Chapter 249 - I Have Finally Given Up

Abigail pov 

I thought that the lady would say a thing or two but she just left. Now I wonder if I was too direct? In her eyes, I was just a kid. She did not know that I had crossed that time period a long time ago. I sighed as I shifted on my bed once again. 

I did not know when my father would be back! Even if he would, how would I ask him about this?

I think me and Isabella should make a plan about it. I felt satisfied after that thought. I closed my eyes trying to sleep again. But anxiety still did not leave me. Why? I can not point out what was bugging me but there was something that was making me uneasy.

Even Beth left, now I could not even order her to bring a calming tea for me.

I sighed as I stood up and walked down. The maid on duty to sleep in the kitchen looked surprised when she saw me there.

"My lady, do you need anything?" she bowed and asked me when I nodded.

"I wanted to have the tea that father have bought recently.'' She nodded and walked towards the kitchen when I decided to walk a bit to calm my nerves.

"Who are you and what are you doing here?" I have not taken even a few steps when I heard her scolding someone. 

Normally, i did not interfere in the matter of the servants but i heard her shrieking and then silence ensued that made me uneasy. I decided to peek once when I saw a man dressed as the guard of the palace with a knife in his hand that had turned red. And the maid whom i have ordered to make tea was lying on the floor in a pool of blood.

"What did you do?" I asked and he looked taken aback by my sudden presence. 

He looked around confused. He didn't know what to do when he saw me moving towards him but then he pounced on me suddenly with the same knife in his hands. Too bad, the day I returned to this life, I always kept a weapon around me. I had already taken out the dagger when I moved towards him. I slashed his hands that were holding a knife and it fell on the floor with a clink sound. 

"Do you think it is so easy to kill me, huh? Do you think the postion of knights was given to me as a gift? You are a fool to try to infiltrate the palace of knights. Tell me who you are and what are you doing here?" I bent his hand behind his back and held him tight. 

"I am a thief. I was trying to steal!" he said, trembling and I put more pressure on his hand, almost breaking his bones in the process.

"Do you think I am a fool to believe that? Tell me honestly what you were doing here or i will kill you right here.'' I threatened as he winced and trembled. His hands were almost on the verge of breaking. He tried to struggle but it was fruitless.

"So you would not tell me this way? Alright, then do not complain later that I have not given you a chance!" I threatened and then kicked between his legs.

"Aahh '' he screamed as his knees gave out. I kicked again and again until tears filled his eyes.

"This is against the rule of war!" I laughed at the statement.

"Since when thieves have rules? I will torment you by kicking there until your tool get damaged yet i will bind you and kick you thousand of time there daily.'' I had expected him to be afraid but he laughed hard as if he had heard a great joke.

"You do not have the luxury to do that since you will die in a few hours." he needed not to explain more to me to understand that he was sent here to kill me but then haven't i caught him? Then how was he sure that I would still die?

My eyes widened as I realized it only meant that he had more allies with him.

"Do not forget that you are here with me. If I die, so will you. Now tell me what have you planned if you do not want to die a gruesome death?`` I asked as I kicked him a few times but the man did not open his mouth.

"Guards! Guards! I shouted but no one came. Though there were no knights in the palace these days, there were still 3-4 knights and a dozen guards. Shouldn't anyone be here listening to the commotion and my screams.

"Guards…" I shouted a few more times only to be mocked by silence in reply.

I frowned. There was something very wrong with the current scenario. I dragged the man and put the dagger on his neck again.

"Tell me how many of you are there and what is your plan?" He just ignored my threat. I pressed the knife further, realizing that I did not have any choice. His neck started bleeding but he still did not say anything when I heard a shriek from the upper floor.

Panicked, I hit straight on his neck, making him unconscious. He fell on the floor and I ran towards the upper floor but I did not see a single maid or knight on my way.

I coughed as smoke started filling my nostrils which was increasing with every step. That is when I realized the man was trying to set fire from the stove in the kitchen.

I ran waving my hands  in front of me when I soon saw flames that were high enough upto my waist.

Thank goodness the palace was almost empty. Isabella was still in the academy and father and brother were in the royal palace. So, I just ran towards the chamber of my mother. 

Her chamber was engulfed in flames. I took the curtain and tried to extinguish the fire but that was not enough.

"Damn!" I took another thick curtain and threw it on the flames but it was burning too fast. Even if I entered somehow, I would not be able to come back with her.

And if I ran down and tried to use the back area it would be too late. I took all the clothes and tried to put off the fire but the flames were already too high.

"My lady, you need to leave this area." I heard the sound of the head maid, the one who serves the mother from the other side.

"How are you and how is mother?" I shouted and the sound of coughing followed from the other side.

"We are fine for now. But we do not know how we can handle it. The smoke has filled the room completely and the flames are coming in." her voice was still calm even when she knew that she was going to die.

"Can you both jump from the balcony? I will ask all the knights and guards to spread the mattress down there.`` I shouted and then silence ensued.

"It would take a lot of time. I am afraid we do not have that much time." came the quick reply and tears welled my eyes.

"No, I will be quick. I promise. I beg you, Try to jump from the balcony." my voice was trembling so was my body. The scene was replaced by the events of the past.

"Save yourself, Abi. and take care of Isabella.'' Finally I heard her shouting. Had she sacrificed her life in the past too? Have I never noticed her sacrifice? Even when I was standing so close to the fire, my body was turning cold.

As if my brain had shut down, my senses started to leave my body as the fear of losing everyone again started to fill my body.

"No, no, now.. You can not die. You have to jump, you have to do it for Isabella. For Christ's sake you have to do it for me.`` I didn't even know what I was saying anymore. The images were turning blurry, my senses were losing and unconsciousness was spreading its arms toward me.

All the fears that I have hid in the closet have break free and are trying to rip me with their claws.

I fell on my knees when I did not hear any reply. No matter how much I struggled, my paths crossed the same fate! Was it a sign of god that no matter what I did, I was bound to die in the end. If that is the case, then I accept it. I… I do not want to fight against my fate anymore.

"Say goodbye to Isabella, Abigail" came the voice again and a mocking smile filled my lips.

"What would it change? I am tired too. Let me just close my eyes and rest. I have finally given up." With that thought I closed my eyes.