Chapter 50 – Unnoticeable Heartache
For two days from today to Saturday and Sunday, a study session will be held at Moriyama-kun’s house.
Last night, Haruko-chan suggested that we have a spur-of-the-moment sleepover, but I couldn’t contain my excitement, so I woke up early in the morning and left home early this time too, heading for Moriyama-kun’s house.
I thought it would be bad if everyone was asleep, so I sent a message to Auntie and Haruko-chan, saying “I’ll be there before 7 o’clock. Sorry to disturb you so early.”
I was saying hello to Dozle-kun in the garden when I arrived, and Auntie immediately came out and said, “Himeka-chan, welcome♪”
“Good morning! Sorry it’s so early in the morning!”
“Good morning♪ Don’t worry about it! Come on up, it’s cold out there, get in, get in.”
As usual, I quietly went in and said, “Sorry to disturb you.”
And Auntie whispered to me…
“I’ve prepared breakfast, so wake Ichiro up and you two eat first. Oh, you can cuddle Ichiro today too♪”
“He’s going to get angry again, so I won’t.”
But when he’s awake, I won’t hold back.
“Eh~ That’s too bad!”
Auntie is in high spirits like always…
In Moriyama-kun’s room, the smell of Moriyama-kun filling the room stimulated my brain, but I managed to suppress my excitement and calmly woke Moriyama-kun up this time.
But unlike his usual nervous, logical and skeptical self, sleepy Moriyama-kun is spaced out, and that’s also extremely cute…
My maternal instincts were stimulated and I helped Moriyama-kun to change his clothes like a mother taking care of her child, and I became even more excited…
Ah, I want to hug him and bury my face in his chest!
Better yet, I want to get under the futon with him and sleep again!
No, don’t panic, Himeka.
You’ve got two days and it’s just getting started! There’s still a long way to go!
If you rush and overdo it here, you’ll ruin everything.
I told myself that and managed to suppress my feelings.
Afterwards, after breakfast prepared by Auntie, I took Moriyama-kun, who was still half-asleep, for a walk with Dozle-kun.
When I’m alone with Moriyama-kun, I can forget about my recent jealousy and frustration as if it were a lie.
I walk hand in hand with Moriyama-kun along a pleasant morning walk.
Ah~, I’m so happy.
When we arrived at the primary school, I was doing my daily flexibility exercises when Moriyama-kun suddenly said, “Can you teach me a karate pattern?”
I was very happy to hear those words, which came as a surprise.
I like karate, but I also have a complex about it.
I’m afraid that people around me think I’m a violent woman.
That’s why I’ve taken extra care in my appearance and language to act like a woman.
But seeing me like that, Moriyama-kun became interested in karate.
And he wanted to learn from me.
Is there anything more joyful than this?
He sees me properly as “Himeka Urushibara the Karate Master.”
And he didn’t make fun of me or be afraid of me, he just smiled his usual kind smile and said, “I want you to teach me.”
I have feelings for Moriyama-kun that go beyond mere romantic feelings.
Respect?
Adoration?
Appreciation?
Worship?
I don’t know what it is now, but I do know that it’s an important feeling.
But this blind faith of mine had also created a small wound, like a prick, in my heart, which had recently lost itself in jealousy, impatience and the joy of spending time together.
The wound was a small tear, and it didn’t take me long to notice it.
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When we returned to Moriyama-kun’s house, we prepared a kotatsu in his room. I flirted with Moriyama-kun for a little bit before immediately studying.
During the study, we were able to work together and concentrate as we always do.
If there is something we don’t understand, we can ask each other questions and share our opinions, and we can really make progress if we study together.
Also, during the study, every time I feel tired due to concentrating, I ask for a hug from Moriyama-kun to soothe me.
Besides, I’m going to push and push and push through today, so I should be able to land a few light jabs.
We continued studying until the evening, with lunch in between.
The show is on at night.
I’m thinking of taking the plunge here.