Chapter 372 - Better than being alone

*UNEDITED*

When she was together with Akito, he waited for her. He waited until she was ready, even then he didn't do it with her every day. He treated her more preciously. Setsura tried not to compare the two. After all, they are both completely different from one another. It would be rude of her to compare them. Setsura understood that better than anybody. Yet when it came down to it, she compared the two of them more than she thought. At first she only compared the small things.

One thing Setsura disliked the most about Yang before was how pushy and unreasonable. While she understood that he is simply clumsy at expressing his emotions. Ever since they dated, they've seldom spoke about anything serious.

She can't get caught up in this again. Setsura stepped on his foot causing him to let go of her. "H--hey! Setsura?"

She quickly fixed up her clothes and turned to leave. But, Yang wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Hey, listen to me. Why are you trying to run away?"

"Let go of me, do you know close I am to breaking up with you these days?"

Yang sighed, "I know that, that's why I'm trying to sort things out. Don't make this difficult for me."

'Don't make it difficult for him?' She's the one having a hard time right now. Setsura turned around. "Are you serious about me or not? Do you understand our situation Yang? If people find out were together here, it will look badly on both of us. Both our careers will be at risk."

The place at ST rinkan academy, she already knew there was a chance she would loose it. But even then Setsura knew they would keep the place for her. However if these rumors emerged then all her hard work and effort would disappear. 'What a terrible thought.' Would this not be the perfect time to choose love over her dreams?

Yet painting is so very important to her. Without Art she wouldn't have found a place in this world. That's why, she can't let it go so easily. 

Yang ran his hands through his hair. "I know, sorry. I won't ask you to choose there too. And I am trying to keep our relationship on the low side."

"Do you think flirting with other girls will cover that up? Was that your grand plan?"

"Hey, I'm not doing it deliberately.."

"Even then I feel like you have no respect for me."

Setsura felt Yang's lips on her neck, causing her to shudder. "I'll respect you darling, just make me happy."

The relationship she has with Yang - there is only one word to describe it. A toxic relationship. Setsura knew that from the very start, even when she was dating him in the future. Yet she never pushed him away. Back then, it was fine for her. She just wanted to feel warmth, no matter what kind. It did not matter to her even if she had no feelings for him.

"I...no, please tell me the truth already," Setsura muttered. She ought to continue scolding him.. She could even leave, and everything would return to normal between them.

Whenever they fight, Yang does not keep up the argument. 

Still, whenever they fight. Setsura recalls the time when he came during the symphoia incidence, even then. She felt something amiss, something wrong. It did not take Setsura long to realize what that something was missing. She was very happy being with him. However, Yang is the same as her. Is that why she felt comforted being by his side?

Her thoughts broke off when he pushed her towards the wall. She hit her head slightly and yet Setsura didn't look away from him. The wall on her back felt so very cold.

He gradually closed the distance between them. Setsura did not know what she was expecting from him. But she did not close her eyes, she kept them wide open. Yang brushed his lips against her neck.

"You're really an idiot, you know? I'm a guy. A really ruthless one. You should know that after dating me. When we went out then, I cheated on you plenty of times. You knew didn't you?"

That's right about Mizuna. Before Mizuna even told her, before the others even warned her. She was already aware of what happened. Yang on the outside, it looks like he doesn't care about anyone else. He acts like a ruthless guy who doesn't care about anyone's feelings. That's what it really seems like. In most cases, only girls who enjoy fooling around would go to him. Setsura knew that 

"Are you close to them, the girls you mess around with?" Setsura asked.

"I don't see myself as close to them."

"Then why are you together? Doesn't it only make you feel loneliner?" Setsura questioned.

"It's better than being alone," Yang said, and leaned towards her neck gently kissing it. He turned to her again, "Are you any different? From those girls? Weren't you just filling in your loneliness? Minori was the same. Even if she appeared to have feelings for me. For awhile it worked. She forgot about that guy. It worked. She could pretend and always stay with me. However I could tell, whenever we were together. The person she was always looking at was that guy. She was just filling the void trying to love me. Sem was the same too, even though he longed liked Kara from the beginning. All of them were all telling lies, in order to fill the void in their hearts. Setsura weren't you doing the same thing too?" Yang asked.

Setsura didn't reply to him right away. Rather since he started speaking, he rendered her speechless. The confidence from Yang's face had vanished. Nothing but pain remained. She reached over and gently caressed his cheeks. She was too harsh on him earlier when she pushed him away. However, Setsura had to do it. 'If she didn't then they'd end up circling each other again. Going around in circles is no good.'

They don't have much time left together. Setsura knew she could no longer deny it, the time she has with Yang will end soon. That's why before that happens, they need to talk properly.