Chapter 164 - That one person

Showing weakness in front of other people is something she always tried to avoid. The moment somebody like her who is not wanted or accepted by anyone shows weakness is the moment she loses. Once people grab hold of your weakness, they will be prone to letting it go.

"Your thinking negative things again."

"Ah, quit it, this is your fault."

Akito laughed.

Whenever she is with this person, she ends up breaking down so quickly. So unfair, even though she is usually so strong, composed, and indifferent.

"But, thank goodness. You seem to be a bit better than before."

He really notices everything about her, even the little things. "Well, I admit that even now, many things are going on. But it's getting better."

She doesn't wake up in the middle of the night as much anymore. Doesn't wake up screaming, or in pain, doesn't wake up with tears. It still happens, she won't deny that. But unlike before, her situation is better. She can calm herself down a lot quicker too. The reason why that is, Setsura glanced over at Akito. It's because of this person, huh?

"No matter what I do, even if I keep quiet, there will be someone out there who will judge me. That's fine. I can't control people's opinions. It's up to them to decide what my actions mean to them," Setsura walked over to the window. "In the past, it used to bother me quite a bit — people's opinions, what they thought of me. I was afraid of making mistakes. What if I did something wrong?"

"Setsura..."

"But that's fine now. It's true I still have those insecurities and worries. For me, if there is still one person who is willing to accept all my flaws and understand me, then that's enough. If it's for that person, I will do anything."

Akito's gaze turned soft, "I can't say I disagree with that logic. You've always said wise things."

"Wise, don't make me sound old."

"Mmm, you're not old. You're younger than me, cute and adorable."

"I don't want to hear that from the guy who says condescending things whenever your not in a good mood."

His sweat fell, "You know I don't mean those words, right?"

"I wonder myself," she trailed off. "You know Akito; there have been plenty of occasions where your words and your actions have hurt me. Even before we started dating. But that's fine, no matter how much we bickered and fought. I still cared for you. Maybe it's because we haven't found our real selves yet. Once we do, do you think we will stop talking like this?"

"You're contradicting yourself."

Setsura laughed, "Perhaps I am."

"But, it's not like I don't understand where you're coming from. The real you, the real me - I guess we will find out in due time. If we stop talking, we stop. However, even if there are no more words between us. My feelings won't ever change."

This moron, why does he have to ruin her grand speech by saying something like this?

"Still, you should be careful with your words Setsura."

His voice was low, and Setsura sensed the change in atmosphere. She could barely hear his words since she felt the storm raging inside her heart. She had never heard him speak like this before. Setsura thought she knew everything about Akito, but it seems like that isn't the case here.

Setsura understood his behavior patterns, well enough. So, she knew that the current Akito was serious.

He turned to look at her; then, she felt the weight of his gaze and could see his control break. It never occurred to her that Akito has been struggling and holding back his desires for her. Even though they lived with each other for so long. Akito waited until they were dating before he touched her. Setsura assumed it was because he did not find her attractiive She doesn't have enough charm for him. But, looking at him now. Setsura understood that wasn't the case at all. She gulped as she felt Akito's gaze.

"Remember, you're the one who said not to get too attached."

"I remember, and I don't care either."

Akito's lips curve to a smirk, "I see, you're that careless." And maybe she is, but so what? Besides, she already knew what kind of game he was trying to play with her. Akito is trying to push her away. He's trying to make her hate him. What a stupid move. If Akito really wanted to make her hate him, he wouldn't resort to threats. Akito knows what makes her uneasy the most. If he wanted to do it, he would have done so by now. Cheating on her, that is. There is a perfect person he can use too.

Akito placed in front of her, "You seem to be in thought again. That's why I brought you here."

He noticed, huh?

"If I kissed you right now, would you see that guys face?"

"Just tell me…" He leaned in. Akito was less than five centimeters from her face. She held her breath. "Who do you see when I do this?" When their lips met, her eyes widened and then slid shut. At that moment, it was like she lost all control and sense of herself. Because not only did she kiss him back, she kissed him back with passion equal to his.

His mouth felt soft and warm, despite how passionately he was kissing her. There was something gentle about his mouth, his tongue that suddenly intruded inside. Setsura felt her entire body burn at his touch, so when he laid her down on the couch. She wrapped her arms around his neck, drawing their bodies closer. Akito pulled away slightly to remove her clothes; he did it with such speed that it rendered her speechless. What's more, he didn't tear her outfit; the clothes she spotted on the side were still in tac.

She supposes this is a technique all on its own. Now she had no clothing on, Setsura realized how chilly the room was. There is no heating in this makeshift medical quarters. The cool winter air that blew in made her shiver. Akito gently caressed her hair, "You'll get hot in no time."

'Shameless man.' Setsura wanted to argue but felt his lips graze against her b.r.e.a.s.ts. So shameless. However, she doesn't dislike it. "Nngh," a light m.o.a.n passed her lips as Akito started to suck. It made her knees feel weak.

If they no longer needed words, then all he has to do is prove it with his actions. Just like he is doing now, Akito isn't a player. So him sleeping with a girl means that girl is important to him.

"You did all this for me; you look beautiful, Setsura."

"I didn't do this for you."

Akito laughed, "Your such a stubborn girl."

Stubborn, huh? Whenever she hears these words from other people, pain would appear in her heart. Because the people saying those words to her have bad intentions. However, Akito isn't like those people. He is telling her these words, not for something bad. "I'm stubborn, but maybe I'll be honest today."

"Honest, eh? What do you want to tell me, Setsura?"