Chapter 114 That Which Isn't His

"Watch what you say." Nix interrupted her thoughts. "As much as I respect privacy, I hate when one chooses to intentionally deceive me, that's as much as considered a betrayal."

'I've had enough of being betrayed. At the least, I should get those I can rely on or not in the first instance.' His eyes conveyed more emotions than what he was thinking.

Lumina gulped, she knew the one at fault was her, and giving a thought to what he had just said, she knew where he was going with the look he was giving.

"I wish we could go back to when you were fondly my 'pretty face'." He said with a sigh, releasing his hand from his face.

Allowing his head to drop back on the bed, he turned around, his back towards her.

He had been so distracted from his original aim of getting to the academy that it sickened him to the bones he was having a conversation such as the one they were having.

'Stay away from people, you said.' He thought to himself, disappointed that he couldn't get by with what he had promised himself.

"Nix..." She spoke out again, her hand reaching out but hesitant at getting close.

What she had said to Fae was nothing but her insecurities playing a major role in her decision. Scared with his help, she wouldn't feel the real thrill of accomplishment she would if done without being relegated to the background.

'You seem too far out of my reach.' She stifled a cry by biting down on her bottom lip. Dropping to her knees and sitting on the floor.

Nix heard the thud cone from behind him, he could only guess she was on the floor, wallowing in self-despair.

Not regretting what he was about to say, he saw it as a way for him to rid himself of whatever setbacks she might bring to him in the future if this continues to occur.

​ "Until you are ready to tell the complete truth, I would appreciate it if you pretend not to know who I am. We are nothing more than roommates."

He could hear a gasp behind him. Closing his eyes, he exhaled and continued.

"I don't want any setbacks, nor do I want to lose my self-control if it comes to my patience when dealing with you." He explained.

"..."

Lumina looked down at her fingers, uneasy by his request.

Unable to sleep, Nix got up and smoothened out the creases on the bed.

Looking over at Lumina, her hair cascaded down her face. Her plump pink lips were downturned and her eyes swollen with tears.

His heart ached at the sight. He had inadvertently played a part in her current state of being.

He noticed the more he stared at her, the more she was determined to look at the floor. Lowering her head a little while causing her red hair to sway with the occasional wind blowing in.

'Control yourself Nix. Now isn't the time to feel some sort of pity.' He cautioned himself on his next action.

"Lumi–" he paused, cringing on the feel of calling her name. He had been so used to referring to her fondly that using her original name left a bad aftertaste when he had tried to go with that before he continued in his speech.

"Please look at me." He requested softly.

Understanding females was like a level he could never reach if it was his system.

Lumina was hesitant in responding to his request. She didn't find it comfortable to lock eyes with him.

"Please!" Nix intensified his effort to get her attention.

Going by the only way he could think of, he walked towards where she sat, still and unmoving. Kneeling in front of her.

Pulling her chin, he was able to achieve what he had requested in the first instance. "See... It wasn't so hard." He forced a smile to ease her troubled heart.

As much as he wanted to hate her for her initial action, after her outburst and the snippet of information he had gotten from it. He had come to a hard decision to understand that her target wasn't necessarily him but the organization.

They shared a similar motive, although in their little and different ways.

Secrets were something that would come to be a part of their lives. To hide the hurt they had in their hearts they would have to keep their true motives from each other.

There was only one way to get her talking. The only way that he also could use to let out some of the hurt he had in his heart, not just from the experience he had gotten to feel in this world, but in his previous and original world.

"Whatever that's bothering you, I want you to know you aren't at fault." He said, speaking also to himself at that point.

He couldn't quite place it on why he acted the way he did when it came to a family that he barely even knew so well but felt so much attachment to.

A part of him wanted to believe whatever that was going on was simply the feeling of the original host of this body he possessed. Another part felt that it was his lack of parental or family love that made him crave what wasn't his and he had wanted to hold onto that which wasn't his till the very end.

A stray tear trailed down Lumina's cheeks, unable to hide the hurt she had suppressed for a long time.

Pulling him in for a hug, she held onto his back tightly, her face on his chest. "I should have stopped him when I had the chance."

Nix was caught unawares by her action, his hands raised awkwardly, unsure of returning such a hug. Her current words confused the heck out of him.

"Who are you referring to? Your brother?" He questioned, going with the first person that came to mind that could be concerning to what she was saying.