Chapter 281 - Already regretting

*UNEDITED*

"He headed to the place my best friend called him to confess to him. Senpai had a traffic accident and became one of those who could never return. That became a trauma for the girl who called him. Even now she is still being degraded by being the passive type. Conversely, after that accident, I took of my passive roll type self. By what way I'm not sure. But I've come to strongly think that I can no longer remain the same way. If I get rid of my passive self, then I don't know when he will disappear in front of my eyes. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

Setsura nodded, so that's why she became a girl like this? Something bad happened to her first love, and she ended up filled with regrets. In the end one can't underestimate a single day. You never know when you will never see that person again. One must treasure every conversation - time as a whole.

"I've been thinking that it's stupid to think that reserve is a virtue. But I feel that Yashanaru-san is disapproving of the me who is thinking like that. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

Setsura gave a light nod.

"The women who use other women frankly in fact used quite a load of calories and effort you know? It's quite stressful after doing a bit of acting or being childish. . .? "

Setsura didn't know when it was but she found her feet turning in the opposite direction. Kaoru was too busy and didn't notice a thing.

'Akito, gee what are you doing. Your necktie.'

'Setsura.'

She clenched her fists, it seems like she regrets it already. Only a short amount of time has passed and yet look at her missing Akito. It's alright, this is how things are meant to be. She knew full well that the thing with Yang was only an excuse. Yang and her barely did anything. While it bothered her slightly, it wasn't enough to change her mind. However, Setsura knew she could no longer act the same way around Akito anymore.

...

The fight may have ended for now and from the looks of his findings, for awhile there will only be skirimishs and it'll be peaceful. But now that there's nothing to do, her thoughts will go back to the problems she had originally. With Yang and then with Chauncey Long, the two towards her probably still have feelings for her. Even though she thought it was all settled amongst those guys already.

That guy is also included that bunch isn't he? She really does have to convey it to everyone properly soon. It isn't really Yang's fault that all of this happened, it was partly hers for driving him to a corner. That's right, if she only conveyed it properly from the start then Yang wouldn't have had to --- in the end, things probably haven't changed all too much. Driving people to a corner and bringing out the bad in them, rather than the good. Truly, there may be no salavation left after all.

With that guy, it's just about time isn't it? She will have to tell him eventually. Even if she tries to avoid it he's going to find out. If that's the case then the news should definitely come from herself. It should come for herself and then he can finally hate her.

Her thoughts broke of when Yang hits her head with a few papers, "Don't space out, you also have to pay attention so you know how to help them."

"Right. ."

"Listen, I dont know what happened. But judging from your expression your probably trying to resolve something in one go like that. " Oh, he's right. Yang continues, "You don't have to do that. I don't know what's troubling you,but isn't it best not to rush things? For you to be making such a face it's something important, that's why you don't have to decide right away. If your doing this for other peoples sake like I'm sure you are. Then I'm sure those people will understand. No matter how long it takes for you to say it.. Well you've always been clumsy so im sure even if i say this you will keep pondering about it for a long time. That can't be helped since that's just how you are, but if you ever run in to problems you can consult in me."

. . .ah it's this feeling again.

A few times in middle school she got this feeling around that person , like her heart would become lighter whenever she talks to him. It's been a long time since she last had this feeling around him. But as expected it hasn't gone away.

"Setsura?"

"Thank you so much Yang."

Yang looked away, "I'm really not used to you acting like this."

Setsura laughed, "Right."

To her surprise Yang suddenly lifted her up and carried her over to the couch. His fingers darted towards the strap of her dress, and Setsura flinched. "No."

"You really don't want to? Damn woman, so frustrating."

"If you want that so badly, go to your other girls."

"I'm a loyal guy, we would have to break up if I did that.'

'Then maybe we should break up,' Setsura however kept those words to herself. He would surely misunderstand if he heard that. Yang buried his face in her chest, and Setsura ran her hands through his hair. For a moment they simply relaxed that way. But, then he suddenly lowered her clothes to reveal her b.r.e.a.s.ts.

"Yang," Setsura said sharply.

"Damn, you look so f.u.c.k.i.n.g beautiful. How did I get so lucky to have you return to my side?"

"Using despicable means."

Yang chuckled, "You still returned to me Darling."

"Why can't you be more of a player!"

"Huh? You want me to degrade you? Well alright, I didn't know you had strange tastes."

"That's not it," Setsura covered her face. She was a person who seldom showed her emotions. But, there are people who can evoke this side of her. "I just wonder what I did to deserve you. I mean, I didn't exactly present myself as girlfriend material when we first met. We often argued, and I said a lot of hurtful things to you."

"Not like I was any better, don't worry about it."

How can she not worry? One by one, she is regaining memories that she does not understand very well.

"Setsura, let me do it with you."

"I don't think we should," Setsura shook her head. "You know how things are right now."

"Setsura, you don't have to hold yourself back for Akito's sake."

"We really shouldn't, so don't be like this. Is this the only way for you to show me your feelings? You can't do it differently?"

"I'm a man of little words from the start," Yang drew back from her and sat up. "You win for now. But, don't keep doing this."

'Is that a silent threat?' Setsura knew she was acting unreasonably. But, he should respect her wishes too. She shook her head and fixed her clothes up. She picked up the doc.u.ments on the bedside table, and rummaged through them. She recognized them immediately. These are the files for the case she was working on right before that attack happened.

He must have had great difficulty fetching it for her.