Chapter 5688.1

Chuanlinggu's eyebrows and corners of his mouth trembled, as if he had torn open the bloody wound in his heart again, making him want to cry hard.

"Can you imagine? No, you know how I was haggling, which made me feel ashamed and disgusted. However, I have no way, I would like to break a cent into two to spend.

You know what? How do I spend every day? From the moment I woke up, my eyebrows were in the strange eyes of countless people. Or, in those eyes, there were some words like "pauper", "stingy", "mountain people" and "freak". They stuck in my heart like a needle, you know

Chuanlinggu's throat knot rolled up and down a few times, and he took a mouthful of smoke and coughed.

"You don't know how I feel because you haven't tried to feel hungry. You haven't tried because I'm going to college. My family has sold everything. Even my father has died of illness.

Yi Yun, I'm unfilial in Chuanling valley. My father died because of me, because I want to go to school. Ha ha, it's acne. Why should God treat me like this? Why? "

Chuanlinggu is more and more excited, but he still suppresses his voice, which sounds like a wild animal trapped in a cage.

"Why do I work so hard, why do I work so hard, and what I get is still that result? Yi Yun, I'm not here to ask for your forgiveness. I just want to tell you that I'm really poor and scared. I don't want to continue to live a precarious life. I don't want to have family members leave me because of money. I just want to tell you I'm sorry for being late for four years

Chuanlinggu in the edge of the outbreak, with a strong sense to pull back the runaway mood, and become calm again.

After listening, Zhang Yiyun looked back at him. Her eyes were calm. Maybe this is what she had to wait for.

"So you chose to give me up for this? So you'd rather lose your dignity? Would rather go against the heart of the back of the name, be despised by countless people? Chuanlinggu, I look down on you

Zhang Yiyun closed his eyes and said painfully, "at the beginning, I like you because of your aloofness and your positive heart which is not moved by common people.

At that time, many people looked down on you, but at least you looked up to yourself. Now you, even yourself, looked down on you. How can others look up to you?

You know, many people flatter you and respect you on the surface, but in their hearts, they are all ridicule, all of them are belittled. You're a snob in their eyes, you know?

As a man, you have lost your most precious dignity. Do you give up your love and love for the alms of others? I look down on you. "

Chuanlinggu was speechless and didn't know what to say. Zhang Yiyun said, "I look down on you" and stabbed blood and holes.

Once upon a time, Zhang Yiyun was the softest corner in his heart. She would not look down on him. She understood everything about him and gave him great support and affection.

Now, she looks down on herself.

Yes, I did that, even I look down on myself, but I still expect others to see me?

Chuanlinggu took a deep breath: "ha ha, I know that they are some grass that falls with the wind. I know they look down on my past. No, even I look down on my past

Well, we can't go back. I never regret the decision I made. At least now, because of the decision, my family is very well. At least they don't have to huddle in the old Adobe houses for more than 30 years, shivering and night wind pouring back. I don't know until I die.

At least I will no longer because I have no money to buy a cigarette, the things I want to try will be infinitely delayed, at least I do not have to bear the strange eyes of countless people, no longer stinging.

I don't expect you to forgive me. I can't repay this emotional debt. I just hope you have a good life, so that I can feel at ease

Chuanlinggu pinched out his cigarette and threw it into the dustbin.

The two continued to be silent, as if time were still.

"You are indeed a coward. Do you have no confidence in yourself? Can't you succeed without a woman's nepotism? Is the moon in foreign countries more round? Do you feel at ease? "

Zhang Yiyun almost couldn't help her tears, but she could not help it: "where is the chuanlinggu, which was self-confident, strong and hardworking than everyone else? There are so many roads, but you choose the one that makes me look down on you most. "

Through will leave traces, love will leave memories.

Zhang Yiyun had no way to forget or give up completely.

Now in her heart, she even thought of not her own grievances, not the pain and suffering brought by chuanlinggu, but the alternative hatred of iron and steel and his degeneration.

"But I'm not you, I can't lose, because I can't afford to lose, and I can't wait. I can't give up any chance. It's my best principle and the easiest choice to succeed. I have no regrets. "Chuanlinggu smiles bitterly, empty and meaningless.

"In that case, why did you come to me? We don't need to talk about it any more. It's the most unwise choice to tangle with the past. Since you chose Rothman, that's it. I don't bless you or forgive you. I understand you. "

With that, Zhang Yiyun walked away slowly. His back was thin and bleak like the leaves in the autumn wind.

Chuanlinggu opened his mouth and struggled for a few times, as if he wanted to catch something, but he couldn't catch anything.

"Yun Yi, I don't know that you've never had a good boyfriend. Forget me, you must be happy, so that I can feel at ease Chuanlinggu choked.

Zhang Yiyun turned pale.

Yes, just as he understands chuanlinggu, chuanlinggu also knows himself. How can he not see that he and ye Wuqian are not real lovers?

Ridiculous, this "war" is just a farce of meeting tacit understanding. Those who win will not be happy, and those who lose will be heartbroken.

However, by chuanlinggu such exposure, such a cry, Zhang Yiyun suddenly raised very aggrieved.

She bit her lips to keep herself from crying.

Chuanlinggu stares at her leaving. Zhang Yiyun's steps are like stepping on his heart, as if something has been stripped from his body and life.

Since then, a part of chuanlinggu's life has been missing and will never be completed.