Spring leaves

Spring leaves

Year 118

Mireis condition deteriorated, despite my best efforts to heal her. A part of me feels conflicted about it. If she dies, I get a titan soul. If she doesnt, well, one more hero to fight the demon king.

Im going to die, isnt it? She asked.

Why is she deteriorating? Harris asked. It didnt make sense to him, and it didnt make sense to me either, but somehow, she just deteriorated like a sudden relapse. I spent months looking into her body, and I kept trying to suppress the demon kings curse, but its... weird. Its able to break through whatever my means of suppression and create new curses.

If she deteriorates, you might too. I told Harris. Im trying, but I dont know why it behaves this way.

It hurts... Mirei said, while she sobbed. The pain she felt was intense, and it was throughout her body. She described it like she was being roasted alive.

Some days, Mirei was absolutely delirious and she just kept screaming, shouting, and struggling, as the pain possessed her.

Cant you sedate her or something? Harris said, upset at his screaming, semi-conscious friend.

Uh, really? Do I have permission?

Mirei herself shouted. Yes. Do it! Just knock me out!

Shes a hero. Status effect resistance is the norm for heroes above Level 100. My attempted sleep drug wasnt strong enough to have any effect. Not working, I need to overcome your natural hero resistance.

How?

She screamed. She yelled.

I tried more things. Injected sleeping pills. Didnt work.

I dont get it. Gerrard, who was also around. Why doesnt it work?

Maybe she must want to sleep herself. Harris said. I mean... her body must let Aeons drug do its thing.

Oh, you mean like my alcoholism. Gerrard said. Mirei, try to uh... disable or suppress your hero status. You can do that by thinking about your hero class and then think about turning it off.

Harris glared at Gerrard. You can do that?

Uh, I dont recommend it to everyone. Gerrard shrugged. Mireis screaming was blocked by the panel.

Is that a good idea? I asked. Its entirely possible her hero class is whats helping to delay and suppress the demonic curse.

The two heroes nodded. True. Didnt consider that.

Mirei continued to scream for days, my attempts at suppressing her pain or putting her to sleep not working. But, she really needed sleep, and yet her bodys pain doesnt let her.

This is just cruel. Harris said. I never imagined our heros resistance to status ailments would sabotage us in this way. Its really this cliff-effect, where the heros resistance of status ailments does not prevent a demon kings curse, and yet it prevents all attempts of suppressing the symptoms of the curse.

Its partly your level. I remember being able to put Meela to sleep, but then, she was a lot lower level at that time.

What?

The effects of the heros natural resistance to afflictions is correlated to the level. The higher your level, the stronger your natural resistance.

She cant give away her levels, we need her for the demon king! Harris complained. Gerrard just stared at his fellow hero.

Is her life more important, or the demon king is more important? Gerrard asked.

No. Thats not what I meant.

It sounded quite like what I think you meant.

Nows not the time to argue. Let me see what I can do to put her out of her misery. Get me the strongest painkillers and sleeping potions and items in the world. My own sleeping and pain-suppression abilities are not strong enough, but together with the worlds best items, maybe I can still do something.

The two heroes did so. Mainly Gerrard, since hes free to travel. Harriss condition had to be monitored, his condition may suddenly deteriorate too. They acted quickly, and within days I had all kinds of strange medicines and ointments from all over the world. Such is the power of heroes to mobilise their immense financial resources.

And we attempted to use each and every of those ointments. Apparently, the sleep status, unless internally done, is viewed as a status ailment. Surely, theres a way to trigger sleep, even if her body is in pain?

The body naturally sleeps. Thats a fact, and the hero system doesnt intervene with that. Yet, all these inbound influences that attempt to put her to sleep does not work.

So, logically, if I could somehow fake the system to think that I am natural, wouldnt that work? I am a tree with a nature domain. If I cant do it, who else can?

Days of struggling. Weeks. There are days when the pain somehow becomes more tolerable, when the demonic curse somehow subsides. Perhaps it is the alignment of the stars, but I could totally relate to Mirei's pain. After all, I too went through something quite similar.

If she could somehow gain levels to be Level 150, would heroes gain a domain too? Wouldn't that mean they become even more overpowered if they get their heroic divine blessings, and a domain?

I tried all my healing and sleep skills.

From [suspended animation], to [mystical dreams], to even trying to use [hibernate] on her, but nothing worked.

The heroes tried using their own heroic energy to help suppress the demonic curse, but somehow it just made it worse, so they had to stop. They cursed, and wondered how the demon king managed to create a curse of this strength and persistence.

They left again, and went to look for other kinds of cure. Gerrard, it seemed, tried to go visit other healers and spirits.

> No <

Ah.

How?

I mean, is there a way for a doctor to reach to the soul and just... turn off the [hero] class for a while? Like general anaesthesia or something?

Lilies paused. They replied to me a week later.

> The system has the power. <

Well no shit, the system gave us the power of levels, pretty damn sure it has the power to remove it too.

> Such power is beyond mortals. <

Well thank you for telling me nothing. Ill have to find some other way.

-

Mirei would have days where the pain subsided, and I would do extensive tests. Some days, the demonic curse just... shrinks by itself. Its behavior was erratic and annoying. I didnt understand why a curse didnt behave consistently.

So I wondered whether its outside interference, like... Maybe something is remotely controlling the curse.

Could I form a magical barrier?

Mirei, are you alright?

...no.

What, it didnt work?

Whatever you all did, it worked. Im not in pain anymore. Mirei said. But Im not alright. Not anymore.

What do you mean?

I saw home.

Home?

Earth. Mirei said. I dreamed of earth, but it was so real, so vivid. I was back in school again. Friends. Our family. I could remember all their names and faces again.

Gerrard and Harris looked at each other.

Weve known for a while that the gods suppress our memories of home. But during that long sleep, all I dreamed of...was home.

Aeon, what did you do?

I put you into a dream state, but I have little input on what actually happens other than the type of dreams. I gave you a pleasant one.

Mirei bowed briefly. Thank you, Aeon. I needed that reminder of home. Harris, Gerrard. I want to go home.

The two men didnt know what to say.

I had enough of playing here. Thirty years we lived here. Fought this stupid war of the gods. I want to go home now.

What do they even say to that? How do they even go home? How do I even go home?

Mirei...

Im not going to kill myself, but if Im heavily injured in the next battle, dont save me. Mirei said. I had enough. I want to go home.

Mirei.

Harris, you had your fun. Dont you miss your parents? I saw them in my dreams. They were there. The gods told us if we died, well be back where we started. I had enough, Harris. Its time to wake up from this silly game.

She looked at the two dumbstruck men.

Im going to need some time.

Yes. The two answered and quickly gave her space.

Mirei was alone, and physically she was fine. She sat on a chair inside my [secret hideout], and spoke. Aeon, was that real?

I gave you dreams. But I dont know exactly what is in it.

Can you give me more of those dreams?

I... dont know whether your hero power will interfere with it.

She paused, and then she asked me a question I never expected. Can you take my hero powers away? If I give it to you willingly, is that something you can take away?

The answer was yes, of course. Its entirely possible to give away ones levels and skills. It had happened before so many, many, many years ago. Yes.

I see. She said. Harris probably wants me to fight with him the next time. But Im tired of this artificial life. I miss my parents. I miss home. I miss being... normal again. I hate this hero thing now.

Things may not be well back home.

It doesnt matter. Mirei sobbed. I didnt realise how sad it is to never dream of my parents, or my siblings all these years. That weve somehow accepted and rolled with this new role of ours as heroes so freaking easily. Its just fucked up. So fucked up, and all I want to do is quit this game.

Its not a game. Well, who knows?

It might well be, with how theyve been toying with our feelings and emotions. Mirei said. The worst thing is I didnt even know until youve disabled my hero class! I never even realised how weird it is for us to just roll with it and forget so many important things about our world!

I didnt say much. I just gave her some tea, and now that shes not in pain, theres no reason to lock her up in here. Her curse still remained, though, and thats something even with the heroes star mana I still cant solve. Maybe, not yet.

She rested for quite a long time, alone. Aeon. I have a favor to ask.

Yes?

When its time for me to die, can you take my levels away?

I cant do that. Levels must be given away freely.

I can give you my levels now? Or can I make it into a magical contract such that you take my levels the moment I die?

Why not give it to Harris, or Gerrard?

...they dont realise it, Aeon. Maybe Gerrard knows, but he is drinking away his worries. Maybe he knows and doesnt want to admit it. Its a kind of suffering to continue this game, knowing that our old life, our real family are all waiting for me over there, on the other side. Giving them levels just prolongs their suffering

Itll help them.

Its a twisted kindness, that heroes die frequently. Imagine never being able to die, and stuck in this world. If you realise that your loved ones are still there...

Hmm, at this point, well, if she wants to give it to me...

Ill give it to you.

But then again, I cant use it. If I remember correctly, levels surrendered are converted to [experience seeds]. It just goes into my growing pool of [experience seeds]. But, Sure.

-

That day, I gained a level. I think it was when I used the heros star mana to crush that black [????] thing.

[You gained a level. Level 156]

[Skill : Natural Mana Overwhelming upgraded]

[Skill : Soul Forge upgraded. Improved control and abilities over soul forge functions]

Im really slow at gaining levels. The last time I gained levels was 5 years ago!

Thats slow, right?

Spaizzer

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