Chapter 181 - Forgiven!

Noah pov.

"Alright, I will look into this matter." I replied seriously as I knew her intuitions were like foretelling. She had always predicted things well.

"Thank you, I know that I can count on you." she replied with a smile but she still continued to stand there.

Her eyes fell again on the towel and my whole skin crawled. Why was she so brazen!

"Is there anything else you need, my lady?" Sometimes it took all my patience and strength to talk to her.

"Ah.. no. I shall get going then.`` She finally left and I took a deep breath.

I looked at the towel in my hands and then put it back. If I went to the bath right now, her pervert eyes would follow me.

Since she had asked me to go and look for Oliver, I better do that until my raging heart calms down!

I walked out of the hut, which had become no less than the circus. When I saw Jose sitting there and reading a book. It had been years! Has she forgotten me completely? My face, my name!

I never missed her this much as I miss her now! 

"What are you looking at?" I heard a brooding voice and blinked only to see a man glaring at me.

"Pardon!" 

"You can not look at her highness so brazenly. Do you not want to live anymore?" The man threatened and I did not have words to describe what I was feeling.

"She is like my sister." She was my sister in the past. Until her mother killed my mother!' I replied trying to control the lump forming in my heart.

"Ha! I have heard this exercise too many times. If you would not have been with Sir Abigail, I would have taught you a lesson already." he snarled as his hands reached the hilt of the sword to show me the result of my actions.

"I apologize, I will not do it again." Living with both of them was more difficult than I had thought.

I turned and walked out of the hall with hurried footsteps when I bumped into William.

"This is the first time in my life that someone has bumped into me that brazenly." he mumbled, his voice more amused than Angry.

'Of course, since you were the one who always bumped me in the past when you kept running in my chamber and garden!' I wanted to retort but only bowed my head.

"I apologize, your highness. I did not see you coming." he chuckled listening to my apology.

"It is fine. Where were you going in such a hurry?" he asked as he looked straight into my eyes. Whenever he did that, it felt like he knew something.

"I am going to take a walk, your highness. This is my first time being here as a student.'' I replied, bowing down.

More than giving respect to him, I just wanted to keep my face hidden.

"Have you or your family been working in the palace? Or by any chance did you know the late concubine of the emperor?" he asked, and my eyes widened.

'There has not been a single day, and he has already related me with mother. What would happen if I lived here and he would notice my face further.' 

"I never knew that there was another concubine to his majesty except your mother, your highness." Thank goodness my voice came better than I had expected.

'It has been ten years since I was announced dead! There was no way that he would acknowledge me as his brother. If worse comes to worse, I will announce myself as a distant relative of myself and make an excuse that I have hid myself as I was afraid of death.' With that thought, I wiped my sweaty hands from the dress.

"Hmm. It was a matter of a decade ago, so people have forgotten about her. You know she also has a son. He has the same honey eyes as you.`` Why the hell was he telling me all that?!! Did he tell me about me to every new person he met or was it because I have the same eye color!

'Could he not see that my hair is red, not blonde!'

"He must be very close to you, your highness. Where did the child go?" I asked , looking straight in his eyes this time.

If he had the courage to talk about me then even i wanted to see, did he have the courage to face his guilt too?!

"He died because of me." he replied in a wet voice, making me stunned. 

I was not expecting him to accept it so easily.

"Your highness, there is an urgent matter that needs your attention." said his aide trying his best to break the conversation.

"That can wait," he said in a tone of authority.

"But your highness.." the man pleaded and I felt guilty too. Was he suffering because of my death all these years!

"I do not think that the kid will blame you, your highness. You must have been a kid too a decade ago.`` I have never thought that I would say that. I still blame him somewhere for what happened. 

But looking at his wet eyes and remorseful voice I felt more remorseful than him.

"Do you really think that he would forgive me for his death?" he asked like a dying man asking for water. Why! Why did my reply matter to him so much? I was nothing but a mere knight then why was he telling me so much?!

My rationality was telling me so stay away from this matter but my heart was clenching at it was panning so damn much that i could not bear to get rid of this feeling

"I think so, your highness. Everyone has their destiny pre written" i replied with as much serenity i could manage.

"Thank you." The man moved and hugged me with all his might leaving me shocked in his arms.