C61

Up to the Yan's Pet, Yan Ruize had never told me anything, nor had he done anything to make me misunderstand. I really don't understand, what does Yan Ruize want to do? I wanted to grab him and ask him what he was going to do. But I didn't have the courage.

I changed into my work clothes and went to work on the second floor, but I was too distracted to manage the puppies or to entertain the customers.

At lunchtime, I ate in the cafeteria with a few girls. A little girl looked at me worriedly and asked, "Sister Xueying, what's wrong with you today? Are you a little absent-minded?"

Xueying, there's something wrong with you today, is your body not feeling well?

Another girl carefully leaned over and whispered, "Xueying, are you jealous that Boss Yan and Miss Gu have been so close recently?"

"This matter, that's right, many people have been discussing this matter recently, saying that Miss Gu is Boss Yan's fiancee, that's easy to say …" The girl stopped talking as she reached the end of her sentence. I also knew what was behind her. It was probably about me losing my favour or something like that.

"That Sis Fu on the fourth floor is so annoying. She kept on saying that you, Sister Xueying, are Boss Yan's mistress and said that you had finally been beaten back to your original form. I almost tore off my relationship with her last time I heard it. "How infuriating."

I sighed. I didn't care about what he said. "Let them say it. Their mouths are on someone else anyway." Moreover, these words were not a lie. It was just that Gu Xilan wouldn't become Yan Ruize's fiancee. However, I naturally would not say these words to them.

Yan Ruize did not come look for me throughout the entire day. At night, I still saw him and Gu Xilan going out for dinner together, as if nothing had happened at all. It was as if the message I saw in the morning was just an illusion caused by me not waking up. At night, I returned home in a daze. The moment I stepped into the elevator, I suddenly felt the hairs on my body stand up. I remembered that He Yuejun kidnapped me the moment I stepped out of the elevator. I woke up with a start and pressed the button for the elevator to stop on the lower floor of the first floor.

After the elevator opened, I stuck my head out and carefully observed my surroundings. Using the light from the corridor to confirm that no one was walking up the stairs, I carefully stepped on the stairs and tried my best not to make any noise as I quietly made my way to the top floor of the house. When I was about to go out the stairs, my heart was thumping like it was going to jump in my throat. The corridor was lit up with a dim yellow light. I hid in it for a long time, listening attentively. After confirming that there weren't any sounds, I sneaked out of the corridor. There wasn't a single soul in sight until we reached the entrance.

I looked around to make sure no one was there before I took out the key and opened the door. The moment the lights were turned on and the door was closed, I collapsed onto the floor and followed the door. At this moment, the fear in my heart slowly dissipated. I wanted to cry, but there were no tears. In the end, I could only laugh out loud. I didn't know when or under what circumstances I was going to be killed. So I kept on my guard, feeling that the whole world was full of people who were trying to kill me, but I couldn't see who was trying to kill me, and I was scared, really scared.

I sat on the ground for a long time. After calming my mind, I felt that I was so stupid. I decided to go to bed early. When I just got up, I could hear the sound of 'hu hu'. My body instantly stiffened. This sound, could it be that it was a man's heavy breathing? I swallowed hard, and drops of sweat began to drip down my forehead.

I picked up a vase from the hallway. How could I care about the value of this vase? I thought to myself that if anyone threw it at me right away, it would be worth it. Knowing that I'm back, and even still laughing so loudly at the door, and adding the fact that Yan Ruize and Gu Xichao were together, then the person hiding at home must not be a good person, he's either a thief or a murderer!

My palms were already sweating, and my back was already soaked in cold sweat. My trembling lips were staring fixedly at the corner before me, as if I could already see the shadow in front of me.

"Ah —" I strode forward to knock on a vase, but there was no one in the hall, not a thing. There was a small opening in the hall window, through which the wind was blowing.

I knelt on the ground and put down the vase. I knew that I was scaring myself again. This kind of true fear made me tense up and I didn't dare to relax. Then I picked up the vase, went to each room, checked each room, locked all the windows, and turned on the lights in each room. It was only in this closed, bright environment that my fears could be relieved. I was sitting on the couch, exhausted and sweaty, and I didn't have the strength to turn on the air conditioner.

The door clicked and the knob turned. My heart rose again.

The one who entered was Yan Ruize. He frowned, slightly dissatisfied. He closed the door and took off his jacket as he walked. "Why didn't you turn on the air conditioner?"

He picked up the remote control and turned on the air conditioner, then looked down at me condescendingly. At this moment, I no longer felt fear. I felt a sense of release. I opened my mouth to say, "Kill me." In the end, he did not say it out loud. All he said out loud was, "Yan Ruize, be gentler to me." Let me die a little faster, don't let me suffer so much before I die again.

Yan Ruize obviously didn't understand what I meant. He sat on the sofa a meter away from me and smiled brilliantly.

Hearing Yan Ruize's question, I almost cried. I felt that if this continued, I would be driven crazy.

"Yan Ruize, I'm in so much pain now." I buried my face in my lap and sobbed softly. I didn't dare let Yan Ruize kill me directly, nor did I have the courage to say that I already knew about that message, because I still wanted to live, and I still wanted to live a new life. I am clearly not far from becoming a new student, so why is there such an accident now? I shouldn't have gone to the movies, no no no, I shouldn't have touched Yan Ruize's things, whether it was his computer or his phone. As long as I don't move one of them, I won't be in such pain. Why are my hands so cheap? Why can't I control my curiosity?

Really, it was painful.

Yan Ruize came over and hugged me, and directly kissed my lips without saying a word; I felt that my lips had been bitten off. I was not willing to accept it, I cried, and bit back towards Yan Ruize with all my might. The two of them struggled on the sofa before finally tumbling to the floor. I didn't know what I was doing. I just wanted to find an outlet. I wanted to prove that I was still alive. I wanted to stimulate my nerves with pain. I really want to live.

When I woke up the next day, I realized how bold I was last night, and I also realized that I had actually slept so soundly in Yan Ruize's embrace. One night, I didn't have the energy to worry about dying, nor did I have any nightmares. Amazing sleep.

Yan Ruize still sent me to the Yan's Pet as usual, and like yesterday, nothing unexpected happened. I am still the same soul, I am still like a frightened bird.

At noon, I saw Gu Xichen going up to the sixth floor, but I was actually foolishly waiting at the elevator until Gu Xichen came down.

When Gu Xichen saw me standing at the entrance of the elevator, he was slightly surprised.

I nodded.

Gu Xichen frowned: "What if I don't come looking for you, and instead go straight to the first floor?"

I didn't say anything. I was only feeling Gu Xichen coming back to find me, and right now, I was desperately hoping that Gu Xichen could give me an accurate answer. I already couldn't take the situation anymore. And the only thing that can change my mind is Gu Xichen's message. I have been looking forward to hearing from Gu Xichen that you can leave now.

Gu Xichen saw that I did not say a word, and seemed to be annoyed. In the end, he walked in front and said: "Go to the stairs first."

My heart was pounding, and my instincts told me that my chance had come.