C86

I hate you

Mu Huainan, who was kicked to the ground by me, was confused.

His head had only just turned halfway when his arm suddenly wrapped around his waist. In the next second, his entire body was kneaded into his embrace.

"You are the only person in the world that dared to kick me out of bed."

His voice penetrated the layers of darkness and reached my ears. My face flushed a little, but I cleared my throat and said, "Hmph, are you saying that you'll kick all the women in the world out of bed after they've been played with?"

Men were animals that could not recognize each other and used the lower half of their body to think!

His hand moved slowly up to my chest, and I felt my breath catch in my throat.

"You're hugging me too tightly, I can't breathe anymore."

My complaint did not get him to let me go. Instead, I heard his ambiguous voice.

"You must be jealous."

"Bullshit!"

Without even thinking about it, I immediately denied it. After calming down a little and thinking about it, it seemed to me that I was feeling even more guilty.

He held me for a long, long time, until I was so tired I wanted to sleep, and then I heard him say.

"Do you want to hear Lu Jingyu's story?"

I started, then nodded.

Mu Huainan said: "Actually, I don't even know her."

I frowned. "You're lying again!" You said you didn't know her, so why did you call her by her name when you were drunk? "

Mu Huainan's soft laughter entered his ears.

He said, "The last time I saw the Shellfish was when she gave me back the tortoise." Mu Huainan said and paused: "I picked up the postcard that she dropped."

"Postcards?"

"The address is very general, only American. The recipient was even more casual, only having a 'big sister' written on it.

Listening to Mu Huainan's words, my heart was in a mess.

He couldn't help but ask, "And then?"

"On the opposite side of the postcard was a picture she'd drawn herself, three people, her own ten-year-old self in the middle, with her mother standing to her father's right on her left."

Mu Huainan said: "Although the picture is very rough, but from the color of the clothes and hairstyle, I can tell that it's her. It's the 'shell' that I thought I was doing at that time, and on the postcard, the little girl in the middle has her name written below it — — Lu Jingyu."

"So, you have always thought of the girl who gave you the turtle as the 'shell girl' that you liked and thought that she was called Lu Jingyu?"

Mu Huainan buried his head in my neck and softly replied with an "En".

I was silent for a while, trying to think clearly. After a while, I said, "Then how are you so sure that Lu Jingyu is not the shell girl that you were looking for? "Maybe …" When I said this, my heart felt like it was being pierced by a thorn, but I still said, "Maybe I'm the one you're mistaken for. I'm not the girl you're looking for at all."

If it's really like that, then wouldn't Mu Huainan be able to release me now? It should have been a good thing for everyone to be happy, but now, other than the bitterness in my heart, I don't feel any excitement at all.

Mu Huainan had not spoken a word since the beginning.

I broke free from his embrace and jumped out of bed.

He went straight to the cabinet next to the desk and opened it. Inside was my bag, and inside the bag was my wallet. At the very inside of the purse was the photo.

I'd been wondering from the beginning whether to show him the picture.

Old Pan gave me the same picture that Mu Huainan described to me on the back of the postcard.

I climbed back onto the bed with the photo in hand and sat cross-legged, then threw the photo in front of Mu Huainan.

"Are you talking about this girl?"

Mu Huainan, who was holding the photo, was stunned at first, but then he raised his head in surprise.

"How did you get this picture?"

I didn't say anything.

He continued, "The Lu family having two daughters has always been a secret. Logically speaking, you shouldn't have known either. Tell me, who gave you this photo."

Mu Huainan, who suddenly became serious, although he made me feel a bit scared, but more importantly, he was angry.

"What do you mean I shouldn't know? I have a sister! Why can't I know!?! She might be my last family member in this world! "

Mu Huainan let out a long sigh: "Of course I know she's your relative, but before I find her, I didn't tell you because it's for your own good."

"For my own good?" I found it laughable. "Are you doing this for my own good, or are you afraid that I will disrupt your plan to find her? From the beginning to the end, your goal is only to find Lu Jingyu, right?! What shell story, what turtle story, hehe. " I laughed sorrowfully, "It's all about Lu Jingyu, you like her right? No, no, no, you love her. I am just her substitute, a tool for you to use! "

My cries were heartbreaking. All of my disappointment and suspicion had been completely dispelled by me at this moment. "You ."

My heart was in turmoil. My eyes were red and swollen as I jumped out of bed. I ran all the way to the washroom. When the door closed, I couldn't help but cry.

I just don't want to cry in front of Mu Huainan. I'm eighteen years old after all.

I saw a dark figure pass by the bathroom door, and the sound of footsteps made me feel even more dismayed. A moment later, I heard a knock on the door.

He was probably on the verge of breaking down.

I reached for the shower nozzle and turned on the water. The hot water was still running, but I held the nozzle to my head and poured cold water over me from head to foot. I shivered and shivered.

The buzzing in my ears and the splashing in the water made me lose the sound of footsteps at the door, and I lost the sound of his knocking on the door, and my vision blurred. The world around me was clear and quiet, and I was able to relax completely without having to resist anyone.

It was a quick time for a person to lose control of his emotions, and this evening I listened to a lot and forgot a lot, because I gradually realized that I was beginning to have trouble distinguishing between which sentences were sincere and which were the ones that held the credit for keeping points.

I don't know.

Every single day and night I spent with Mu Huainan was chaotic and unknown.

However, just for a moment, I did not deliberately feel, nor did I wear tinted glasses to examine, but it was hard to erase in my heart.

That moment that made me crumble, when I think about it, it was just a childish and laughable girl's mood.

It was when I asked Mu Huainan "Maybe I am the one who was mistaken for 'Miss Shell', and is Lu Jingyu's substitute."

He did not refute or explain.

He can't even speak the words of love that he's so good at. I think he suspects himself, too.

It also made me have to look at my place in his mind again.

Actually, I have already examined this issue more than once, but every time I was in Mu Huainan's embrace, in his sweet mouth, I would always numb myself to believe in this love.

But now, he didn't even give me that final bit of paralysis.

They even divided me into that group of "ordinary people", such that even Lu Jingyu himself didn't have the right to know the secret of their existence.

I wasn't that important. It was all just wishful thinking.

I want to be a zigzag clown, never again from my intoxicated drama.

I had lost my loved ones, lost my friends, and suffered great pressure from the outside world to stay with him in this miserable state.

He had originally thought that it was all just to repay the debt.

But now. I felt my hot tears behind me and finally understood as I crouched down and hugged my trembling body.

It wasn't repayment at all.

But, I'm really in love with Mu Huainan.

The guy who always showed up at my side in times of crisis, the guy who always hugged me when I was cold, who cooked noodles when I was hungry, who rubbed wounds when I was in pain.

I finally had to admit my love for him.

Faintly, I wanted to see the man who had broken in, his hair disheveled, his eyes panic-stricken, the way he had not been.

Later, I only felt my body fall heavily, splashing the cold water, touching the cold floor, I realized that after so long cold water, my body was still boiling hot.

Mu Huainan, you really screwed me.

Every time my mind is in a mess, I dream. This time, I didn't dream of Mu Huainan, but of my sister, whom I have never seen before.

She smiled and handed me a postcard of her drawing of her mother and father and herself, then called to me in a slightly nervous, slightly strained voice: "Sister."

I burst into tears.

In the darkness, I saw her go away. I cried and reached out to grab at my sister, but I couldn't, and in the darkness I saw two hands reach out in vain. He took my hot hand in his cold grip, and the other one touched my cheek to wipe away my tears.

I opened my eyes. The room was warm orange.

Mu Huainan sat at my bedside, holding my hand.

"An'an." He leaned over and touched my forehead with his head.

I frowned and struggled to sit up. My mouth was dry and my head hurt.

"I want some water."

"Alright, just lie still. I'll get you some water."

Mu Huainan pressed me onto the bed, covered me up, and went out to pour some water.

I felt a little better after the warm water had settled into my stomach.

"You girl, what kind of cold shower are you?"

Mu Huainan's voice was blaming me, as we were simply unable to differentiate between real and fake.

"You should have realized that I don't know anything. I don't know anything about Lu Jingyu, the Lu family, or the businesses in Lu, so I don't have any value to you anymore. Why are you still acting in front of me?"

He's not tired, and I think I'm tired for him.

Mu Huainan got off the bed and half-squatted beside my bed. Looking at me, he reached his hand into the blanket and gently held my hand, then pinched my palm.

"It's really stupid to call you stupid."

I didn't speak, didn't even look at him, just turned my face the other way.

"As you said, you don't know anything. I've known that since the day of the funeral. You're of no use to me."

My heart sank as I listened.

"But I took you in, raised you, and spoiled you. You stupid girl, don't you understand what's going on? "

I still didn't speak.

If I can guess what Mu Huainan is thinking, then the financial world's young leader would not be Mu Huainan, but me.

"Because I love you."

I started.

"I love you, so there is no need to care about those things. As long as I can properly love you, it will be my greatest happiness."

Caught off guard, my heart softened a bit.

But soon I was in control of myself.

He couldn't be like this, he couldn't have any illusions about Mu Huai An!