Chapter 205 - I Will Be Your Family

Noah pov.

"Your highness, even if you love me and want to marry me. There is no way that it is possible. As I have told you, I am a commoner and you are a noble. So, it would be better that you think about your marriage with his highness and living a royal life. 

You shall eat more too. Then i will escort you to your room.'' I replied as I took a piece of bread and started nibbling on it.

"I have not learnt to give up. And i will convince you one day, until then i will keep trying." said the lady with conviction as if i was a trophy piece she could win from the hard work. Never in this life would I accept a noble again. I would never return the path or thorn again.

"Until then let me enjoy your company this way. To spend some time with you, and have small conversations. It is not too much to ask. Is it?" She was speaking like she had faced many grievances but I knew better. She was just acting like she always used to do. Taking sympathy from everyone. She was just like other nobles, who used their emotions to get what they wanted.

"Noah, I am not like other nobles. If I would have been like them, I would have been flattering the crown prince, not you. It is not like marrying you brings me any benefits, yet you are the only one whom I see my future with." she emphasised as she held my hand.

When was the last time someone said that they loved me. The moment I have left the royal palace and lost my position as Calrise, the third princess, I have never met the people who love me! I had been a nobody, one who was hidden in the darkness.

I felt sudden warmth on my forehead when I was lost in thoughts, but when I opened my eyes, I saw her kissing my forehead. She was standing so close to me that I could feel her warmth on my whole body. Her distinct smell, and the touch of her skin.

I should have pushed her away, but I did not have this feeling! Was it because someone was seriously trying to come closer to me even when I could not give anything to them? But why would they do that!?

"I love you." here she said that again, as her hands wrapped on my shoulder and she looked deep into my eyes. Her eyes have a sincerity that I could not let go.

As if all the knots of my stomach that have been there since long, were slowly opening the way she was caressing my heart with all the sincerity she had.

No! What was I thinking! She was a princess and I have vowed to never get entangled with someone from royal blood again. I shook my head and hardened the walls, she had almost broken.

"My lady, you are wasting your time and energy. I am someone of unknown origins. No one knows my parents and my blood. Even if your family accepts a commoner, there is no way that they would accept someone of unknown origin, maybe I am a spy or part of a slave family." my words stunned her for a bit. 

"So, you finally realized that we are not at equal standing and we could not love each other?" I asked with a cold smirk on my face when she blinked and hugged me. 

"Oh, noah, do not tell me that all these years you have been alone. No one wished you on birthdays and festivals and no one  ever patted you to sleep at nights.'' Now it was my turn to be stunned.

Wishing me a happy birthday! I do not even remember when my birthday was! I.. have been alone since I was not even 6, so there was no way I remember much. Except for the gruesome death of my mother and mercenaries running from me, every memory was blurry, but still I never thought that I was missing the warmth of the family all these years, because it was better to be without them than live my whole life in fear of getting killed. Or worse, being killed that very same night by those mercenaries.

But the way she had tears in her eyes. Was she crying for the loss I never even felt instead? How did it feel when someone patted you to sleep!?

"You do not need to think so much, I am your family now. I will take care of you. I will tell you stories each night and wake you up with morning hugs and kisses. I will feed you from my hands and give you all the warmth of the family." she replied, hugging me as she rubbed my back like i was a kid.

She was not looking or behaving like the rude, haughty and lusty girl that she had behaved when we had met for the first time or the way she had behaved in front of William a few minutes ago. As if her whole personality had been changed. She was looking different now.

Yet the expressions of her eyes were looking much more sincere. But there was only one thing that i have learnt in all my life. Never trust someone, for your own family would not hesitate to kill you, if you are not useful to them anymore.

I moved away from her grip and held her hands tightly.

"You are not in your senses, my lady let me escort you back to your room." with that i did not wait for her reply and turned to leave. When I heard her calling me again.

"I have felt your emotions a while ago. You can hide behind the wall,  but I will continue to break it. You are the only one whom I love in this life, Noah." my steps halted and i turned to look at the girl who was looking at me with determined eyes.