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I felt like I was struck by lightning and my mind was spinning. I knew that the man in Liu Yue's heart must be the Corydalis and she must have fallen in love with him.

That's right, compared to Corydalis, other than youth, other than having the ability to do that, what else can compare to Corydalis? If Liu Yue were to be with him, Liu Yue would receive far more than what I can give him. What could I possibly give her? Other than the constant physical spasms, there was nothing else!

I was speechless with anger and shame, and my fingers were trembling.

I hate Liu Yue to death, and I also hate Qing Er. If it wasn't for Qing Er coming to this place to cause trouble, Liu Yue wouldn't have made up her mind to break off all ties with me this quickly.

Now, because of Qing Er's pestering, everything that I have is over, I have lost Qing Er, I have lost Liu Yue, I have nothing.

I hate these two women, I cannot forgive Qing Er for deliberately ruining my life!

I hate Liu Yue more than I hate Qing Er. In my entire life, I have never hated someone so deeply before.

In this strange provincial city cold night empty streets, my tears, my heartbreak, all hope...

That night, I did not return to the hostel. I wandered the deserted streets for a night, battling with rage and cold.

The next day, with a shattered heart, I went back to the river in a heavy car.

As soon as I got back, I was taken to the hospital by my colleagues. I had acute tonsillitis and a fever of 39 degrees.

I slept in the hospital for two days and also had two days of dreams. When I woke up from my dream, I saw Chen Jing sitting by my bed and the morning glow outside the window.

"Oh god, you're finally awake!" Chen Jing let out a long sigh of relief, "You're so awesome, you have been trapped in death's door for two days and two nights!"

My lips were dry and cracked. When I sat up, I wanted to drink water.

Chen Jing gave me some water to drink. I took a few sips, looked at Chen Jing, and spoke weakly: "Thank you, Chen Jing!"

After saying this, I saw a bunch of flowers blooming on the bedside table, emitting a faint fragrance.

"Who sent it?" I asked Chen Jing.

Chen Jing took a whiff of the fresh flower's fragrance: "Your university classmate, a man and a woman."

"Oh …" "What's your name?" I looked at Chen Jing.

"I don't know the exact names, but the man is called Qing Er the woman and the woman is called Lao San the man. They have been taking care of you in the hospital these past two days and rotated with me. Chen Jing said straightforwardly: You two are really interesting, especially that girl called Qing Er. She was so caring and considerate towards you, that makes me jealous just by looking at her.

I was speechless. I didn't know how they found out about my illness.

I don't want to know, but I don't appreciate your kindness. Recalling what happened two days ago, the grievances towards Qing Er started to surge within my heart.

"They just left for more than an hour, saying that they're going back for a meeting …" Chen Jing continued to speak: "Then Qing Er was still reluctant to part when she left, her eyes were red, and she kept looking back, only to be dragged away by that Old Third … This girl is really something. She's not satisfied with guarding an old third brother, but she's still treating you like that … How can you be like this in front of your boyfriend … "Eating from the bowl, looking at the pot …"

Chen Jing was obviously eating her useless jealousy, as she obviously expressed strong dissatisfaction with Qing Er's attitude and expression towards me.

I gritted my teeth and didn't say anything. I stared blankly at the rising sun outside the window while sadness rose in my heart …

My love, my love, my joy, my dreams, my future, my world … two days ago, in the Xiejing, in the guest house of the Jiangdong Daily News, it was all over.

I don't know how it happened, I don't understand why it happened so quickly, I don't accept that it happened to me, I can't believe it's a bloody reality...

Was Liu Yue and I really finished? Is this true? Had the joy and happiness of the past really become memories? Did those promises and those pieces of dried up rock and sea really scatter with the wind? Did I really lose to the Corydalis just like that? In my heart, I feebly asked myself this question over and over, painfully giving myself an affirmative answer over and over again …

He remembered that last night after he left the Xiejing and remembered the night when I lingered on the cold, bone-chilling street. My heart was filled with incomparable hatred towards Liu Yue, filled with sorrow and pain, and I swore at that time that I would never forgive this heartless and despicable woman who played with my feelings. I must work hard to surpass the man who stole my feelings, and must make them look up to me …

Could it be that he truly loved and hated her to the extreme?

Could it be that even though Liu Yue hurt me so much, she still couldn't wipe away the love I have for her?

At this moment, my heart was filled with extreme sadness and loss. I hated Liu Yue, I no longer hated him, and I cruelly abandoned her to let her experience the pain and torture of losing her loved ones. It was reasonable for her to seek justice from Liu Yue.

Now it was my turn, my turn to be abandoned, my turn to taste the pain and suffering.

I experienced the feeling of Qing Er being abandoned by me at that time.

I feel that this is retribution, retribution that I deserve.

At the same time, my heart surged with endless grievances. The grievances I had towards Liu Yue, the grievances I felt towards Qing Er, one that should not have rashly played my feelings, making me unable to extricate myself from it and then abandoning me, one that should not have disappeared due to love, knowing full well that there was no way to restore other people's happiness.

I let my sorrows and sorrows run wild in my tormented heart...

My heart rose and fell in agony and sorrow. My weak body made me lie down, closed my eyes, turned sideways, and faced the wall. Tears silently rolled down my face.

I felt a little bit like a man who would cry for love, but at that moment, I couldn't help myself.

Maybe Chen Jing sensed my depression, or maybe she thought that my body was weak and had fallen asleep again. She sat on the side of my bed without saying a word, quietly accompanying and protecting me …

After I calmed down again, I turned around and looked at Chen Jing. "You're not going to work?"

"The department doesn't have anything important to do these two days, so I didn't go."

"I'm fine, I'm fine, go to work, don't delay my work," I sat up. "My fever is already gone, and I can usually take injections myself. It's not like I'm so sick, so there's no need to be so aggressive …"

"There's no hurry. I have nothing to do back at the office anyway, so I'll stay here with you. It'll save you the boredom of being by yourself." Chen Jing smiled at me.

"I'd be upset if my minor ailments affected the department's work." I said again.

"I know, I know," Chen Jing said as he took out his handkerchief and handed it over. "Your eyes are filled with dust, rub them until they are red, and wipe them off …"

I thank Chen Jing for her understanding. She is giving me the dignity and face of a man.

I received Chen Jing's handkerchief that carried a nice smell, wiped my eyes, and returned it back to her: "Thank you, thank you so much, thank you for your hard work these past two days …"

Chen Jing held my hand when I gave her the handkerchief and looked at me with her big eyes: "Jiang Feng, I don't need you to thank me. I'm willing to do this for you, I love to do everything for you … I like you, I... "I love you …"

Chen Jing finally said this word, as her eyes burned with passion.

You are a good girl, an outstanding girl. As for me, I am nothing, I am just a country bumpkin, a country bumpkin, a poor brat, trash in front of women, ants in front of nobles, grass in front of high officials … Always, I am a bastard, I do not deserve your love, I do not want your love... So, don't say you love me, don't love me... We will always be colleagues, always be friends … "