Chapter 132 - The gift of your betrayal...

While Feng Jianyu was playing the melodious music, Xiu Mei was fighting with her inner emotions, which slowly rolled down through her eyes…..

'Jianyu, you were the knight of my life, the sunshine of my heart, the one that used to make me feel safe for my soul to break free from the shackles of this world and fly high in the sky…. You gave me the courage to fight for my dreams, your words were motivation, your touch was energy, and all that you were was home for me.

I used to wrap myself up with the warmth of your gestures towards me and sleep more soundly than a baby.'

'There was something in your eyes that was beautiful, that attracted me towards you. It was safe and warm, your one look used to give me the feeling of 'HOME'. Every day that we spend at the resort, there was something in between us, though I didn't know what. I used to wonder if there was an element of time between us that was making me feels so strongly for you, something that I was willing to carry on ahead.'

'We never asked each other's name, yet we were familiar to each other as if I was your reflection and you were mine. We used to exchange glances, some light touches, jokes, meal, dreams, music, and warmth. We were two strangers who were nurturing and protecting each other's dreams.'

'You gave so much warmth, care, respect and love to me that I wanted to stay there forever with you. Because you were the only one my soul feels safe with. You were the only one I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YOU'

'Falling in love with you was not planned. I wanted us to remain strangers or may be friends, but an invisible force pulled me towards you. Having you beside me made me feel like I can conquer anything.'

'This violin box was the box of my feelings. Feelings that I wanted to confess to you and tell you how much you mattered to me. But the very night I intended to surprise you with the gift, you surprised me with the bigger gift.'

''THE GIFT OF YOUR BETRAYAL'. How mercilessly you left me to die at the hands of that man and walked out on me. I begged you to save me, I begged you holding your feet to spare my life for once and let me live, yet you chose to turn deaf ear to my endless screams. How inhumanly you pushed me away as if I was a useless thing.'

'What was my fault? How did I wrong you that you pushed me like a scapegoat towards that man? How did I wrong that man that he chose to kill me? Was my life really that cheap? It's truly said, the savior is always greater than the slayer. If it was not for Xion and Mr. Zeng, who saved me that night and provided me with the best medical care, I would have been dead.'

'Because of your one wrong step, I spend two years of my life on a wheelchair. I've to go through the painful surgeries and physiotherapy sessions. I spend numerous nights tossing and turning in pain, because my body started reacting adversely to pain meds, causing the doctors to restrict the dosage. Because of your ruthlessness, I would never be the same Alice but just a vengeful Xiu Mei.'

The thought made her feel the sudden blood rush to her body, and she began to feel nauseous. Pressing her stomach with her hands she tried to calm down, but her attempt failed. She is unable to keep herself out from thinking more as her mind keeps on haunting her.

'Overnight, everything in my life changed… and now you're looking for another chance? Tell me how can I trust you? Tell me why should I trust you? You vanished after that night. And when we met after seven years you never explained to me about your behavior that night'

Her eyes drip with tears. Her walls, the walls that were holding her up, making her stronger all this while was shaking. The pain of heartbreak, betrayal, and death was coming to her in waves. She sobbed, sobbed hard only pausing to take breaths and then again cried her heart out. To stop her body from trembling she had clutched her hands tightly to her stomach. Her sobs were stifled by biting of the lips, to not let him show her vulnerable side.

'I know there are remnants of feelings in my heart. I know my heart still wavers at your advances. I know a part of me is still hoping that it was not you that night. And I also know that my silly heart is just looking for excuses to convince my brain to hear you out.'

'But, No… Never…. I won't give you another chance to trample over me again.…'

She had once loved him dearly but her heart was ruthlessly shattered into millions of pieces. The thought of going back and feeling the same pain again, made her feel uncomfortable in the chest and stomach.

Xiu Mei felt her head spinning. Her bite on her lips hardened as the pain swirling inside her heart was nothing if compared to the physical pain. All she wanted was to get over with this.

When Feng Jianyu went closer to her, he saw the blood oozing from her mouth. Her face wet due to crying, her eyes clenched tightly.…

"Mei?? What happens love?", He bent down and clipped her chin gently with his thumb and index finger and try to open her mouth to check the source of bleeding.

But, the next second she opened her feisty red eyes and gazed him. Her face crimson red, her eyes unfathomable, her neck stiff… Her temper fizzed with firework and then she exploded with unbridled fury…...

"Feng Jianyu, you...." Holding him by his collar she shouted, "Love? Do you even know the meaning of love?"