Chapter 306
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Chapter 306
"Don't worry about that."
The confident tone in his voice evoked a strange, uneasy premonition.
"If I carry you, there won't be any issues."
The foreboding quickly morphed into reality. Yuder dismissed the suggestion immediately, without a hint of hesitation.
"I don't want to."
"What if I carry you on my back instead?"
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"You make it sound so grave. There's no simpler way to take a walk together. You can't possibly dislike it because I suggested carrying you?"
"What are you saying...?"
Just as he was about to refute the unfounded certainty, he hesitated when he recalled the incidents that had occurred up until then. Starting from the moment Yuder clung onto him when his second gender manifested, until just yesterday when he compliantly allowed himself to be moved for meals, he tried to push these memories from his mind. Recollections of him taking the initiative to hold onto the other party also subtly emerged. It took a bit of time to come up with another reason as he tried to think beyond these.
"Inside and outside...aren't they different?"
"Different? What's different?"
His blood boiled slightly at the calm voice, feigning ignorance despite understanding his meaning. Yuder decided to drop the indirect expressions and speak directly.
"If we behave that way outside, we can't avoid drawing attention. Rumors will inevitably spread. I thought, Commander, you had always taken that into consideration..."
Yuder knew all too well what the consequences would be when such unnecessary rumors spread; he had seen it happen countless times in his previous life. Therefore, in this life, he strived not to let their relationship appear as anything more than that of a normal Commander and his assistant, seen by the public.
He did eventually succumb to the massive urges toward Kishiar, but that didn't mean he wanted to repeat the foolishness of his past. The multitude of emotions he felt for Kishiar and the potential dangers of their current situation were definitely separate issues.
He assumed Kishiar would be well aware of this too. Yet here he was, brazenly suggesting a public stroll while carrying him, fully aware others might see.
'Surely, he hasn't forgotten that we're not in our Cavalry base but in the heart of the Western Mage Union due to his overly joyous mood.'
The Cavalry members might not blink an eye at Kishiar's peculiar nature, as they were already well accustomed to it, but the mages were different. Memories from the past flooded Yuder's mind in an instant.
"Unnecessary rumors, huh... I'm surprised you think that way."
"What's so surprising?"
"I thought my assistant would be the least bothered about my status or name in this world. It's surprising to find out that's not the case."
Yuder was momentarily at a loss for words.
"...If I've seemed disrespectful until now, I apologize... but of course I know who you are, Commander, and I care more than anyone else."
"See? That's exactly the kind of response. If you were genuinely wary of me, you would never be able to answer like that."
There could be no other answer, yet Kishiar's words sounded as if there indeed was an alternative. He pulled Yuder's hand, briefly placing his lips on the fingers he held.
Startled by the heat, akin to being branded with a hot iron, Yuder stiffened. Kishiar looked at him, whispering with a conviction firmer than ever.
"You once said you could forever remain my cherished and adorable assistant and subordinate, if that's what I wished... But are you aware? The prerequisite for that statement."
"If you wish so." A sigh laden with deep longing escaped from the man's lips, uttering these words.
"My heart is already here. It was taken away so irresistibly, I have no method of retrieval - and even if I did, I wouldn't want to. ...But that doesn't mean you should naturally provide the same response."
"..."
"If you are willing to accept me beyond that, the story can change drastically. If I could get that worthwhile answer, no matter how long I have to wait, it wouldn't be in vain."
If you were to sum up his words with ordinary terms, the closest might be a proposal. Kishiar, who had given a clear answer that couldn't be ignored or perceived differently, exhaled a thin breath. The weight of the warmth he offered was familiar. He was certainly recalling the moment when he thought Yuder had died in his arms. Such a certainty sunk in for no apparent reason.
Yuder clenched his invisible eyes shut. As his heart warmed, a tremendous churning stirred in his belly. Despite several deep breaths, the pain did not abate.
When Yuder said nothing, the hand that had been stroking his cheek fell away. Feeling the signs of him letting go of his hand and standing up, Yuder was engulfed in a chill coldness. His body was hot from fever, but for some reason, it felt cold inside. An intense pain and urge that couldn't be explained kept shaking his head.
He bit his lip as he heard the door opening.
"...Tonight."
At that moment, the footsteps halted abruptly. Yuder strained to find his voice.
"When the sun sets, and the moon rises... then, it will be fine."
"..."
"You don't have to come if you're tired..."
"...As if."
The quiet, yet passionate response came back.
"So when the sun sets and the moon rises, it's okay to take a walk with me?"
"...Yes."
"Then I guess I must earnestly wish for the sun to hurry and cross to the west today."
With a bright laughter, the door closed. Yuder remained motionless for quite a while, pondering what response he had blurted out.
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