Chapter 360 - (2019: Case 02) Part 11

*UNEDITED*

Then again, it was the same with his wife. He changed because of her. Changing after meeting a single person, he feels like a simple person. 

"What is it?" Akito asked despite his fl.u.s.tered state. He didn't realize that this girl could have this type of effect on him.

"Even though I gave you the necklace to stop me, you didn't. Since you realized if you were to do so now, I'd only end up hurt right?"

She figured it out? Of course, she did. Akito scratches his hair and looks away, as the girl continues, "Really, you've always been so foolishly kind. Not as kind as that person. But, I'm always being spoiled by your kindness. "

Even if that's the case, Akito still feels like he hasn't spoiled her enough.

"You always express your gratitude so strangely Setsura," Akito didn't know how to react to her words. Is she trying to imply something else? Whenever she talked about anything, there is a hidden meaning behind everything. 

Akito wanted to make sure he doesn't miss anything important.

"Is that so? I thought that was a straight forward confession if I say so myself.."

Why is she calling it a confession now? Although people do use the word confession for something other than romantic purposes.  Akito isn't comfortable hearing it from her now. If she says something like that, he wouldn't be able to control himself.

He shifts over until he backed against the wall, he will lose control of himself. It already feels like he will go crazy. She is right here in front of him but he still can't do anything.

"It looked like you were holding something back just now. That's why I said those words, did it get you agitated? If so I'm sorry. But, I like it better when you're being straightforward with me."

Damm, Akito sighed, "Setsura, you are making this difficult for me." He didn't know what to say to her. Why is she suddenly acting so honest? He never saw this side of her before.

Akito knew even before they dated that Setsura had a complicated personality. Even with her lost memories, she had a very difficult personality to deal with. But, did that matter to him? Even if she has the worse personality in the world, nothing will stop him from loving her.

When I think about it my heart swells up with so much pain. Even though you guys have always been there for me and showing me your love, I could never return it and instead cause you all pain."

He shook his head, as he shifted their position so there was some space between them. "It's not your fault. Setsura you said it before, that love comes unexpectedly. What was it again? Something like crashing into your life like a metoire."

"Ah, that's right. It really does have such a impact like that. I'm in love with my fiancée, I can't say it's my final choice yet since he won't let me. But the feelings I'll convey behind my recent action may be directed towards him only."

"Ouch that hurts to hear," he joked. "But, I can bear with it."

"Akito?" Setsura said sensing his different tone.

Akito gave her a bitter look, 'this girl does not understand does she?' "I'm jealous you know? However, unlike before we had those talks in J, and even the night before you left. I feel a lot more at ease and calm. How to put it, there has been a change in my mental state recently."

"Mental state?" she repeated.

"Yeah, I spoke to someone about it. By someone I mean it was only Natasha. It was difficult to tell her about it honestly. And when I finished telling her about it, I felt relieved in more ways than one. Moreover, I've dealt with youth a lot recently. So I remembered many things about you, and about myself. And I became capable seeing it objectively. I always thought that I only experienced bad things in the past but I started to think now that it wasn't like that. I was able to live as a normal kid despite my family background, and I had an ally, someone who acted as my hero also, and a person I fell in love with. Those three things all described you. It was because of you that I saw the light, when I thought about it that way. I feel like talks about the past will carry more light than darkness from now on."

That's right, even though it may still be difficult for them to properly talk about everything in detail. They have already had many short talks regarding the matter. What happened that time too too; as well as the fleeting moments they spent together when he started to drop by openly to see her.

His thoughts broke off when he felt the  warmth of her hand pressed against his cheek. Their foreheads softly brushed against each others. His eyes widened, 'Ah..' What is she trying to do now?

"If someone is near death in the south

He goes and says, "Don't be afraid"

If there are strife and lawsuits in the north

He demands that the people put an end to their pettiness

He weeps at the time of drought

He plods about at a loss during the cold summer

Everyone calls him Blockhead

No one sings his praises

Or takes him to heart . . .

That is the kind of person I want to be " she whispered ever so quietly.

"Setsura you. . ."

"I can't say anything now, even if everything is settled in my heart. That's why, while there is still time. Allow me to convey how special and important you are to me. The senpai now will surely be able to understand it, the kind of person I want to be," she trails off and laughs softly, as he could see the small droplets of tears from her eyes. "Is that selfish of me I wonder?"

Akito his head as he squeezed their hands together,  "It's not selfish. I understand Setsura."

He understands it. He has done ever since that time. Since he saw her and that person fight side by side each other, a apart of him already felt it then. The strength between the thread wrapped around the two of them. However, none of that mattered to him. Even if he isn't the one for her, he still wants to help her out. No matter what happens, he won't let go of this hand a second time.

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Yang didn't know what Akito was thinking. However, he recalled what happened when he brought Setsura to that girl's funeral not too far back. Of course she had to wait until all the guests left, he wouldn't let her go when so many people were around.

'All humans must die someday.

It's just a matter of sooner or later '

Once he quit the world of yankees. Yang expected, no he expected to completely escape the darkness in his life. He thought he would be able to burry away that dark past and live normally. Well if you call not being able to walk the streets peacefully due to the ambushing of fans normal then yeah he was living a pretty normal life. At the beginning he really did dislike that factor. In the end idols are humans too there not anymore special then anyone else. Yet in others eyes they appear to be individuals that must be worshipped. 

At the end has anything really changed from back when he was in the underworld. What is he saying? Of course something has changed, its different in comparison to before. He's an idol now. He lives a completely different life then before. 

Yang didn't such a phone call. 'Yang, you have to come has been...'. That's right, his way of living is different now. Yet why did this have to happen?

....

Year 2019- A few days ago

His gaze lands on the red head girl who laid in the coffin peacefully and clenches his fist. Damm it, Yang wasn't very close to the girl. But he knew her well enough.

A hand clasped on his shoulder, "Momoi."

"Sorry. I should have kept watch of her instead."

Yang isn't his head, " Your not to blame". She isn't to blame. This is his fault. He's the one who disbanded the group in the first place. He's the one who left them all behind. To do whatever they want to follow someone knew.

That woman just had to choose Setsura of all people. 

Out of all the people she would recklessly follow, it had to be Kaname Setsuta. 

That girl had been someone who he got along with rather well before. Though back then she was only a trainee, and yet still had to go on any proper jobs. That was three years ago, to think the carefree girl from back then would end up like this. A girl who was never meant to get caught up in this mess in the first place. Someone who only joined this side of the world to pay of her step fathers debut. Someone who just wanted to support her family and ensure they made a living.

Momo shuts her eyes and shakes her head, " You aren't either."

His thoughts broke off when the doors opened revealing Setsura. 

Setsura...

Yang only briefly told her about it, so he wasn't sure whether or not she would come. It seems like he underestimated her investigation skills.

She brushes past him and the model and walks up to the coffin, he watches her place her hand on the girl's hair. "It's better to get killed then disappear, I said that to you then. But in this instance I would rather have you disappear."

He watches the girl's eye color change emerald, "Sorry, for you it would have been best if you just died peacefully. But like this you'll be in hell, anyway. That's why" he watches her lean forward and kiss the girl's forehead, " Rest in an eternal dream."

Shin recalls it then quite clearly what she said.

'The feeling of being scared... I've forgotten it already  '

Is she....really not afraid?

Someone died already. Someone who was just living there life normally. This is already a matter that can't be left aside anymore. 

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Present Tokyo 2019

Still, Yang watched the two fighting alongside one another. A bitter smile appeared on his face. Is he destined to lose her no matter what?  Yang already knew from the beginning that their love would not have a fairytale ending. However, he still wanted to try. Was he that foolish to think so?