CH 14

Shen Kanyu carried Gu Yansheng home and placed him securely on the bed. Then he took off his shoes, socks, and suit jacket for him, removed his necktie and belt, and undid a couple of buttons on his shirt. 

*Sexual content starts here.*

Gu Yansheng’s entire body shuddered the instant he heard this “I love you”, as if a forbidden land in his heart had been touched, releasing the huge billowing waves and wide stretches of sands sealed inside, flooding and eroding all his reason. 

He strained his eyes open. They were clouded and stained crimson with fury.

Shen Kanyu didn’t even realize Gu Yansheng was awake, when he was suddenly forcibly pushed down from the bed and onto the chilly, hard floor. It hurt so much his vision turned dark. He tried to prop himself up from the ground, but it was all in vain, the only thing he could do was dazedly croak out, “A-Sheng”.

He felt Gu Yansheng on top of him forcibly ripping off his thin shirt and trousers. These were the nicest and most expensive clothes he owned, which he had specially picked out, for fear of embarrassing Gu Yansheng before he went to pick him up today.

He made a subconscious attempt to stop his actions, but his wrists were roughly held down on the ground. A cracking sound came from his bones being crushed.

“Eck…A-Sheng,” Shen Kanyu felt like his bones might be broken. He had no way to resist him. He was in so much pain; cold sweat kept dripping from his body, and he couldn’t even speak properly. “A-Sheng, don’t…” 

He started feeling cold; his body couldn’t control itself from trembling, for his clothes were already completely torn off his body by Gu Yansheng.

He heard Gu Yansheng’s low, husky voice from an extremely close distance, saying his name, syllable by syllable. “Shen. Kan. yu.”

“You said that you’re Su Tong? You said that you love me?”

“Do you want it that much?”

“I’ll give it to you.”

***

Gu Yansheng grew up with Su Tong. Before the “kidnapping”, Su Tong had always been very healthy, even healthier than Gu Yansheng.

What were the events of that kidnapping?

At that time, Shen Kanyu was already four months pregnant. That day, Gu Yansheng told him flatly that he was going out to celebrate Su Tong’s birthday with a bunch of people. There was no deception in his words. Shen Kanyu put on an obedient and tolerant front, saying nothing more as he sent him out the door with a smile. 

But in fact, Shen Kanyu was mad with jealousy. He told his friends to give Su Tong a painful lesson so that he wouldn’t dare to go near Gu Yansheng ever again.

They locked Su Tong, who had claustrophobia, in a light-proof barrel, and kicked it around while rocking it; they even kicked the barrel down a flight of steps.

Gu Yansheng could never forget Su Tong’s cut up, bruised, and barely breathing appearance when he carried him out from the barrel. When they were making their way to the hospital, even being inside the ambulance made Su Tong so scared it almost suffocated him, and at one point he even coughed up blood and went into shock.

Su Tong who hadn’t done anything wrong was nearly killed by Shen Kanyu.

This was something Gu Yansheng would never forget for life.

***

In his drunken stupor, Gu Yansheng heard the endless, heavy banging and falling of objects. That sound lingered in his mind. The scene of the barrel containing Su Tong falling down the stairs haunted him like a nightmare.

It was Shen Kanyu.

It was Shen Kanyu, this lunatic. 

Shen Kanyu was determined to marry him and have his child. He could bear it. For the sake of his child and parents, he was also willing to slowly give up on Su Tong and earnestly fall for Shen Kanyu with time.

He didn’t know if he could do it, and he didn’t want to give false hope so he never told Shen Kanyu that he wanted to live his days with him.

If he had no patience, if he needed to vent, Shen Kanyu could release it onto him. But he insisted on hurting Su Tong. He insisted on bringing everyone pain.

Who was he to freely bring others pain?

Who was he?

Alcohol could always erode humans’ reasoning, sparking the hidden and fierce fire suppressed deep within their bones. The smell of blood filling his nostrils was exactly the same as the horrific smell of blood covering Su Tong’s body that day.

Gu Yansheng had practically gone mad from the fury in his chest. The next words were spoken slowly, his voice husky and low like a life-seeking Asura.

Shen Kanyu, since you like me this much, and you want me this much, then I’ll give you as much as you want, all in one go.

You’re trembling? Struggling? Crying? Do you also know how painful it is to be forced by someone? 

Do you also know?

You lunatic, you bastard. After you’ve done such horrible things, how can you still smile safely and soundly every day? Do you really want everyone to remember you with disgust?

I’m treating you like this, will you be angry?

If you are angry, how about you simply kill me?

*Sexual content ends here.*

***

Shen Kanyu fainted in pain and also awakened in pain.

It was as if a layer of mist covered his eyes as he stared at the ceiling, unfocused and unlit. His chest felt stuffy, and even breathing was so taxing he had no choice but to open his mouth and pant heavily. His lips were as dry as a cracked riverbed.

With a turn of his head, he saw Gu Yansheng who was asleep beside him and became frightened at the sight of dried blood on his face. His fingers, which originally took a lot of effort to move, lifted at will to gently wipe at the bloodstains.

Good, it can be wiped off. It’s not A-Sheng’s blood, A-Sheng isn’t hurt.

Shen Kanyu breathed a sigh of relief, then a thought immediately entered his mind, causing all the nerves in his body to tense up. 

If it wasn’t A-Sheng’s blood, was it his own blood he got on him? If A-Sheng found his body covered in Shen Kanyu’s blood when he woke up, he’d definitely be disgusted to death.

Shen Kanyu suddenly went from his half-dead state to moving with ease. He got up in a few tries. A sharp pain suddenly struck his lower body, and a large amount of semen mixed with blood gushed out. He almost fainted again. He quickly swallowed a few painkillers and pressed down on his chest, sitting in place to rest for a while before he got up from the floor.

His body was stained with blood. Fearing that he’d dirty Gu Yansheng, he could only hurry to the shower and rinse himself off. Then he grabbed a basin of hot water, rinsed a towel, and headed back to take off Gu Yansheng’s clothes, wipe his body down, and change him into his pajamas.

It seemed a bone had broken in his left hand. Although he took some painkillers so the pain wasn’t strong, he kept feeling that he couldn’t gather any strength; his movements were much more sluggish.

He was very scared Gu Yansheng would awaken. Once he completed these tasks with his heart in his mouth, he carried him back onto the bed and covered him with a blanket. Then fearing that he would wake with a start, he half-kneeled by the bed and kept stroking Gu Yansheng’s chest until his breathing became clear and steady, letting him sleep a little more peacefully.

Once he was sound asleep again, Shen Kanyu turned around and started tidying up the mess all over the ground.

He picked up a broken crystal ornament that looked quite pricey. His hands kept trembling as he collected the glass fragments, thinking that it was alright if it wasn’t cheap, but if it was some kind of keepsake between Gu Yansheng and Su Tong, then it was over for him.

Fortunately, he could still make out the name of the brand. If he rushed to the mall now, perhaps he could buy one that was exactly the same. 

He hurriedly put the fragments into a bag, but when he held onto his knees to stand up, his chest suddenly felt tight and his windpipe dry and itchy. He couldn’t bear it; before he even straightened up, his body fell down again. He covered his mouth and coughed hard, but what he coughed out was a mouthful of blood.

He looked at his blood-covered hand in a daze, blankly wondering, ‘I don’t feel pain anywhere, where did all this blood come from?’

He felt so muddle-headed he had forgotten he had taken painkillers, so he couldn’t understand why he suddenly vomited blood. But the color of the blood was light, nearly pink; it shouldn’t be a big issue. 

His coughing didn’t cease as blood continued to leave his mouth. Afraid of dirtying the floor, he grabbed onto his collar and blocked his lips, before leaving Gu Yansheng’s room in a hurry.