Chapter 30 Painful Memories & First Tears



[In Rain's Room]

Rain was lying on the bed, deep in slumber, with a peaceful expression on his face.

His body was still, and his breathing was steady, indicating that he was in a state of profound rest.

While thinking about Emma and his past, Rain didn't know when he slept.

Even though Rain had been consuming potions and elixirs, his mind was exhausted and stressed from the intense training that he had been undergoing.

His mental fatigue and stress had accumulated over time, and he desperately needed a break.

As a result, he slept soundly on his bed, oblivious to the world around him. In his exhausted state, he had not even had dinner, which only contributed to his already depleted energy levels.

At some point, Mark entered the room to check on Rain. However, Rain did not respond to his calls, and because of that Mark entered the room.

Upon entering the room, Mark saw that Rain was in a deep sleep.

After seeing Rain's state, Mark simply left the room without disturbing him deciding that he needed rest rather than anything else.

In the middle of the night, Rain was stirred awake from his slumber by the constant nagging of his thoughts about the plot, Emma, Kaya, and the heroines.

Unable to find solace in his bed, Rain decided to venture outside and go for a walk.

To avoid making any noise, he used his "Shadow walk" technique and made his way quietly to the lakeside.

Even though he just got this skill yesterday, as he used it in Nameless Grave many times. His was somewhat adapted to it.

This was Rain's favorite location, and it happened to be conveniently located near his home.

Once he arrived, he settled down by the shore, taking a moment to sit and reflect.

The tranquility of the lake's surroundings and the calmness of the night gave him a sense of peace, providing some much-needed respite from his worries. Rain started thinking.

'I was introverted from childhood. In my previous life, I didn't have parents. Neither they came to me nor I found them.

However in this life, I have parents, and they care about me. I know they have difficulties with Kaya, uncle, and aunty's death. But what about me?'

One of Rain's death flags was also his relationship with his parents.

His parents didn't want to feel Kaya a lack of parents and they knew Kaya's hate for Rain.

Still, they did nothing. If only they did something, his and Kaya's relationship would be different.

'They also didn't do anything about Emma. If they had told me about Emma and canceled the engagement abruptly.'

'We still would be friends.' Rain lamented.

As he thought this, he felt how dumb it sounded.

'No, it's just my imagination.' Then he just shook his head.

'When they told me to stay away from Emma, I didn't listen. Now I'm questioning my decision. I don't think Emma, who seems to "hate men", would ever want to be friends with me. Why was I so foolish?' He couldn't help but question himself, wondering why he had made a foolish mistakes.

I also have the old dissolvment contract she gave me before the duel. Now I will have 2 of them. It will be like pairs.' Rain felt funny about this. A pair of contracts might look beautiful.

'Kaya will also make fun of me.

Yeah, she will beat me up duel and this time it would be solo. Because in the game, Rain at that time was still injured. She will also start making her faction after this in earnest.'

Although now he was healed, thinking about whether he will be challenged or Kaya will come up with another plot. Rain felt complex feelings.

'And my parents will do nothing.

Just like my every birthday, they will host a huge, grand ass party and give me money as a gift.

Still, I don't think I can't say about this. After all, I was the fool who said - Kaya is not a competitor, she is my sister. So treat her kindly whatever she does to me.'

Rain laughed at himself.

'How foolish I was? What kind of bug bit me to say this?' Rain wanted to beat his past self.

'You can say this will be the worst birthday for me. Even thinking about it. It pains me.'

Looking at the lake, Rain recalled that this was the place where he first met Emma.

That's the reason that this was his favorite place.

Rain downcasted his face, and started staring at his reflection in the lake.

Then he saw that a handsome man was crying there.

'Looks like for the first time in two lives I cried, huh.' Rain muttered inwardly.

"Hey Mark, you did the job I told you?"

Rain knew that Mark was hiding behind the tree. He follows him for security reasons many times. That's why he took Charles' permission before outdoor training, so nobody would follow him.

"Yes, you master."

Mark grimly answered. It looked like he didn't think - Rain knew he would follow him.

"Hey, Mark, you know, even with getting a chance to (reincarnate and) live happily ever after.

I can even resolve myself to do bad things, you know? And becoming a villain in everyone's eyes.

I can even withstand being hated by those around me, even my loved ones.

(Even died by hands of them whom I love.)

Even if they hate me, I just hopelessly love them.

But... This Loneliness is hard to bear."

After saying this, Rain quickly wiped the tears, and with a bright smile he said,

"Let's go, There are many things to do."

After some time, Rain returned to the room and slept comfortably.

Rain felt that shoulders were light like some heavy weight was lifted from there.

The pressure he endured till now by himself was lifted. The chains of relationships were not binding him now. He was truly free from everything.