454 ALL SHE WANTS
Knox really didn’t believe with what he heard right now. This man literally told him to not see July again, but the funny part was; that was exactly what she told him. To stay away from her life.
This was really over, right?
There were a lot of response that Knox could do when he heard that, he could be so angry, upset, distressed and anything else, Sebastian even prepared himself to receive his wrath or to see him broke down.
Yet, none of that happened, instead, he saw Knox was laughing.
It started with a small chuckle, but then this quiet room filled with his laughter, it echoed throughout the walls.
“How funny it is... both of you asked the same thing.” He remembered how July didn’t want to see him again. “Don’t worry. She will never see me again.”
That’s it? Was that so easy? He had prepared himself for the worst, but this was all he said after his bold demand?
This was not like him at all.
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Knox wouldn’t give her up so easily.
.....
But... he should be happy because everything ran smoothly, right? Yet, his reaction still bothered him. What actually he wanted? For Knox to kill him? Beat him up?
“I wish you well,” Knox finally said that in the end of his laughter. “I mean it.” And with that, he vanished from Sebastian sight, before he could say anything else.
There was no ‘goodbye’ between them and those years they had worked together ended just like this.
Sebastian couldn’t describe how he feel right now. His feeling was all over the places. He was glad that Knox didn’t make things difficult, but the relationship between them happened even before Knox met July.
He felt like he lost his best friend, a brother, a team mate... in a way, it was not only July, who lost him, but he did too.
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“Are you really going?” Zuri asked July, as she entered her room, White was with her, walking next to her, as the wolf immediately jumped onto the sofa and found a comfortable position.
July was not alone inside the room, there was Sebastian as well, but when Zuri looked at him, the man knew right away that he needed to give them time, thus he talked to July briefly and then walked out of the bedroom.
It was a good thing that he was so considerate, something that Knox wouldn’t do, if it was him, he would make himself comfortable, until July kicked him out.
“Yes,” July replied curtly, as she packed all the clothes that she would bring to Lucinda city.
There were already five trunks, but she still needed more. It felt like there would be no end for this, maybe she would keep packing until next week and she wouldn’t have done it too by that time.
“Without saying anything to me?” Zuri sat down on the edge of the bed and White jumped down from the sofa to climb to her laps, nudging her hand, asking her to scratch her.
Knox was nowhere, she couldn’t sense his scent around this manor. It seemed he gave July time to packing all of her clothes in their bedroom.
Hearing that, July raised her head and then looked at Zuri, while biting her lips. “I though you don’t want to see me again.”
“If there is someone that I don’t want to see is Knox,” she said truthfully and July laughed, she knew the relationship between them was not that smooth, but it was not so bad either, until she didn’t want to see him.
“I will miss the two of you bickering.” July lowered her head and then busied herself with all the clothes again, she folded them in such a way that let Zuri knew she only did that to distract herself from the conversation that would happen.
“You don’t need to miss that if you stay here.” Zuri scratched the back of White’s ear and the wolf closed her eyes, enjoying this treat. “You don’t need to go anywhere, this is our home.”
If there was one person that she could call as a home, it would be Chaos, but it was a place, this was a home for Zuri and most of them, since there were a lot of things that happened in this building.
This place was a witness of many things that had happened throughout the years.
a lot of things happened, people left, either they were died, or they would live different from what they got here, but one thing that Zuri learned from this was; there was nothing absolute, there was nothing that would stay the same, time would change everything, either your situation or your heart.
Zuri still believed that July and Knox would always be together until death took one of them, but right now, to see how determined July to leave, it seemed those thoughts were only a dream. Those thoughts were only wishful thinking in her part.
“This was my home.” July looked around her, as she stopped doing what she did and then took every inches of this room in her memory, she wanted to engrave this, in her mind, she didn’t want to forget a little bit detail of it and how it smelled, Knox’s woodsy scent were everywhere in this bedroom...
She only wanted to keep a good memory of it. She didn’t want to remember how they fought.
She shouldn’t have fought him. That was not the last memory that she wanted when they grew apart, there was no goodbye or hug...
Why she should be angry at him? That was not a memory that she wanted to give him...
“July.” Zuri’s soft voice called her name, but it sounded like she was very far away from her, as if she was in different place, because her mind was elsewhere.
But then, July felt someone touched her cheek, her finger was so cold, this made her lifted her head and found Zuri had knelt in front of her, staring at her with concern in her hazel eyes.
July didn’t even realize when she started to cry. She didn’t even realize when Zuri approached her and wiped away her tears.
She was already there when she noticed her surrounding again and pulled her closer, as she hugged her.
July didn’t realize it before, but Zuri was skinnier than she expected and was less warmer than she expected it, also less sturdy than she expected it...
Because her expectation was Knox... she wanted Knox to be here, to hug her like this and whispered the words that Zuri told her to comfort her. She wanted Knox to comfort her like this. She wanted to see him...
“It’s okay, July...” Zuri didn’t know what to say in this kind of situation, because she didn’t use to see someone else cried, even herself, she didn’t remember when the last time she cried like this.
Oh, was it when she thought she had killed Chaos? Did July feel the same feeling like she did at that time? That’s why she cried like this?
It started with a small sob and became a heart wrenching cry, as her body started to tremble.
July said something, but Zuri couldn’t understand because her words were incoherent and the only word that she could catch was only ‘Knox’. She called his name again and again.
July hugged Zuri so tightly, she was in pain, her cry sounded like a painful howl, which brought tears to Zuri’s eyes.
She couldn’t grasp this situation fully, but she could feel waves after waves of sadness, even deeper than that, more hurtful and aggravating...
July was hyperventilating, but she kept hugging Zuri so tight, she was a mess to say the least.
The thought of everything was over brought excruciating pain for her.
Everything flashed before her eyes, those years when the only person that she had was him, when her family acted like she didn’t exist because of the decision that she chose, it was Knox. It was him and always him.
Whenever she looked back, she would find him, waiting for her, smiling and treating her so well. it was him, who would act so arrogant and didn’t care about anything else, it was him, who would be bold and resolute that she was his.
It was him, who would make other men understood that she was his. No one could lay a hand on her or treated her bad.
It would always him, who would be there when she cried. It was always him...
But, what they became now? What Knox became now? He let her go with other man? Knowing that they wouldn’t meet again and he just... let her go?
She is not fine with this...
“I want Knox...” July cried her heart out. She couldn’t see clearly, her vision was blur, but she kept repeating the same words again and again, as if it was a charm, a spell that would bring Knox back to her.
A charm that would bring the old Knox that she knew back to her again, not that callous man that was fine with her with another man.
However, the thing that they didn’t notice immediately in this tide of emotions was the fact someone was listening outside of the room, with the small crack at the door, it was enough to hear July’s cry for Knox’s name clearly, as he cried his own sorrow too...
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