ask, my answer will never change.

Even in his panic, Van conveyed his feelings clearly. Because he was confident. Because his sincerity would never change.

And then, suddenly, Cadel realized.

I should have told him, the first day I transmigrated, no, even after hearing from Kunra. I should have told him.

He had gone too far. He knew where Vans heart was, but he was too eager to turn away. Wouldnt Vans loyalty still be directed to Shin Yeohwan, at least a little bit? He consoled himself with the illusion that he needed to be a man worthy of Van.

It wasnt like that from the beginning. The reason why Van continued to follow him was simply because he saw the will of Cadel Lytos remaining in this body. He was looking at a Cadel Lytos he didnt even recognize, missing, admiring, and loving him.

Even though there was an enemy right in front of him who had no choice but to kill the man he loved. Instead of hating his enemy, Van showered him with affection.

You should take a rest, Commander. Ill go find Sir Jeff.

Van snatched the piece of cloth from Cadels hand and sat him down against the back of a tree. After extracting a promise not to make a move from Cadel, he set off in search of Jeffs trail. Cadel mumbled something in a daze.

I cant do this anymore.

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Fortunately, Jeffs wounds were not deep. He was discovered by an advancing army of monsters and faced a great crisis, but was lucky enough to run away and hide.

Van fired a signal flare to alert the others to their position, then left Jeff in the care of Lumen, who was the first to arrive and went to find Cadel. Cadel followed Van back to the castle without a word. Cadels demeanor was somber as if his earlier agitation had been an illusion.

King Lemyn offered a banquet to honor the Knight Order for their victory over the demon of the swamp, but Cadel refused. The reason was that the members needed rest more than a banquet.

The King was disappointed, but he understood Cadels point, and in lieu of a banquet, he offered the Scarlet Scales Knight Order a place to rest before they moved on to the next sealed area.

Cadel wrote a brief report in his spacious guest room and sent it to the Emperor. If nothing else happened, the next dispatch area would be decided soon. And he already knew where it was.

He refused to eat and instead took a bath. After scrubbing himself clean, he sat on his bed and stared blankly out the window. Cadels eyes became brightly colored following the setting sunset.

He had been staring at the same view for hours, unmoving. Kunra had left to analyze the magic circle, and his subordinates were resting in their own ways. No one disturbed Cadel. There was an occasional knock on the door, but he didnt answer it.

His fixed eyes were vacant, his expression blank and dry. Like a hollowed-out shell, Cadel was frozen in place.

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His head moved when the calming glow of the sunset had completely faded. In the darkened landscape, it was the transparent window that illuminated Cadels face, not the outside. Cadel turned away as if to look away, then slowly rose to his feet.

Ah It was like that. Wasnt it because you were half asleep?

Cadel stared at Vans innocent face and opened his mouth as if he were possessed.

That was the start.

What do you mean by start?

I stole Cadel Lytos body and lived in his place. Thats when it started.

What.

Im not Cadel Lytos, Van. Im another human being transmigrated into this body.

Van frowned slightly. Concerned eyes searched Cadels face, beginning to question his seemingly unaffected state. Cadel watched Vans expression change slightly and spoke without pause.

My name is Shin Yeohwan. I was living in another world and almost died in an accident, but when I woke up, I transmigrated into this body. The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was you. I was able to impersonate Cadel Lytos with the knowledge I gained from my previous life.

What are you talking about? Are you serious?

I possess this body, but I still have the soul of Cadel Lytos inside me, and its influencing my behavior. Perhaps thats why you never suspected I might be someone else.

Commander?

Half and half. My soul and Cadel Lytos soul are mixed half and half, and thats what keeps me in this body. But even if my soul leaves this body or not. Cadel Lytos will die.

Commander, wait a minute. Stop. Why are you doing this?

So no matter what I do, I cant give you back the real Cadel Lytos. But you know, the truth is I had no intention of returning it from the beginning. I was going to keep living in this body.

Cadels voice trembled slightly with each unintelligible word. Vans expression hardened, as did his pale face. He rose to his feet and tried to stop the rambling Cadel, but Cadel didnt stop, instead dropping to his knees on the floor. Vans eyes widened in horror.

Im sorry. Im sorry I lied to you all this time. Im sorry Im a disgusting piece of sh*t. Im sorry, Im sorry.

Why. Commander, please stop.

Im sorry I couldnt hide it until the end. Im sorry I couldnt rot on my own.

Get up, please. Please, Commander, stop.

Van lifted Cadels head off the floor and yanked him to his feet. Ignoring his struggles, Van yanked him off, and Cadel staggered to his feet.

Tears had formed in Cadels cloudy eyes. Van tried to wipe them away, but Cadel shook his head.

Dont you get it? You dont believe me, do you?

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Lets go to the swamp area now. Kunra is there. Kunra will explain everything. You can believe what the Scarlet Dragon says, right?

Cadel.

Lets go. Quickly.

Cadel turned toward the door without bothering to remove his arm from Vans grasp. The corners of Vans eyes trembled slightly at the desperate force pulling him toward it.

We have to go. Please go with me, Van. Okay?

All he could see was the back of Cadels head, but Van could tell he was crying. That was why he couldnt hold on, and he went out the door as if he was being dragged by Cadel.