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I had always thought that Mu Huainan would be able to help me shoulder all of the hardships of this world, but it was only to this day that I realized that he was the one with the greatest difficulty.

I was extremely tired and my mind was in a mess.

Then I heard the faint roar of the wind and thunder, and I struggled in the cold river, but no one saved me, no one accompanied me.

It was a dream. A dream.

It's been seven years, and this nightmare has been haunting me for almost seven years.

Although it was all right in the end, I couldn't help but feel scared when it wasn't the season of thunder and lightning.

I sat alone on the bed. Outside the window, the wind was howling as if there was a wild beast howling inside. I felt the room was so stuffy that it suffocated me.

I got out of bed and went to the window. I opened the window hard, took a deep breath, and leaned against it. I stared dully at the darkness of the world.

Suddenly, the door was pushed open.

It was raining heavily tonight, so Zhao Ma didn't go home. She stayed in the villa and I heard her voice from afar.

"Young Master, the scream came from Madam's room. It must be a nightmare."

"Alright, you can leave. I understand."

It was Peng Haobai's voice.

When did he come back?

Then I heard the footsteps getting closer and closer. Peng Haobai walked towards me.

He closed the door behind him, and the room was dark, with no lights on.

I stood by the window and looked in the direction of the door. In the darkness, the figure was very tall and tall.

Peng Haobai seemed to not realize that there was no one on the bed. He only stood there, and walked in from a few steps away from the door. His gaze seemed to have been fixated on the position on the bed the entire time.

The quilt on the bed was slightly raised, and when I got out of bed, I inadvertently covered the teddy bear that I had always been used to hugging to sleep.

There was a person lying on the bed.

I stood at the window, which whistled against the wall as the wind and rain raged outside. I tightened my heartstrings, and my breathing became a little rough. I couldn't smell any alcohol on Peng Haobai, and I wasn't sure what he wanted to do.

Finally, after the atmosphere froze for a few seconds, I saw Peng Haobai finally sitting down on the sofa. He casually lit up a cigarette. In the darkness of the night, the cigarette floated among the gaps of Peng Haobai's fingers as curls of white smoke rose from it.

I stood in the darkness behind him, watching him in the wind.

After a long time, he seemed to be talking to someone in the blanket.

However, the voice was very soft, so he just sat on the sofa and didn't move closer.

"I know you're scared, but I'll accompany you."

Just a few words and I was shocked.

I was afraid of thunder, which had been a problem since seven years ago, and because of the psychological trauma it had left in me, I was afraid now.

I thought Peng Haobai was sick of me and had been sick of me since a long time ago. Why else would he do that to me, coerce me, hurt me?

But now …

Tears finally rolled down his face.

He suddenly came to my room late at night because he was afraid that I would be afraid of the heavy rain, because he knew that with him by my side, I would not be so afraid.

I remember when I first went to America, it was a continuous thunderstorm. I was curled up in my quilt, shivering and mumbling about the scene of that day.

I grabbed onto the quilt and begged the doctors, nurses, Mu Huainan, and others to let go of the child in my womb.

Peng Haobai accompanied me a few times, and eventually decided to just move the bedding into my room. As long as I had a nightmare, he would come over and hug me, so that I could peacefully spend the next half of the night.

Over time, I got used to it.

He is too good, too gentle to the point of being impeccable. That's why I forgot that he is also a man, flesh and blood, and has his own small emotions and violent temper. I made him suppress his emotions for too long, so if he hates me, I won't blame him.

As Peng Haobai sat there, he suddenly seemed to realize something. He got up and lifted the blanket on his bed.

Only one bear lay still.

The next second, he suddenly turned his head away.

At the window, the wind was howling.

I stared at him blankly, long since clenching my fists and crying tears all over. There was no desire to guard against and toughness in my eyes, there was only regret and guilt towards Peng Haobai all these years.

He looked tenderly at the man.

But the man showed no sign of gentleness.

He seemed irritated with me.

In the dark, he came closer and closer, his fists clenched, and I could smell the wine on him.

He came over, breathing hard, and stubbed out his cigarette with such force that I saw his fingers were scorched by the smoke, but he didn't feel any pain.

I could see that he was angry, very angry.

"Are you messing with me?"

The moon outside the window made me see a frown on his forehead. Lowering his head, his thin lips parted. "Is it interesting to see two idiots talking to themselves like this?"

I know that my explanation is useless. In Peng Haobai's eyes, my explanation has long been like a clown, no one will laugh if you try to stir up trouble.

I turned and closed the window, then stepped around him and quietly wiped the tears from my face.

"It's just that the wind is blowing outside. I'm just going to get up and close the window."

He stood behind me for a long time without speaking.

Slowly I climbed into bed, wrapped myself in the covers, and prepared to rest.

He was standing there, aware of the heavy atmosphere, and he started for the door. When he reached it, he stopped, and I didn't see if he had turned around, but I heard his husky voice.

He asked me, "Are you afraid?"

I couldn't take it anymore. The short phrase had caused my suppressed emotions to crumble once again. His tears, which he had finally managed to stop, once again flowed like a river.

Peng Haobai, don't be so nice to me, I won't feel so guilty and unbearable.

I put my head under the covers and wept as quietly as I could, so he wouldn't notice.

I heard footsteps approaching, it was Peng Haobai walking towards me.

I hurriedly wiped my tears away with the blanket.

He sat on the edge of the bed and gently pressed my shoulder, turning me around.

He looked down at me, touched the tears on my cheeks, and sighed.

"What are you crying for?" He smiled bitterly. "I didn't do anything to you today did I?"

I looked at him, and just like that, I couldn't help crying even harder.

"Alright..." Peng Haobai frantically wiped away my tears, then hurriedly stood up again: "If you're afraid of me, then I won't be staying here anymore. Go rest, if you're afraid of thunder, call Mother Zhao over to accompany you."

After saying that, he turned around and walked towards the door.

The pain in my heart was overflowing like a river, I couldn't help but call out to Peng Haobai.

"Wait."

He stopped and turned around.

"Peng Haobai, let's get divorced."

I'd rather he hated me to the point that he wanted to kill me than waste any feelings on someone like me.

His marriage with me would only make the two of us suffer even more miserably.

I'm already like this, and there's no saving me.

But Peng Haobai shouldn't have been destroyed by me like this.

He stood there blankly for a long time before regaining his senses. As if he couldn't believe it, he asked again.

"Say that again."

I took a deep breath, as if I had to muster up enough courage to say it a second time.

"I say, Peng Haobai, let's get divorced."

Outside, the rain was raging. It was as if the wind had become stronger.

Peng Haobai walked towards me step by step. When he was angry, it was like this, with a ball of fire in his eyes.

He stood by my bed again, reached up, pressed the switch on the wall, and switched on the light again.

Peng Haobai's shoulders tensed up, as if trying hard to suppress his anger.

I knew that would be enough to anger him.

"Lu Weian, I will give you one more chance.

I shook my head.

"Peng Haobai, you and I will be torturing each other now. "Why don't you divorce me? You can continue to live and drink outside, and I will give you my freedom."

"Give you your freedom?" He sneered, "Do you want freedom, or do you want to return to He Fang without any worries?!"

"Peng Haobai, it's not what you think."

"What's that?" Come on, tell me. He said that he was going to participate in the celebratory feast, what, accidentally got onto Mu Huainan's car? Do you really fucking think I'm a fool? When I helped you when you were abandoned by Mu Huainan, he was willing to take you, but now he is pushing me away like this? Do you really think laozi is that easy to fool? "

"That's not what I meant." I feel that I really have nothing to say when facing Peng Haobai.

After all, if it were me, I would think so too.

This was just human nature.

"When we get divorced, you must seriously look for a woman who loves you. You, Peng Haobai, are so outstanding, a wife that is better than me.

I lowered my head and seriously said, "Little White, I really just don't want you to continue being in pain."

Back then, I should never have done it. I dragged him into this mess and caused him to become someone as miserable as I was.

"Too late." He sat beside me and laughed bitterly: "It's already too late, Lu Weian."

"From the moment I first met you, this is the end, isn't it?"

In this world, there are many people who cannot control themselves.

"I'm sorry, Peng Haobai, I dragged you in."

"It's too late to say sorry now, but at least you have a chance to make amends."

I backed away a little more warily.

"Don't worry Lu Weian, I know you won't be able to kill Mu Huainan. My request is simple, as long as you obediently act as my Madam Peng for half a month, I will let you go."

"Half a month."

I frowned at him, wondering what he was up to.

"Don't think I don't know." He leaned over and pinched my chin, "You must have been led away by Mu Huainan because of your disappearance."

My whole body shuddered. "You know about this?"

He knew about this, but he remained indifferent. "You did it on purpose?!"

Peng Haobai shook his head.

"Don't worry, be a good Madam Peng. I'll help you."