Chapter 314

Li Kun Yu frowned, "why don't you go to England with me?"

Guan Ju is funny, "what are you doing here?"

"I'm serious. If you go to England with me, I can't worry. Otherwise, I can't do my job well if I leave you here."

"Poof -"

Guan Ju's eyes were bent with laughter.

But my heart is warm and moving.

She put her arms around her chest and rubbed her elbows against Li Kunyu's chest. "Yes, you know how to hurt your sister. But you can really rest assured that I'm fine. I promise I'll be fine! I can't go to England with you. I still work in China. Besides, I have to take care of your parents, don't I? "

"If you don't do that job, you can go to England and I can support you. Now my salary is high. You don't know. If you can't come back for one or two years, I'll take my parents over, too?"

"Don't be so paranoid! Go away, go away! Let's go now, or it will be too late. "

Li Kunyu was pushed back two steps by Guan Ju. He was not sure, "can you really take care of yourself?"

"Really! I can not only take care of myself, I can also take care of the eight commandments you gave me. Is that all right? " Guan Ju sincerely guarantees.

“…… All right! Then I've really left! "

Guan Ju waved, "let's go, let's go!"

"Goodbye..."

"See you in the new year, when you come back!"

Guan Ju somehow, suddenly unconsciously wet his eyes.

Until watching Li Kunyu enter the security gate, Guan Ju had to go back.

Heart, empty.

Grandma's gone.

Her brother, who can amuse her, has also gone to England.

But

No matter how hard life is, it will continue!

Guan Ju walked out of the airport and habitually took out a cigarette from his pocket.

It was only when I caught my hand that I wanted to light it, but I suddenly thought of Gu Xianlai.

She frowned discontentedly.

Like in a fit of anger, he put the cigarette into his lips.

"Pop -"

flick the lighter to light a cigarette.

As soon as the smoke started, Guan Ju felt as if he had been blocked by something.

Finally, simply take the cigarette out of your mouth, put it out in the ashtray of the garbage can and throw it in.

Walk away in high heels.

Gu Xian, you'd better quit smoking!

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Guan Ju thought that she would survive the death of her grandmother, but she couldn't sleep in the middle of the night.

I don't know where it hurts. It hurts anyway.

Lying on the bed, staring at the white ceiling, recalling the little things between myself and my grandmother, I suddenly feel lonely in this world, like a poor abandoned child.

Every night, Guan Ju doesn't know how he survived.

After taking sleeping pills, I was in a coma and didn't wake up.

Occasionally sleepwalking at night, but when sleepwalking, I have no memory of what I did. It depends on the situation in the room the next day to judge what happened at night.

On this day, the alarm clock rings according to the time.

Guan Ju's brain is as heavy as lead.

She forced her eyes on the leather and sat up.

She couldn't remember when she went to bed last night.

I just know that I didn't sleep very well last night.

“…… It hurts

Brain pain.

Guan Ju raised his hand and rubbed his eyebrows.

But I found that when I raised my hand, it hurt more.

She glanced at her arm, her face slightly changed.

Because, at this moment, his white arm, inexplicably out of a lot of blood.

On the ground not far from the bed, there was a bloody fruit knife.

Xiao Bajie was around the knife, sniffing it.

On the ground, a pool of blood was dripping.

Guan Ju felt more headache.

There is no doubt that she sleepwalked again last night.

To her surprise, she did something to hurt herself in the process of sleepwalking.

It's called self mutilation!

She cut herself with a fruit knife.

But in fact, this is not the first time Guan Ju has done something to hurt himself in his dream.

Gu Xiangang left that half a year, she occasionally in the case of extreme depression, will do such things to hurt themselves.

At the beginning, when I was sober, I would hurt myself with all kinds of sharp weapons.

As if as long as you hurt your body, your heart will not hurt so much.Guan Ju knows that this is a kind of psychological disease, which is the result of depression.

Later, she took the initiative to seek help from a doctor, and her mental illness improved a lot. At least, she would not torture herself when she was conscious.

Just did not expect, occasionally sleepwalking, there will be such a situation.

Of course, only a few times.

Later, more than a year later, she made great efforts to adjust herself and cooperate with the doctor, but she never relapsed again.

But did not think, this time the grandmother's death, let her old disease recurrence.

Guan Ju actually guessed that there might be such a result, but he didn't expect that he would be so cruel and cut himself so deeply.

Guan Ju quickly turned out the medicine box, sat cross legged in front of the tea table, and began to disinfect himself.

"Guan Ju, Guan Ju, no matter how painful or bitter you are, you shouldn't hurt yourself like this!"

Guan Ju muttered to himself, shaking his head and sighing, "you are too cruel."

She was talking to another villain in her heart.

She shivered with pain when the medicine soaked in the wound.

On the arm, there are many wounds, big and small. Some of them are even X-shaped.

This is too much!

In addition to the new injuries, there are old ones left behind.

For example, if you want to die, you'll cut your wrist.

Also, after a few sleepwalking since. Residual, leaving a scar.

Cigarette ends are hot.

Guan Ju doesn't understand. How can he be so cruel to her?

Is it because of that she, in the heart too painful?

Guan Ju quietly red eyes, "you say, this to let Grandma know, you put yourself into this kind of ghost, how sad she is?"

"OK..."

She breathed out and took the medicine back to the medicine box. "Fortunately, she's gone first. I can't see you like this!"

Yes, Guan Ju describes himself as a ghost.

He made a ghost of himself.

Also his life, tossed into a ghost.

Depression is like this, no matter what you do, it only comes down to two words, despair.

After Guan Ju packed the medicine box, he picked up the fruit knife from the ground, washed it, put it back in the kitchen, and then began to wash and tidy up.

Go out to slip dog son, go home again, back bag, put on high heels, bright out of the door, go to work.

The whole body of dark and negative energy, all left in that narrow space.

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