Chapter 443

She is used to the death of her parents!

She's used to being helpless!

She's used to grievances!

She is used to all the bad luck and disaster!

However, she is worried that Fang Yan is not used to it.

When a person's life is rough and suffering, when a person suffers too much pain and loss, her heart will become hard and her body will become strong. She keeps out the wind and rain for herself, and she welcomes the sun and the stars for herself.

Like the flowers on the cliff, they are more independent than the wild flowers and weeds at the foot of the mountain.

Lu Chaoge is the flower on the cliff, and Fang Yan was the flower in the greenhouse.

Seeing the flowers in the greenhouse, the flowers on the cliff will eventually have some worries and some pity. The wind is so heavy and snowy outside. Can his thin body carry it?

Lu Chaoge knows that Fang Yan is suffering from unimaginable sadness, just as she suffered when she was a child. However, she bite teeth and stubbornly survived. It was a tearing pain, as if to soberly extract an organ from one's own body.

Father, which organ should he correspond to?

I'm afraid you're not used to it!

Hearing Lu Chaoge's answer, Fang Yan was stunned for a moment.

He looked at Lu Chaoge's face full of concern and said softly, "there is a very bad habit in the place where I was born - men there like to talk about such heroic words as valuing love rather than life and death. The public, the private, the big, the small, and the small are willing to pay for their lives. "

"So every year someone leaves. Some people were buried in the strange and dangerous North Sea. They couldn't even pick up the bones. Some people died in the hot Gobi, the body was submerged by quicksand where to stay forever. Some died in battle, some died of illness, others died in pursuit of the self explosion of martial arts - sometimes in the morning of spring, they received the news of the death of a distant family member, sometimes in the evening of summer, they received a call for mourning, sometimes on double ninth day, sometimes on new year's Eve - they can choose the day of birth, who can choose the day of death? "

Fang Yan holds a bowl of fresh fish soup and sips it.

"For such a thing, I thought I had seen it very easily. Even when my mind is hot, I feel that I can do what others can do - "Fang Yan laughed at himself and said," I can't do it. I'm not brave, and I'm a little cowardly. "

"You are not cowardly." Lu Chaoge gently comforted: "you are just too emotional."

Fang Yan shook his head and said, "when I was alive, I didn't have a good talk with him. I had a drink. What's the point of waiting for another long time after I died? Such a way of expression - can't be called emotional? "

"I'm just too guilty. When he was alive, he didn't take a good look at his paintings or appreciate his words. I knew that he was busy with his painting exhibition. I didn't even ask if he was going well or not. He lived in his world and I lived in my world. Although we are a family, I always feel that he doesn't know me and I don't know him. "

"So this time I stayed in yanziwu for three years. I read all his paintings before, and even the paper under the bookcase didn't fall. I have carefully studied every word and poem he wrote, and sorted out all the wrong words. Some words are well written, which proves that he was in a good mood at that time. Some of the words were poorly written. At that time, maybe he was very upset? "

"Then I found a secret. When he writes good-looking words, there must be something that makes him happy that day. For example, I got the title of excellent graduate of the school, for example, my kung fu has made him satisfactory progress - the day when I first felt the heart of Tai Chi, he drew a picture of young people's morning exercise. A young man practised hard in the morning, the red sun in the picture was dyed very red by him, which proved that he must be very excited at that time - "br >

Fang Inflammation can't go on, bow down and drink soup.

Warm and delicious fish soup into the stomach, Fang Yan's depressed mood just a little relaxed.

"There's no habit, just to give up." Fang Yan said with a smile, "I just can't bear him. That's all. "

Lu Chaoge looked at Fang Yan, who was deeply worried in her beautiful eyes, and said, "Fang Yan, why do you want to go to Huacheng?"

"There are so many things to do that we can't wait for them all the time." Fang Yan replied, "besides, those students before me - they are also waiting for me."

"Fang Yan, don't you think it's too risky?" Lu Chaoge didn't believe Fang Yan's explanation and said, "I know you. I know what kind of man you are. You waited for three years in yanziwu, and also waited for three years. You think those people will show up, you think they will do it to you - as a result, they don't show up, just like they disappeared from the world. "

"So, you left yanziwu, Yanjing and came to the most dangerous and weak Flower City - you want to use your life to lead the snake out of the cave? Fang Yan, it's too dangerous. Go back to yanziwu. That's the safest place. They can do anything - "Fang Yan's eyes were filled with frightening red light, and his white eyes were covered with mottled red blood. Looking at Lu Chaoge's voice, he said calmly, "but, conflicts always need to be solved - they killed my father and let me kill their family. You see, it's not too much of a requirement, is it? "

"-"

Fang Yan saw Lu Chaoge's surprised expression and asked, "isn't it very strange? I didn't talk like that before. If there is such a problem, I will use another way of expression - I will tell you that I am a pacifist, and then secretly pit their whole family. That's my style, isn't it? "

Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "really, that's your style - I hope you are the same as before. At that time, although your mouth was vicious, your heart was very kind. I'm willing to think about others. "

"No, I can't." Fang Yan patted his heart and said: "every night, it's like being burned by fire, which makes people sleepless. When will the fire be extinguished, I will be able to become what I used to be. "

"Let's take our time. Don't worry. " Lu Chaoge said. "What are you going to do? Are you going back to be a teacher? "

"Not a teacher." Fang Yan said, "my present attitude is not suitable for being a teacher. I'm afraid I can't control my emotions. "

"Being a teacher is what you are good at. What do you want to do if you don't want to be a teacher? "

"Be a school security guard." Fang Yan said.

"Security?" The fish soup in Lu Chaoge's mouth almost sprayed out. She thought it would be hard for her to control this kind of thing if she didn't want to keep a graceful posture.

At that time, a rising education star in Huacheng's education circle just wanted to be a security guard in school. Is the contrast too strong?

"I used to like educating people, now - I just want to protect people." Fang Yan looked at Lu Chaoge and said in an unprecedented serious tone. "Later I learned that living is the most important thing. I hope that no one I care about will be hurt. "

"It's too tired to do that."

"I'm tired if I don't do it." Fang Yan said. "I didn't do it before, so I'm so tired now."

Lu Chaoge sighed softly and said, "what can I do for you?"

"Help me do Chaoyan well." Fang Yan said. "I will need money later. I need a lot of money. Need resources, all kinds of resources - I need not only the strength of a person, I need the strength of a family. It was only then that I was able to confront the conspirators behind me. Only then can I cut off their dirty hands and pierce their dirty hearts. "

Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "you have been in yanziwu for three years. I haven't visited you for three years - I have devoted all my time and energy to the development of Chaoyan technology. I know there will be such a day. I hope that when you come out, Chaoyan technology will be your strongest support - I think Miss Qin thinks so too. "

After Fang Yixing's funeral, Qin Yitian left immediately.

She became her mother's assistant and one of the decision-makers of the Qin family business.

Her vision has been focused on Chaoyan technology. She uses the resources and contacts of the Qin family to protect the development of Chaoyan.

Without Qin Yitian's support and Qin family's support, Chaoyan technology, which is as fragile as a baby and has infinite potential, would have been torn into pieces and swallowed by ambitious people.

It can be said that without Lu Chaoge standing on the bright side to attract fire, and without Qin Yitian standing behind to display thunder, the two small flames of Chaoyan technology would have been extinguished.

"I owe you too much." Fang Yan said in a deep voice.

He didn't say thank you, because those two words are too weak to express his mood at this moment.

Lu Chaoge smiled silently, began to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, and said, "go to watch TV for a while, and then live here."

"-" Fang Yan has a kind of uneasy feeling of sitting and standing.

He felt that he was in a bad mood and was not suitable to think about things between men and women.

What's more, he and Lu Chaoge still lack some emotional condiments. He doesn't think he's ready - it's not appropriate to sleep together rashly?

Fang Yan is in a dilemma. He doesn't know what kind of reason to refuse Lu Chaoge's invitation without hurting women's pride and self-esteem.

Because he seldom spoke in these three years, he felt that his language ability was seriously degraded.

"I've got the room ready for you." Lu Chaoge walked into the kitchen with a bowl and chopsticks.

"-" Fang Yan knew that he thought too much.

(PS: thanks for the reward from the evil brother of the starry night. The local tyrants are powerful and domineering. Thank you for your reward of 30000 yuan, brother Qingfeng of the ancient moon. Jingwei army is full of gold, iron and horses