Chapter 251 - Get a clue

The girl's question surprised him. For a split moment, Yang froze in shock. Is she starting to remember things? That guy said they were side effects. Is this what he was talking about? He ought to be careful. Still, it doesn't seem like she has any idea yet.

"Of course you are," Yang replied calmly.

Setsura placed her hands on her head, "You keep telling me this. But once in a while, my mind gets fuzzy."

His gaze dimmed when he heard those words. "When you woke up, we were lying next to each other in the same bed, remember? You weren't restrained in any way, and all the servants call you young miss."

Yang already made preparations for this, even before she forgot.

"I know," Setsura nodded. "I'm sorry for asking strange questions," she gently kissed his cheeks. "Are you going to work long? I wanted to go shopping."

"Just a few more meetings. Do you want to wait for me here?"

"Is that alright?"

Yang nodded. The people here already saw Setsura with him. They won't dare try to do anything to her. Even if they tried, Yang wouldn't let them go.

As long as she doesn't regain her memories, things can remain like this between them. He won't have to hurt her; he can treat her previously. His gaze fell on her luscious lips and brushed his fingers there. "Did you do something to your lips?"

Why does it look like it's sparkling?

He buried his face in her hair, the sweet scent of her shampoo filling his nose. She's so beautiful. "Yang?" Setsura mumbled. "Are you alright?"

"Yeah, I am now."

All she has to do is not remember, that's simple right? 

…

He rushes his work.

For some reason, Yang felt uneasy. The entire time during his meetings, he kept glancing over at her. Will she remember? Or won't she?

The medicine has side effects.

Of course, it does, but Yang didn't think there would be this many. He wants her to stop taking it. However, if she stops even for a day, won't she remember something? He doesn't want that. He would lose this moment with her. It's something he cannot afford to do, no matter what.

The next few hours can be said to be similar to hearing constant screams from a torture house, yet along the way, those screams turned to m.o.a.ns with his touch. His gaze darted towards the girl who had already filled the bathtub up with bubbles and had gotten inside. He probably shouldn't touch her any more than this; it isn't good for her.

When Yang decided this, he made makes his way inside, not before he wrapped his arms around the girl kissing her softly on her shoulders. "Does it hurt?" he asked.

"It's fine, the pain ks all gone now. So relax, okay?"

Yang managed a nod as he climbed inside the bathtub, letting the bubbles soak his body. His gaze darted towards the tattoo, the flower, and the lock wrapped around his neck. It was a symbol that they belonged to each other. Back then, it was something essential for them to show their affection this way, yet he wonders what sort of meaning it has now.

Does it even hold any significance at all? This isn't an official relationship. Yang didn't know what that man wants with Setsura. But, even he could tell it wasn't anything good.

In her favor, huh? Yang shifted closer and closer until he has her back against the wall. He brought his lips to her stomach and planted deep kisses there.

"Yang annn.. ."

He has to stop; he has to stop. The tattoo thing just now and the jealousy from this morning aside. He is not feeling so upset for them to do anything, and yet that does not stop him. This is a place for talking, a place for them to talk about mundane things like before. Although they cannot return to the past, he should still be able to go through with this.

Yang gradually attacked her neck again, but this time more harshly. Deeper and deeper, he wants to... mark her entirely as his. Since when? Since when did such possessive feelings appear in his head? "This is my bad."

"I feel slightly cold, Yang."

"Then, let's go out of the bath," Yang would be lying if he said he didn't want to do more. To think, he hasn't done anything to her yet. Is it because he understands that this relationship isn't real? The thought bothered him greatly. Why can't he make this relationship real?

For a long time now, he's wanted to quit, anyway. Quit being a member of the mafia. He wants to live a normal life. After what happened with his first love. Yang realized that he no longer wanted to get involved in these dangerous things.

"You don't have to worry," Setsura said with light laughter as she wrapped her arms around his back. He could tell from her clumsy actions how awkward all of this was for her.

"But if you did, then I could just carry you around in my pocket all the time, and you wouldn't have to wait for me anymore."

"I do not understand what you're trying to say."

"Well, get a clue."

Understand it already. Understand just how incredibly important you are to him. And yet he doesn't want to defile you. No, the truth is, Yang wanted to lay his hands on her body whenever she is cold. He wants to be able to touch her and share his warmth without thinking of any consequences. "Just how many times have you saved me?"

Setsura gave him a puzzled look. "But, Yang, didn't you save me before?"

Yang felt his heart speed up when he hears the girl's words. What is this? Does she remember, after all?

"You remember?"

"A little. You saved my life and then took care of me. We fell for each other then?"

'She doesn't,' Yang muttered. According to that person. Even the slightest memory could reduce the medicine's effects.

"We did. I understand that it's hard for you. But, I hope you can learn to adjust and get used to me. Before we get married."

"Marriage," Setsura mumbled. "When is it?"

"It's up to you. When you feel better, tell me. We can have it then."

Setsura nodded and buried her face in his neck. "Yang, I can see how much you care for me. I'm no idiot. I know you're in love with me. I don't doubt your feelings. But, I question my own. Is it okay for me to be with you when my heart feels unsettled?"

It seems like erasing a person's memories guarantees nothing. Or maybe Setsura's feelings for Akito are stronger than he thought? That unsettled him. If it's like that, then Setsura will eventually regain her memories. What will he do then?