Chapter 122 - Fall into hell

Akito sighed, 'His jealous side is ridiculous.' But, unlike with his wife. He can control it. Does that mean Setsura isn't as important to him? These thoughts, however, vanished when the girl stood on her tiptoes and kissed him. His mind completely went black when he registered the feeling of the girl's lips on his. Ever since they started dating, no ever since he started kissing her, she's never done this before.

Setsura, what on earth is she doing suddenly?

Why is he even questioning that? If this happened before they started dating, then it would be normal for him to be suspicious. But, now they are dating, why is he so surprised?

Is she kissing him to change the topic? Akito never asked Setsura about what happened between her and Chauncey. They spent that night together - what did they do? At first, Akito thought the unspeakable happened between them. However, yesterday was Setsura's first time. The blood on the sheets, and the way she reacted was enough. So, nothing intimate happened.

No, there are different forms of intimacy. Maybe they got close differently? How can he tell whether Chauncey hugged her or not? Setsura deepened the kiss disrupting his negative thinking. Eventually, Akito wrapped his arms around her dainty waist and started kissing her back. With him joining in, it slowly became more and more intense.

Eventually, Setsura drew back from his lips. Both of them were panting heavily. 'So, it seems like just kissing her has this strange effect on him?'

"Didn't I tell you?" Setsura had a huge smile on her face. "I only like you, your the only person who could control a woman like me."

Akito is frozen stiff still, even when the girl pulled her lips away. He didn't know how to react. What does he say? Just moments ago, weren't they having a serious discussion, how did it end up with Setsura kissing him? Then again, there wasn't anything wrong with it. He enjoyed kissing her, it was very nice.

"The only one, huh?"

Setsura chuckled, "Yes."

Well, he can accept that for now. "Where do you want to go after we're done here?"

"A place with a nice view."

Akito raised his eyebrows at her remark, "You don't mind? I thought I was boring you."

"Well, it's not like it was bad."

He bent down and whispered in her ear, "If we're left alone much longer, I will..."

Each and every word that escaped his lips was beyond dirty. Even for somebody as calm as Setsura, it's normal for her to get fl.u.s.tered. Sure enough, the girl's face turned redder at his words. "Do you understand now? Teasing me is a very bad idea, my love."

"S—stupid Akito!"

Stupid, huh?

..

He gets separated from Setsura and ends up bumping into Natasha and the others.

"So, you're dating her?" Natasha asked as she stood beside him. Not too far from them, Victor was having fun teasing Chauncey. Chauncey doesn't change; he is still afraid of ghosts.

A deep sigh escaped his lips, "I am, going to lecture me?"

"Well, I wanted to make sure of some things regarding her. "

Akito knew where he was getting at.

He was sure that everyone was beginning to notice it, too, the glow that Setsura has been emitting. It's far brighter than anything anyone can ever imagine. Something so bright, almost like…. the sun. Setsura, she does not belong by his side. She belongs in the light, a place he discarded a long time ago.

"Besides that girl fits the description of the sun far better than I…."

Ah, so that's what it was. "Natasha, if you were me, would you tell her?"

"I see, so that's it," Natasha trails off, "The fact that you would ask me something like that means you plan to tell her."

"I guess. Just awhile ago, I decided. That's why I don't want to change my mind. I have to end this before I lose my determination. The resolution I tried so hard for will become useless. I wonder if thinking like that and getting impatient is nothing more than me being selfish," Akito looked down at the ground, " I already decided, so I won't stray again. I wonder if that's just because in the end it will be easier for me. Even though the one who will be hurt when I say it will be her."

"Akito, I'm sure she will..."

Akito placed his hand on his forehead, " If I say that this time. It would sound like my cowardly thoughts will come spilling out."

Right now, it feels like his emotions are going to spiral out of control.

"I'm afraid to tell her. What am I supposed to do? No matter what I come up with, I feel like I will mess things up. To decide what's right, I only thought about myself just like that time…" Akito balled his fists at the memory.

Somebody, please tell him what he can do? Can he always be correct, just like that person?

Suddenly Natasha grabbed hold of his collar, " Then if you're confused, just tell her upfront. ' I love you. Stay with me forever. Those five words may seem silly, but in the end, you'll be surprised at the effect of them."

Akito doesn't reply, and Natasha continued, "Well, I already knew you were an idiot. You're the type that is afraid of change. Like you can't even see what's happening in your surroundings."

Oi, that's not how it is. Akito noticed that his pipe was out of smoke.

Natasha's gaze softened. "However, I understand since I'm the same type as idiot as you," she pulls away from him and hands him a cigarette. It was a western cigarette and lighter, but it would do.

"So, I will apologize in advance. I understand how you feel, but I can't save you like before. No back then, that wasn't me saving you. It was only a temporary measure," Natasha's gaze fell on the sky, "It's sad. But it often happens."

"It does?" Akito mumbled half confused and half wondering.

Natasha laughed, "Yes. The more you think about it, the more your thoughts go back and forth. But being lost is better than somebody who has gone astray. Actually, it's the same thing. If you continue this way, soon the opportunity to change your situation will vanish too. Your an idiot who tries to hide their shame and use somebody as camouflage. The lowest of the low."

"Hey, are you advising me or insulting?"

"This is advice," Natasha smiled. "These kinds of people can't complain if they end up in hell. Well, the endless cycle of worrying is already hell. You're already tired of it, aren't you?"

Akito laughs a little, "Haha, that's right. I'm really tired." He's so exhausted. He didn't want to enter another relationship. But, here he is again.

"In that case, isn't it fine? Even if you end up in hell again, Just a change of feeling wouldn't that be better. Just stretch out your hand to the girl you love and fall into hell with her."

"I guess so."

"Well then, it's time for you to find her."

Akito nodded and swiftly left.