C88

Do you believe that I love you now

Mu Huainan held me in his arms for a very long time. The room was quiet, and the only things left were the cold night air and our shallow breaths.

"There's a hard drive in the lock box in the study. The smallest one. Go and take it off."

"Yes."

The password box wasn't big, other than a few paper bags of documents, there was only a hard disk that was around the size of a fingernail. It was black in color, and when I took it downstairs, Mu Huainan was currently turning on the TV.

"Sit there."

After handing the hard disk to Mu Huainan, I listened to him and sat obediently on the sofa.

He plugged the hard drive into the back of the TV and soon, the screen lit up. There were many videos that had time titles on them.

Mu Huainan came over and sat beside me, gently holding my shoulders.

"What is this?" I asked him.

Could it be that they were going to watch a movie together? Is there a mistake?

"Watch carefully."

I stopped asking questions and waited until the screen went black and lit up and then slowly came up with a picture of a hospital. Looking closely, it didn't look like a hospital at all, it was just decorated like a hospital. I frowned, not understanding what it was.

Until...

I saw a man appear on the screen.

Lu Jingyu.

It was probably when she was young and looked to be no more than three years old. It seemed that the younger the grade, the more similar I looked to her. At that time, I didn't have any temperament or habits, so there were quite a few times when I thought of the person in the video as me.

As the video continued to play, so too did time. Lu Jingyu grew up slowly in the video. This video recorded almost all of her important moments, her every birthday. She spent her childhood as a teenager in a place that looked like a hospital but was not a hospital. She didn't look sociable, and she was a little grumpy, which probably had something to do with her previous illness.

I saw her and the children, I saw her talking back to the nurse, I saw her getting better, and then she got sick. She was so fragile, and yet so irritable.

It was clearly an eggshell, yet every day it wanted to smash into a rock. When others came to block and protect her, she would fight them to the death.

It was probably a little extreme kid.

I watched the video and clenched my fists, concentrating. Mu Huainan, who was beside me, hugged me, feeling all my worry and surprise.

That's my sister. It's the first time I've seen her in eighteen years.

It was still on the cold TV.

I saw that familiar face grow, mature, until.

I saw another girl who looked exactly the same in the video.

That's about me, about ten years old.

At that time, I looked very timid. I hid behind my parents, only sticking out my head and looking at them occasionally. I was probably wondering why there was a child in this world who looked exactly like me.

In the video, my mother kindly wanted me to get to know her. She patiently squatted in front of me and whispered something into my ear. The next second, when I was ten years old, I anxiously waited for my mother to move the body that was in front of me. At that time, I met Lu Jingyu's eyes for the first time.

Perhaps what my mother said in my ear was useful, or perhaps I was only ten years old, but I knew that I was the elder sister. Anyway, I'm the one who took the first step.

In his tiny body, every step he took was very, very serious.

Two pairs of eyes, almost the same, looking at each other, somewhat nervous, and after a long time, I saw my ten-year-old hand slowly reach out, and then shyly give a polite smile.

"Hello."

Lu Jingyu waited for a long time, until I was about to take my hand back when she timidly replied.

"Hello."

"My name is Lu Weian."

"My name is Lu Jingyu."

This scene looked quite comical. After all, the two of them looked almost the same. It was indeed strange that they had to introduce themselves to each other.

Then, I saw me holding Lu Jingyu's hand. At first, she seemed very nervous, but later, she slowly let go of my hand. She slowly spoke a lot of words to her, but she couldn't hear them clearly.

I saw Lu Jingyu take out a candy from her pocket and gave it to me. She didn't say much, and her mouth didn't move at all.

The twins had the ability to experience everything through telepathy without having to communicate through words.

This video was different from the others because it felt like there was always a scene moving around. It should have been someone following the camera. It looked like they were secretly taking photos. The lens was not stable and many of the scenes were blurry and indistinct. Occasionally, there were even things blocking them, making them look a little uncomfortable.

For a long moment, the screen was blank, except for the noise of the engine and the voices of two men talking.

However, he couldn't clearly hear what was being said.

Then the scene changed and the two sisters and their parents appeared in the video once again. This time, the background was not the hospital, but my family.

Familiar villa and familiar flower beds in the courtyard …

Everything familiar, destroyed after the fire, I didn't even see the last of it.

In his heart, he suddenly felt a wave of bitterness and discomfort.

Suddenly, I felt someone hugging me from behind, so I followed along. Mu Huainan's chest was no longer firm, but warm and soft.

Startled, I straightened up. He was afraid that he would accidentally crush his heart.

"Uncle Huainan, are you alright …"

Mu Huainan was so shocked that I started to pant. He just smiled lightly, then extended his arms and wrapped them around me again.

He rubbed it against his chest.

"How can he be so delicate." He said, "Even if you had a knife, I would still hold on to you."

I didn't dare to push him, so I could only listen to him with a blush. Then I reminded him in a small voice, "The video hasn't finished playing. Let's watch the video first."

"Right."

In the video, the Old Pan butler came out from his room. In his hand was a camera.

I rubbed my eyes and looked carefully. Although the Old Pan was a bit blurry when I shot the camera towards him, from the figure, I could tell that the person was the Old Pan that gave me the photo, not the Old Pan that I talked to at the funeral.

Two Old Pan s, I am already so confused that I don't know which one is real and which one is fake.

Forget it, it's tiring to think so much. Let's keep watching.

In the video, I took the camera in Uncle Pan's hands and fiddled with it while Lu Jingyu and her parents stood in front of their house. Suddenly, there was a "Kacha" sound.

I looked at Lu Jingyu's clothes and the house behind them. My parents stood shoulder to shoulder with my cute daughter in the middle … This scene was too familiar …

It was the scene in the photo!

So I took that photo. I took it myself!

But I have no memory of any of this. I don't remember anything at all, not even the faintest hint of consciousness, not even a memory of it.

What I saw was only unfamiliarity, an endless sense of unfamiliarity.

My heart sank.

I couldn't help but shiver. Even when I was in Mu Huainan's arms, I was extremely cold.

I can't remember so many things, it means that I lost more than just a period of time back then, and what was lost wasn't only related to Mu Huainan, but also that person called Lu Jingyu, my sister.

It was not that simple, I thought, walking into this great mystery as if I had accidentally stepped into a bottomless pit and could not see anything around me. I ran and ran in the dark, farther and farther away, colder and more helpless.

Fortunately, a pair of hands grabbed me and pulled me into his embrace. Only then did I barely feel a trace of warmth, and a little hope for survival.

All of this is not a coincidence. My amnesia, it was obviously intentional!

I raised my head and looked at Mu Huainan in shock. I had a lot of things I wanted to say and a lot of questions I wanted to ask.

Mu Huainan lowered his eyes. He knows, he knows everything about me.

Lowering his head, he kissed the space between my eyebrows and spoke softly.

"Keep watching."

I had to carry on reading, with a lot of questions in my mind.

In the video, it recorded almost the entire process of Lu Jingyu's growth, but the majority of her days were spent in that cold and detached nursing home, with doctors everywhere. Other than the year when I went abroad, she had left the clinic and returned home, almost never leaving.

I hardly ever saw her without her hospital gown.

The more I looked at her growth trajectory, the more I felt sorry for this girl who was related to me by blood.

It was I who had deprived her of everything. She should have had a happy childhood, a loving parents, a normal social life, a college entrance exam, and a life with someone she liked.

However, she couldn't even do the task of being an ordinary girl.

My heartache is so great that I can hardly breathe.

Tears rolled down my face, and on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I saw another familiar figure appear on the television screen.

Mu Huainan.

It was just that her hospital gown had grown by a few sizes, and her eyes were no longer clear and transparent, but empty and absent-minded. She sat by the window alone, looking at a stalk of Orchid Grass, and when she opened the door, sounds came from behind her. In the image, she appeared to be Mu Huainan, who was carrying a lot of snacks.

This was clearly what had happened in the past year. The people in the video all looked the same at the moment.

I looked up at him in shock. After a long time, I let out a shaky voice.

"You've always been aware of Lu Jingyu's whereabouts?!"

Mu Huainan no longer hid anything. Just as he said, he wanted to tell me everything that I want to know.

He nodded.

"Why didn't you tell me?!"

He sighed. "An An, calm down first. Listen to me."

His voice was still so tired that I didn't dare to yell at him, much less make a fuss about it.

"I've always known of Lu Jingyu's existence. Ever since that year when you left the country, I had been investigating this name. I found out about Lu Jingyu, went to find her, and discovered that she wasn't the same 'little shell' that I had in my memory."

I sat quietly, not speaking.

"You are naive and happy and at ease. It was as if there was nothing in the world that could trouble you and lock you down. But Lu Jingyu is different. From the day she returned the turtle to me, I had faintly suspected that the two of you were not the same person.

I buried my head in Mu Huainan's embrace and listened to him speak.

"I always knew where Lu Jingyu was. Do you still think that the reason I left you behind was to make use of you to find Lu Jingyu?"

I couldn't speak.

Mu Huainan hugged me even more tightly.

His voice rings in my ear.

"Do you still doubt my love for you?"